Saturday, May 15, 2021
Thursday, May 13, 2021
Sunday, May 9, 2021
i remember the days
of fighting for peace and happiness
wondering why does everyday
have to be a struggle
when you remove yourself
from toxic people
how much better you feel
you realize just how closed
your chakras were
how your emotional body
was doing everything it could
to protect you
it's like living in a place
that never gets sun and always rains
then one day the sun appears
and you are amazed
at its presence
and how awesome you feel
this is what i've struggled with
my whole life
believing i had to put up with negativity
when all i had to do was remove myself
you can grow accustom to the dark
and fear change
facing your fears
leading to new dimensions of life
you never thought possible
take the first step
to free yourself
and the sun will greet you
because once i stepped
into the light
the darkness around me
suddenly became possible
Tuesday, May 4, 2021
Thursday, April 29, 2021
For years I was the chaser pursuing you.
Writing my heart out and knowing intuitively that my words were reaching you.
For years I hoped you would respond and tell me I'm not crazy.
That I'm not alone.
That you are with me feeling what I'm feeling.. going through what I'm going through.
Back then, I needed to be validated.
I thought then I could put an end to my destructive thoughts that I had about myself.
I really believed I needed you to tell me my worth.
Through time I've learned that was just my own insecurities.
That was me avoiding self-acceptance through self-love.
I didn't want to look any deeper into myself and see the brokenness.. I knew I was broken but never dealt with the why part of it.
Divorcing a narcissist ripped open all those wounds at once.
I didn't even have time to process my pain.
I was forced to face my short comings, my downfalls, the broken parts of myself because what was happening to me was breaking me.
My world was shattering all around me as everything I valued was being stripped away.
I had no time to reflect on his actions because I was forced to ACT.
It forced me to be strong.
To be independent.
To trust my intuition and control my fears.
To humble myself and ask God for help.
It forced me to become the woman that I was born to be.
My soul lesson I learned.
My karma I've paid.
No one has power over me.. not even you.
Consider this a positive.
I can speak my truth and what you do or don't do with it doesn't matter to me anymore.
And I can see clearly now that at some point on my spiritual path, I became too dependent on you.
I became obsessed with the dreams of you and the synchronicities that I lost sight of the One who should always be at my center.. God.
I started my journey twenty-five years ago with a longing to know God intimately.
There is no better way to know the Creator than through His creation.
You and I carry God's secret within us.
We're the fortunate ones.
We have been touched by the Presence of God in our lives.. knowing that divine love is all that exist and that our bond can never be broken.
Wednesday, April 28, 2021
Reviewed by Vernita Naylor for Readers' Favorite
Grit. Raw. Explosive. Fear. Life is depicted not only in the words but in the written form within this book of poems. Madison Meadows displays the different elements of traumatic expressions that the reader will experience and feel when reading over thirty poems in The Fire in a Woman's Belly 1. This book reflects the push and pull of emotions that abuse causes to one's psyche. Abuse takes on several forms from mental to physical which leaves not only bruises but scars in different ways. Hear the voice of the author speak and expose the many women (and now men) suffering from the hurt, disrespect, and wounds of victims. This book creates a double-edged sword effect due to its transformation position of change. I love the poems in this book. Immediately you're hit with the passion of the author through the writing. I enjoyed the whole book but my favorites were The Crowd of Sorrows, Unwanted, Temporary Event, Fixed On God and I Miss Me. As the reader comes to the climax of the collection, Madison Meadows focuses on healing, release, hope, and self-love. While each of the poems tantalized my senses, as the author began to close this chapter of life, the poems A Lifetime of Healing from Narcissistic Abuse and The Fire in a Woman's Belly help to settle the spirit. Healing from abuse is a process and will take a while to overcome but with a book of poems of reflective expressions, you will see that you're not alone. The Fire in a Woman's Belly 1 is highly recommended.
Monday, April 26, 2021