My Spirit Animal Visit: The Wolf

 9/14/2021

I was outside with my dog. It was around 9pm. Suddenly I see a large energetic animal walking through my yard towards me. I was startled. I watched it with intrigue as it moved closer to me. It was big! 

I reflected on this encounter and my mind went to my first encounter with my spirit animal, the wolf, back in 1997. I realized that the animal I encountered was again my spirit animal, the wolf. This time, however, he was big, strong, and powerful. It's like I was being shown how he's grown into his power and how he's moving now with a sense of purpose.

The wolf that I remember from twenty-plus years ago was starving and wild. It all reflects on my spiritual journey that began in my early 20's when I was starving for truth and my spirit was wild. I've tamed my spirit, learned my truth, and grown into my personal power. I'm ready for whatever is coming next in my life. It feels like I've entered a new season. The meaning below seems to coincide with how I was feeling at the time and reassures me that my instincts are very sharp and to trust myself moving forward.

Wolves are wild animals – they are beautiful creatures of mystery that cannot be domesticated.  

If a Wolf appears to you in a certain period of your life when you’re in doubt of the changes that are happening, it can be reassuring you that the path you’re taking is the right one and that you’re being loyal to your instincts.

Equally, if the Wolf presents itself in a moment in life where you feel stuck, it might be reminding you that you’re a free spirit, that you can deviate from whatever path you are currently on and become a ‘lone wolf‘ if necessary in order to pursue your dreams.

Wolf Spirit Animal (Meaning Explained) ⋆ LonerWolf by Mateo Sol

Missed Opportunity

 

there has been moments

for us

under circumstances

that I'm sure

that the divine was behind

each time

i got to see you

was an opportunity missed

by both of us

to be open, honest, real

you are my heartache

that I will never get over

The Mirror

Every morning

You wake up

And feel depressed

You thought this feeling would fade by now

You thought, with time, you'd move on

From the heartbreak and pain

You sit in front of the mirror and contemplate your inner state

You know good and well

You are not your feelings

And your awareness of this

Does not dictate how you approach your day

Yes, some days are not as heavy as others

Yes, you may always feel broken inside

But you determine your attitude

You choose if you'll smile at your reflection in the mirror

And whether or not you'll do your best to find happiness

In whatever good, small or big

comes your way

In the meantime

Have a good cry and shake it off

The world needs strong women like you

You Are A Whole, So Live A Whole Life

 “Do not love half lovers

Do not entertain half friends 

Do not indulge in works of the half talented

Do not live half a life 

and do not die a half death

If you choose silence, then be silent

When you speak, do so until you are finished

Do not silence yourself to say something

And do not speak to be silent

If you accept, then express it bluntly

Do not mask it

If you refuse then be clear about it 

for an ambiguous refusal is but a weak acceptance

Do not accept half a solution

Do not believe half truths

Do not dream half a dream

Do not fantasize about half hopes

Half a drink will not quench your thirst

Half a meal will not satiate your hunger

Half the way will get you no where

Half an idea will bear you no results

Your other half is not the one you love

It is you in another time yet in the same space

It is you when you are not

Half a life is a life you didn't live, 

A word you have not said

A smile you postponed 

A love you have not had

A friendship you did not know

To reach and not arrive

Work and not work

Attend only to be absent

What makes you a stranger to them closest to you

and they strangers to you

The half is a mere moment of inability

but you are able for you are not half a being

You are a whole that exists to live a life 

not half a life”~

~Kahlil Gibran

Moving Through Pain

 

I'm done looking back
Having regrets
Full of remorse
So many tears
Cried over the years
Over a broken dream
I gave my all
And he took my all
Now it's time to move forward
And regain my self respect
Some relationships are just broken
And some will break you
He almost broke my spirit
And he would of won
But I'm not the type
Of woman to not fight back
I do what ever it takes to survive
I'm the type of woman
That pushes forward
And I learn from the past
Every time making better choices
Every time becoming stronger
And more aware of the courageous woman I am

Twin Flames: The Journey of Madness

 

Many nights I tried to conjure your presence...

You lying next to me.

I'd speak your name in my mind and close my eyes while imagining what your touch feels like.

Looking back now, I was a woman deeply in love...

In deep with a phantom that haunts my dreams.

It is madness of a sort that no human should endure.

Did you put a spell on me?

Did you cast all your longings to the gods and they somehow reach me in my sleep?

Love is cruel.

You are cruel.

The Effects of Cancel Culture

When you are confident secure and sovereign in your truth, your knowingness,  you will not be threatened or insecure by anyone else’s truth.

Turning your back on someone, canceling someone, bullying, name calling, belittling are all behaviors stemming from trauma, programming and deep insecurity.

It’s a response from someone that is threatened by another’s truth.

When you are solid, sovereign, aligned and at peace with your truth, I promise you, the above behaviors will never resonate with you. You just won’t do them.

Confidence in who you are and what you believe breeds compassion and empathy for any other truth outside of yours.

You don’t have to accept it, obviously, but you can be the sovereign human you incarnated as and allow free will and diversity to exist amongst you.

Pay attention to divisive behavior disguised as honor. Anything that pulls humanity apart creating segregation is part of the problem not the solution.

We are here to rise above division. Cancel culture is division in the most deceptive way.

We aren’t here to cancel anyone. We are here to allow our hearts to remind us that this game we are playing is designed to be beat. We will see through the illusion of separation and eventually remember we have always been unified.

Do not forget, this is the evolution in our human consciousness. This is not physical but energetic. Playing in the illusion of separation and divide is only perpetuating the collective shadow.

Stay in your heart.

CANCEL CULTURE

Is Insecurity, Trauma, And Programming

Disguised As Confidence And Righteousness.

- Lorie Ladd