what i think of you
ten years ago
you would of gotten
the watered down version
but meeting assholes
i don't have time
for this shit
My writing is inspired by my vivid dreams, my active imagination, my twin soul, and reflections on my daily life. Join me and become part of my inward spiritual journey to self-discovery and divine love.
The Fall of 1999
I remember that day like it was yesterday. I heard a knock on my door and when I opened it my heart fluttered with a million butterflies and I fell into you. It felt like a long-lost lover had finally returned home. You caught me off guard when my defenses were down. You said you were there to pick up your moped. You said you use to live in this house. How strange our paths crossed at a moment when I was living with your friend and unknowing to me your girlfriend was in the car waiting for you. You said you were in town for the Monet exhibit. That day changed my life. I didn't know it then but my heart chakra was blown wide open and I experienced myself as a multidimensional being. Soon after that, the dreams of you came. To this day your soul still finds me when I'm sleeping, somewhere between this world and the next.
i let my fear silence me.
i was too young back then to have the courage to speak my truth.
i regret leaving things as i did with you.
maybe things would be different for us both if only i came to you first.
i never took into consideration how my writing would impact your life and cause ripples in their wake.
i apologize for not being sensitive to how my words would change your life.
i feel the choices i made only made things harder on you- your marriage and friendships.
i accept your silence; whereas it's been what i've struggled with most.
i've grown in ways i never imagined.
please know i have restored peace in my life.
that where i'm at has only felt possible because of you.
i will always be grateful for your invisible love and strength.
of course, i have to keep going and finish writing the rest of my story.
i don't know how to write our end.
maybe this is it.
maybe it's not.
the ending is up to you and my door always open to you.
it is my sincere hope that one day you will tell me your truth.
even if you think it would be hard for me to hear, i still want the truth.
how does the saying go?
the truth shall set you free.
i think it would set us both free!
sometimes when a man
acts like he doesn't care
he actually does
he just may not be
a confrontation with you
so he hides
holds back his feelings for you
until he's matured enough
to say what he feels
without feeling vulnerable
and doubting his own heart
exposing himself (in his eyes)
naked to you
The pain of not being together:
The pain of facing your shadows:
The pain of losing things in life:
Overall this journey is painful, but worth experience, as the pain always leads to a divine peace, it leads to you. Throughout this journey, your twin flame's love keeps you strong, though you're already born very strong. Thanks to the energetic connection between twins, the dreams, telepathy, the feeling of having your twin within you, all signs and synchronicity …every such thing keeps your faith on love, on this connection. Eventually you loose your grip on aspects of yourself that once leaves your being, you become authentic, you get close to God, you believe in divine union. Your twin flame also does show up at times in life and opens up to you about their love for you, and you feel more compassionate to them as you understand their pain as well. And when the thought finally dawns on you….that your twin flame is your spiritual partner, and you both are in this journey together….I think that's when no such obstacle seems like obstacles.
Reference ~ Tapasi On the Twin Flame Journey - Quora