MADISON MEADOWS: A Spiritual Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Soulful Healing

We have these extraordinary minds and souls because there is a supreme intelligence in the Universe, which wishes for communion with us.  This supreme intelligence longs to be known.  It calls out to us.  It draws us close to its mystery, and it grants us these remarkable minds, in order that we try to reach for it.  It wants us to find it.  It wants union with us, more than anything. Reference~ The Signature of All Things

It is on which things that cannot be found that I created her.  She bares witness to my creation.  ~God

Empty sky passes away into empty mind rest comes when I bury all things empty of myself I become full of emptiness room now to expand my fullness emptiness a dear friend

I became crazy really insane and insane people never sleep they don't even know where they might find the path that leads to sleep God too never sleeps so God's insane people are simply taking after God Reference~Rumi

Falling the way you do at times, I offer my body between you and the street. Any concern for you from another heart, protects. Prayers can solicit angels' help. What is meant to be, is just that, and will unfold. Still, show some guts.  Say to destiny,           "I am calling the shots around here; take a hike." That probably won't change much, but you will  get my respect. Falling the way you will at times, I offer my body between you and any street, pothole, or abyss. Reference~ The Purity Of Desire

You forgave me when I remained silent. You forgave me when I remained distant. You forgave me when I showed you no mercy. You forgave me when I never said, " I am sorry. " You forgave me when the choices I made kept us apart. You forgave me when my heart hardened. You forgave me in all of my shortcomings. And is all of your forgiveness,  I received your gift of love and forgave myself.

Sebastian, I had a dream about you.  In the dream you wanted to know more about your mother.  I explained to you that her drug use started shortly after I met her.  It only escalated after you were born. At the time when I met her, she radiated life.  She was very charismatic, very artistic, just a very colorful human being.  She was a very beautiful woman that other women envied for her beauty.  Her intelligence could out wit or trap a man. This is how I once knew her. Then her drug addiction took over her life completely.  Her hidden traits and darker parts of her soul consumed her.  All the beauty was gone.   Sebastian, your mother had the presence of mind to give you up because she knew you deserved a better life.  She did this because she loved you.   There is so much about her that is a mystery to me.  Over the years I have tried my best to keep tabs on her.  I pray for her everyday. I pray she finds ...

Be annoyingly well informed my Friend!  When the Beloved comes with news it is the break of the wave on a rock, the sound of a bird's flapping wings, the moon's silent retreat in the night sky.  All things of utter importance convey the same message. There is a constant love play going on everywhere; reminding you that love is all there is.

The ark, or physical body, was once considered sacred by all ancient religious traditions. The animals of the Noah story represent these germs of all living things, the sperm and ovum contained within the physical body.  These germs within man and woman are represented by the "male and female animals" stored within the "ark".  These primordial root elements can provide physical life or spiritual life, depending upon the usage. Physical death does not guarantee purification and salvation, since this is something internal, beyond the physical world.  Despite the sufferings, difficulties, and sacrifices involved by walking this path, it is the only one that results in the complete development and liberation of the soul. It is only once our internal psychological filthiness is eradicated by the flood water of spiritual practice that Elohim can establish a new heaven and a new earth.  The heavens representing a pure state of consciousness and the earth referring to ...

"The length of the tebah shall be three hundred cubits, the breadth of it fifty cubits, and the height of it thirty cubits." Genesis 6:15 Every Hebrew letter is also a number. 300: Shin, which represents fire. 50: Nun, which represents fish. 30: Lamed, which represents a staff. These letters represent the work that must be done in the physical body in order to achieve liberation. The letter Shin relates to the trinity the 3 primary forces.  It is the creative fire at the base of life.  A power of creation inherent in every atom, a power we must harness and direct towards liberation. The letter Nun is life in movement, the "fish" or living power of sexuality.  By harnessing that force, we can achieve the "second birth."  Jesus spoke often of the "living water." The letter Lamed is the staff of Moses, rod of Aaron, which represents the creative fire of the letter shin raised upon a pole as a brazen serpent, like Moses did.  The creati...

John Collier painted this portrait of a Greek Baccante with her symbolic items: the skin of the slain animal desire, the wreath of victory on her head, and in her hand, the staff topped by a pine cone, symbol of the awakened pineal gland, the "seat of the soul," the "eye of Brahma," or in other words, the source of spiritual vision.   The Ark represents stages of development of the "body".  Genesis 6:14 "Make thee an ark of gopher wood; rooms shall thou make in the ark, and shall pitch it within and without with pitch". In Hebrew the first two letters can be interpreted as "wood" or "tree".  The two trees of significance in the Bible are written with the Hebrew "ets" the tree of life and the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Pitch refers to how the vessel is hermetically sealed, to keep the impure flood waters out. This whole story started with the abuse of the tree of knowledge.  It is why Adam and Ev...

"Noah a righteous [iysh]..." Genesis 6:9 The word iysh "fire" with the letter iod in the middle represents someone who is following the commandments, obeying the pact of fire (sexual purity), who stands in the midst of the fire of the furnace and is not burned (Daniel 3).  Furnace is etymologically connected to the word "fornication". By preserving our inner Noah, our divinity can purge the impurity that traps us in suffering.  That inner fire, Noah, has to be protected in the ark-anum- the secret knowledge- within which he will float upon the waters that consume all impurity.  The water and the fire work together. Reference~ gnosticteachings.org

"These are the results of Noah: Noah was a righteous and perfect in his generation, and Noah walked with Elohim.  And Noah begat three sons: Shem, Ham, and Japheth."  Genesis 6:9-10 The three sons of Noah are symbolic of the three parts of the fully developed soul.  In spite of the degeneration that has corrupted us all, "Noah" must survive if the soul is to be developed.  This aspect of developing the soul was edited out of Christianity's teaching.  The developed soul is represented by the wedding garment mentioned by Jesus. The soul can only be made through a "second birth" taught by Jesus as resulting from the Holy Spirit (fire) and a secret living water, both which are hidden symbolically throughout the scriptures. "Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God."  John 3 Birth is sexual, whether relating to physical birth or spiritual birth.  The so...

"But Noah found grace in the eyes of Iod-Chavah." Genesis 6:8 The Hebrew name Noah has two letters.  The first letter, Nun, represents a fish.  The second letter, Chet, is the root of the word Chai, "life".  The name Noah hides these elements: the fish and life itself.   The fish represents the life forces in the water.  The source of our lives is the sexual energy.  The sperm and ovum are "fish" in the waters of sexuality.  When combined life emerges. The fish is the core symbol in all religions.  Thus "Noah" is a seed hidden inside us.  Noah is the seed of the soul. Noah represents the true nature of our psyche (the consciousness, the soul, the buddha nature)- a pure, radiant spark of the divine, which through a specific science can be grown into an angel, buddha, master, etc.   "So Elohim created Adam in their image." Genesis 1:27 The Hebrew word Elohim is plural: it means gods and goddesses. Reference~ gnosticteachin...

The earth represents that which houses our psyche; the "earth" is our body.  We live in our "earth", the body, yet that body is not just physical.  It is also the body we inhabit when we dream, imagine, daydream, or fantasize. "And Iod-Chavah (our inner divinity) saw that the impurity (pollution) of our mind was great in the body, and that every imagination of the thoughts of his heart was only impurity continually. "And it repented Iod-Chavah that he had made the mind that is in the body, and it grieved him at his heart." "And Iod-Chavah said, I will destroy that corrupted mind whom I have created from the image of the body; both the mind and the animal ego, and the creeping thing (perverted elements in our mind), and the fowls of the heavens (distracting thoughts that fly in fantasy...")  Genesis 6 Our minds are deeply corrupted with pride, lust, anger, envy, greed, etc.  All of that exists because of the choices we have made temp...

Cain and Abel represent the conflicts in us between the innate purity of the psyche (Abel) and the ever dissatisfied desires we have (Cain).  Our desires "kill" the purity of the psyche (Cain kills Abel).  Abel, that part of us, does not cease to exist, by "dying" is represented how it has become almost completely powerless, trapped, overwhelmed, by the spread of desire.  When desire rules us psychologically, Abel is rendered "dead". Reference~ gnosticteachings.org

(Genesis 1-4 ) Adam and Eve lived in a state of bliss and knew divinity personally.  They chose to eat the "forbidden fruit" of the Tree of Knowledge.  In Hebrew, the words are written tobve rah, which means "goodness and impurity."  They imply the Tree of Knowledge is dual: it can be used for benefit through purity, or harm through pollution or impurity.  Adam and Eve broke the commandment given to them by divinity, thus they became polluted by rah: impurity.  That is how they lost the ability to walk and talk with Elohim. Reference~gnosticteachings.org

In the original Hebrew scripture there is no reference to a boat, Genesis/Bereshit 6:14 "Make thee a tebah of gopher wood..." Tebah means "chest, box, case, or hull, body."  Tebah indicates a container.  The word "ark" appears in the Latin translation as "arca."  It translates into a chest, both as a box and the trunk of the human body and also as a coffin. In the Bible, there are several types of "arks."  In each case, the "ark" is a container that protects something sacred.  It is like the "hull" of a seed: it protects the life-giving elements inside.  The word "ark" is related to "arcane, arcanum" which means something hidden, a secret, known only to those specially informed.  The arcane knowledge has always been reserved for those who were prepared beforehand to use it. Reference~ gnosticteachings.org

From Journal Entry 9/2013 I am standing in front of the Ark.  Noah is there with the animals. Noah is like a giant. The air is vibrating with God's consciousness. It penetrates my being . I feel alive and am in awe of Noah's greatness. Everything from the animals, the landscape, the sky is beautiful. The story of Noah would take on a personal spiritual meaning for me. As I dug deeper into the mystical meaning of Noah and the Ark, I would find it's value that spoke to my core answering my questions, "Why am I really here, why is the world the way it is, and who am I ?" It's value extends to all of humanity, speaks to our divinity, sheds light on our suffering, and how to begin the journey back to the Godhead. To understand the story of Noah, one must begin in the Garden of Eden where man and woman walked and talked with God before their fall from grace. When Cain and Abel come along, your introduced to the divinity within us and the ego that corrupts our...

If in heaven there is no you, then it is not heaven.  If in hell I am cast, it's flames will not burn like the burn of separation from you.   Oh Beloved, I have tasted the wine of union and neither heaven or hell has a hold on me.  Your love illuminates my heart, and even it's light pierces the veil of heaven that the angels become jealous and the demons in the pit of hell hide in terror.   My eyes are tired and sore from all my tears of longing for you.  The ocean that separates us hinders my soul.  Cast me not into Heaven or Hell!  Like a moth drawn to a flame, I only desire love's annihilation. 

Chief Seattle was the last spokesmen of the Paleolithic moral order.  The US Government inquired about buying the tribal lands for the arriving people of the US in 1852. The following is the letter Chief Seattle wrote in reply: "The President in Washington sends word that he wishes to buy our land.  But how can you buy or sell the sky? The land?  The idea is strange to us.  If we do not own the freshness of the air and the sparkle of the water, how can you buy them? "Every part of this earth is sacred to my people.  Every shining pine needle, every sandy shore, every mist in the dark woods, every meadow, every humming insect.  All are holy in the memory and experience of my people. "We know the sap which courses through the trees as we know the blood that courses through our veins.  We are part of the earth and it is part of us.  The perfumed flowers are our sisters.  The bear, the deer, the great eagle, these are our brothers.  The...

Dear Reader, As you walk your path in life, know that as long as you walk in guilt you are trapped in time.  Christ was guiltless, and the guilty hung him on the cross.  Eternity is the wholeness of God's love. Your guilt does not serve you on your journey.  It is useless to God.  The chains of time are bound by guilt.  Slip back into eternity where you are not judged.  Don't let the carpet of time roll up on you as your days come to past.  Learn to judge yourself through God's loving eyes.  Others will judge your heart, but they are only fit to judge in time with the ego. In time, confusion and distortion of the truth exist.  As you awaken, the truth will set you free.  You must be courageous enough to uphold it. God Bless,  Madison Michelle

There is no place on earth where death cannot find us- even if we constantly twist our heads about in all directions as in a dubious and suspect land... If there were any way of sheltering from death's blows- I am not the man to recoil from it... But it is madness to think that you can succeed... Men come and they go and they trot and they dance, and never a word about death.  All well and good.  Yet when death does come- to them, their wives, their children, their friends- catching them unawares and unprepared, then what storms of passion overwhelm them, what cries, what fury, what despair!... To begin depriving death of its greatest advantage over us, let us adopt a way clean contrary to that common one; let us deprive death of its strangeness, let us frequent it, let us get used to it; let us have nothing more often in mind than death... We do not know where death awaits us: so let us wait for it everywhere.  To practice death is to practice freedom.  A man w...

Death signifies the separation of the soul of man from God; whereas immortality signifies union with God.  Corporeal death, that is the separation of soul and body, is conceived first as a consequence of man's separation from God.  It is the symbol of a union with God that has been lost, whereas immortality of the body is a testimony and proof of interior intimacy with God. God alone is the being , the unique and genuine reality.  Consequently union with God is the only guarantee of a complete personal being .  Separation from God is equivalent to loss of claim to one's own existence.  God is life: privation of life is death.  Hence the sinner separated from God is in reality dead, though he continues to exist as far as the body is concerned.  The unending existence in the state of damnation of his soul is rightly described not as everlasting life, but everlasting death.  Reference~ The Doctrine of Spiritual Perfection, Anselm Stolz

Dear Death, Because of you Death, I am more alive.  You took me into your bosom and held me like a child.  You gave me rest, and your ardent presence beguiled all of my senses.  I lost my senses because of you!  You are a thief!  You have removed the veil of ignorance.  You stole my heart.   Then you withdrew your breath and I woke up begging for you to come back.  Please take me with you! I beg you! Oh Death, you are a flirtatious lover, teasing me with your seductive whispers.  How I marvel at your grace.  You greet me at the appointed hour, appointed by God.  How I rush to meet you!   You promise release from this body.  Why do so many fear you when all you hold is beauty?  If the stars never twinkled in the night sky, or the moon cast her glow, we would vainly curse the darkness. Death, when my hour does finally arrive, we will embrace like old friends.  We will shed tears of joy over my homecomin...

The death of the physical is birth in the spiritual.  Many souls do not awaken after their physical death.  They have ill prepared themselves for the transition.  Like a child born into the physical, a soul is like a child born into the spiritual.  Gradually it awakens to its surroundings.  The desires of the entity are a portion of its consciousness.  It is unable to move on from the astral plane and goes about its business as if it were still physically alive.  What it craves and desires it goes in search for and often attaches itself to a living being with the same addictions to fulfill its cravings. Reference~ Edgar Cayce, No Soul Left Behind

A thousand desires run through my body.  Remove the veil and my garments!  Every part of my flesh screams for you to explore its curves and texture.  What would you feel like inside of me?  All my valuable garments removed to satisfy my thousand desires.

A man can not embrace his religion until he first knows what religion doesn't embrace him.  How is a man to embrace his true nature and know what to measure it by?   Those who stand in truth have a portion greater than all others.  Explore the boundaries of the fools who claim they know the one and only true way to God.  But be warned, the fools will cast you out!  The wise man knows what he isn't by the ones who continually cast him out.

When you and I met on the mountain of transcendence, we gauged our love with an open presence. We drew in the rays of the sun, all our shortcomings were completely undone. On this summit where we now sit, a fire burns where love is lit. The veil of tears separates our souls. Grief and loneliness we deeply know. If we linger to long on the top of this peak, we will fail to see clearly what it is we are meant to see. This spiritual communion between your heart and mine, is our longing to serve the Divine. This world is our book. We write in it our secret words. To not share the knowing would be a crime. Our lives would be one big lie. If we continue this journey down the other side, we might discover something rare and fine. A gem, a jewel meant for only you and I to see. But you will never know unless you have faith and believe.

only you i choose among the entire world is it fair of you letting me be unhappy my heart is a pen in your hand it is all up to you to write me happy or sad i see only what you reveal and live as you say all my feelings have the color you desire to paint Reference~ Rumi

When I revealed love's secret, jealousy hung me by the neck. Jealousy and time are fickle, like a fair weather friend. But love stays and endures all seasons.

all my friends departed like dreams left alone i called upon one friend to become my entire dream this is the one who soothes my heart with endless tenderness and love the one who  one hour bestows inner peace and the next the nectar of life this dream too as it arrives i come alive and as it departs i'm helpless again Reference~ Rumi

In the tree of the material body, the individual soul and the Supreme Soul, or Supersoul, are sitting like two friendly birds.  The first bird (the individual soul) is eating the tree's fruits, which are happiness and distress.  The second bird (the Supersoul) is simply watching.  Although these two birds are friends, and although they are of the same spiritual quality, the Supersoul is the master and the individual soul the servant.  But the individual soul has forgotten this relationship, and thus he must transmigrate from one tree to another, or from one body to another.  The individual soul is struggling very hard on the trees of innumerable material bodies, but as soon as he agrees to accept the guidance of the Supersoul, the supreme spiritual master, he immediatly becomes free from all lamentations. Reference~ Shimad Bhagavatam, First Canto by His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada

The starry Princess gazed up at the night sky.   All the stars illuminated her mind. Beyond their glow, beyond their burn- was another realm, a secret world. All the idols in her life, were but idols she watched fade and die. When she looked up into the stars, she could perceive time coming undone. "How is it the stars hang like lights against a black darkened sky? Who put them there? Who created such mystery? Who is the creator that really wrote the stars history?" She pondered on through the night about such questions that lay veiled behind a moon filled blackened sky. When the Princess's intensity of her search ceased to end, she witnessed something magical from Heaven sent. Shooting straight in front of her like a jeweled crown, the star blazed a message from it's secret place. "Look beyond my lit up face. There you will see the King himself. The Creator, the Beloved, you're one true Friend. Do not be fooled by what your two eye...

Make a choice wisely, because each choice you make is a creative act of spiritual power for which you are held responsible.  Further, any choice made from faith has the full power of heaven behind it- which is why "faith the size of a mustard seed can move a mountain."  And any choice made from fear is a violation of the energy of faith. Reference~ Anatomy of the Spirit

Doubts of your existence flood my mind.  I question whether or not you even exist.  I do not entertain this thought for to long.  There is a nobler doubt in question.  And that is since I must die and everything in this world does, then is this life just a dream that I will awake from when death takes me? If your presence is inside of me, then will it not be with me always?  Layers upon layers of reality peel away when I contemplate your existence.

Dear Beloved, How do I detach myself from you?  How do I stop dwelling on your memory?  How do I move forward?  I know I must let you go, but I don't know how to.  If what holds me back is faith, then the only choice is to hand it over completely to God.   Our relationship is complicated, yet it is utterly profoundly simple.  Being human has huge drawbacks.  I am limited.  I am scared.  My greatest fear is that you will forget me, I too must lay it to rest. My heart tells me that all I have to do is completely trust God and let Him do the rest.  I pray I can let your memory go, so something new can emerge in it's place. I know on my search for truth, I am never alone.  I do feel your presence inside of me.  I pray you are well and that you feel God's presence in your life.  May our souls find rest in knowing that love never dies, it transforms the world around us. Your Darling    

How strange the lovers must be to other folks.  Lovers know the secret of eternity.  They run back and forth from this world and the next, as if it is natural and effortless to pick up the soul- journeying to hidden places that only they know the entrance into.

Our life crisis tell us that we need to break free of beliefs that no longer serve our personal development.  These points at which we must choose to change or to stagnate are our greatest challenges.  Every new crossroad means we enter into a new cycle of change- whether it be adopting a new health regimen or a new spiritual practice.  And change inevitable means letting go of familiar people and places, and moving on to another stage in life. Reference~ Anatomy of The Spirit

The holy instant is a miniature of Heaven, sent you from Heaven.   It is a miniature of eternity.   It is a picture of timelessness, set in a frame of time. The holy relationship is a major step toward the perception of the real world.   It is the old unholy relationship transformed and seen anew.   The holy relationship is a phenomenal teaching accomplishment.   As it begins, develops, and becomes accomplished, it represents the reversal of the unholy relationship.   The only difficult phase is the beginning.   For here, the goal of the relationship is abruptly shifted to the exact opposite of what it was.   This is the first result of offering the relationship to the Holy Spirit to use for His purposes. The Holy Spirit accepts the invitation immediately.   At once His goal replaces yours.   This is accomplished very rapidly, but it makes the relationship seem disturbed, disjunctive, and even quite distressing. ...

Yes I encountered God I have conversed with angels I have been pressed by demons I have flown towards the five moons and soared on ethereal shores Yes I have encountered other life forms and seen worlds only depicted in books I have even heard voices inside my head I have seen evil and stared it in the eye In all my states I have yet to master this reality But I assure you I have not taken anything lethal or foreign to explain my insanity It was all clearheaded madness that is to blame!

forgive me if I get cocky and conceited at times I'm just your drunk don't rush me to my death you already have me in your hand you tell me: "I've created such a big  world for you to play in" but you tied my feet so where could I go? Reference~  Rumi

My thought of you was beautiful.  Because it was of beauty, it created a miracle that only God was witness to.  My thought had a dual nature though. It was a crime of passion.

Our minds connected, communicate with each other.  What use is the body to us?  With our hearts aligned with God's will the body becomes useless.  Only in time can we heal our minds.  Only through chastity do we acquire true vision.   Once the spiritual eye is open there are no more judgements.  All the parts come together as One .  We know the mysteries of God.  Our only desire now is to share the knowing.

Everyone has experienced what he would call a sense of being transported beyond himself.   It is a sense of actual escape from limitations.   “Transportation” entails a sudden unawareness of the body and a joining of yourself and something else in which your mind enlarges to encompass it.   It becomes a part of you as you unite with it.   And both become whole as neither is perceived as separate. What really happens is that you have given up the illusion of a limited awareness and lost your fear of union.   The love that instantly replaces it extends to what has freed you and unites with it.   And while this lasts, you are not uncertain of your identity and would not limit it.   You have escaped from fear to peace, asking no questions of reality but merely accepting it.   You have accepted this instead of the body and have let yourself be one with something beyond it simply by not letting your mind be limited by it. This can ...

Health is not of the body.  To be healthy is to have a healthy mind.  The mind of God created life.  God's mind is infinite yet unchanging.  Man identifies himself with the condition of his body.  The body is finite and cannot experience God.  Only the mind can be used to gain knowledge of God.   This is how the Holy Spirit communicates.  The ego sees a division in Creation. The ego tries desperately to protect it's existence.  It is in a constant state of fear.  It is fighting for it's survival. It fears death.    God's creation is whole, created in His likeness. To see yourself deprived of His goodness in not clear seeing.  The ego is insane and unreal.  The mind of man created the ego, not God.  God is all love and joy.  Any pain man experiences is because he does not see himself whole.  By directing your attention inwards you can gain access to the mind of God.  Your wholeness is ...

Break out of your shell.  The world desperately needs your art!  All the suffering your harbour has served you on your path.  Anchor yourself in the present, and the best thing in you will come forth from your suffering.