Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

  Go as deep inside of me as you want Penetrate my core Explore  When you reach the Edge of me Know it's not Where I end But it is where I begin My mystery Is your doing  My history  Is you becoming Undone in me Where there is no you And there is no me There is only I We both like This intimate game Of hide and seek When you find me Then it is my turn To find you We invented the game And the world is our Playground And when we are bored With it or want to hide From the world  We know the secret Entrance to a secret  World that only lovers Know how to find Our mystery  Is the key to Understanding life's  Mysteries Oh if everyone just Gave up the silly games Of the world  And joined in with The lovers for a little Game of hide and seek This world would vanish Into nonexistent All beings would become Invisible cloaked in Joseph's coat Of many colors  The dead would rise out of their graves  And sing Hallelujah  Moses would come do...

A thousand cuts inflicted on myself for your one Pain being the only true measurement  Of what was real  And yet so much remains unknown I may never know if you felt pain Pain of loving  The pain of remembering  And the pain of losing me But I did  And still do for you What has changed  Is that another love Has stepped in Taken your place Your memory still in me But no longer consumes me Sometimes I wonder If you sent him to me Because it was the only act of love You could do for me How strange love is It binds me to you And now to him Our fates all sealed And joined

  She did not betray Her thoughts of him She wrote them all down Tucked safely in a drawer Where years from now She'd rediscover them And relive his memory  All over again

  The words I want to say to you are sitting on my chest.  So many emotions I've carried around with me with no suitable place to go. I'm tired of feeling this way.. Loved but not loved, heard but not validated. There comes a point one gets to when the heavy grief that burdens the heart has to go somewhere.  I've come to that point of longing no more because my heart is numb. Carrying around a hope that one day you'll be real was killing me. This fictional love story is just that.. fiction. A woman needs more then the vague ghostly figure that visits her dreams.  I've been reminded of my value. I've been reminded that there is someone out there longing for a woman like me.. Free spirited,  fun loving, courageous,  and believes in magic. But even in the reminding, I'm left feeling like a piece of me is missing, and knowing in my core, you're the missing piece.  But, these days, I've reclaimed my power.  I choose now to leave that missing piece as a...

There was an unspeakable love  That hung in the air Between them She longed to see him again He buried his love In the deep recesses of his soul Little did he know That love can't be forgotten  Not by the heart  The heart has it’s own memory  Memories that then seap into the dreams Of those that are lost But not forgotten 

the fear of him  made her feel alive  winter crawled under her skin she welcomed the feeling something familiar about being alive when cold fingers touch you she couldn't anticipate where it was headed  or how it would end but there was definitely something very familiar  with the way he held her kissed her it woke up in her a silent knowing that he was sunshine and warmth a safe place to just be herself 

She is very clear about who she is. She doesn't pretend to be something she's not. What you see is what you get. Don't be surprised if one day she's sweet and kind, but slander her behind her back or let her down in a big way and it's over for you. She won't call. She won't go out of her way for you ever again. She won't pretend that at one time you were friends. You never have to guess how she feels about you. She's clear and to the point. She doesn't waste her time on those who don't see her value and appreciate her heart. She's not good at pretending anything. She's all or nothing. 

darling, there's someone out there who is a vibrational match to you. someone who will walk with you on your journey... who knows your pain and even your thoughts before you speak them. when two people are doing the innerwork to heal their wounds and long for transformation,  that's when the divine intervenes and brings the two of you together. don't ever feel you have to do this alone. don't ever think that you're the only one that feels pain. we are all connected... vibrating at different frequencies. darling, just keep doing you, and i promise that your soul friend will show up. your loving thoughts towards yourself will attract him because he's been loving himself and longing for you. life will become so much sweeter and all the burdens you shouldered, you will no longer shoulder alone. the companion is as ancient as a sunset but never sets. a bird resting calmly on the waters of your soul even when the waters are rough. welcome him. cherish him. because lif...

She let him Consume every inch Of her soul Nothing else mattered Death had no grip on her She'd die happily Feeling more alive Than she ever did She could close her eyes And fall into an eternal sleep Knowing that her thoughts of him Were always with her Even with eyes closed

she lay there long enough for her shadow to lengthen and her heart pain paralyzing her mind and body unable to move her eyes waterfalled  as she trembled knowing that in this lifetime  she'd never see him again she'd lay there until she was able to force herself to stand up and will herself to live again 

I've accepted you are no longer a part of my life even though it hurts like hell. I know there's a reason we met even though the gods seem cruel to me. Strange how your invisible love has led me to a better version of myself... I am healthier and happier.  I am better off because our paths crossed. There may be days when I am sad because of a fading memory of you resurfaces.. But I wouldn't change a thing. I know now I was holding on to you too tight. It was suffocating us both. You letting me go was the best thing you could of done for me. I found my own strength.. My love for myself.  I may never know a love like yours again and that's okay. But I will always have a place for you in my heart. Love is complicated and messy. I was a star-struck lover mystified when I met you.. Knowing in my heart our meeting was divine. I don't know how your life has been effected or if you're changed because of our encounter. I only hope it's been positive in the long run a...

" he never loved you" is what the voice in her head  told her he never admitted he loved her he never came forward  the haunting truth soaked the walls and twisted any past memories of him she moved on and smiled through the pain it was better than  the darkness that consumed her when her thoughts  lingered to long on him oh, how she loathed him and loved him at the same time  

She had to fight To be herself  In a world That didn't understand her She was unique A spiritual warrior With one foot in this world And the other in the unseen She was magic And saw past the veil She was an anomaly  A rare star Guiding souls Towards truth With a utterly profound feeling Of being alone Surrounded by other stars Unaware of their shine

she sat unnoticed in the corner of the room  men and women coming and going  she was posed unaffected by the uncomfortable silence that entombed her she felt invisible  in a room full of strangers  aware that their interactions  were anything but genuine so many souls mingle  but few can sit quietly alone and not be deeply disturbed to the point one would quit the room not her she'd leave out of sheer boredom 

When one encounters their twinflame  It feels like heaven has opened it's doors And God himself Is present It is that powerful  And that life changing The event Is a reunion With the other half of your soul Divinity sparks a flame in you When your eyes meet Blessed is the couple That are reunited After traveling down a road Searching for their other half Hundreds or thousands of years But always a heart space away 

a perfect light hits your face and my insides glow the way the sun plays with your features  makes your nature visible  but only to me my eyes were made to penetrate through you there is nothing else in my view as i watch the sunlight  dance in rhythm  with my heart's longings 

The timeless part of me Speaks in symbols In dreams An ancient language of soul Wise and fluid in images My mind can't dictate fast enough I'm connected to something Beyond space or time Call it what you want The higher self Guardian angel Inner being My eternal soul What ever she is Is guiding me In the most subtle way My openness  To this connection  Is everything  Otherwise  There is only missed opportunities  To learn more about the mysteries of life And the spiritual world veiled behind my eyes 

there was a lie buried in his chest he loved her all these years apart and the sting of that love  still haunts his days and keeps him awake at night he knows he has to tell her his truth or be buried in regret the rest of his life  

      i made room for your dreaming in me i let your ghost invade me in my slumber i made room for your thoughts  to reach my heart as i slept and upon awakening  always hoping  that tomorrow  you'd remember my name and all your insecurities  you'd put aside to call me so i could hear your voice  like i do when i'm dreaming of you but it's only in the witching hours that you invade my space and i'm reminded  again and again  you are not real but your ghost confused regards me as home

when he left he pulled all my emotions from me i wanted to say so much more than i did say to him i wanted him to stay and never leave so much i wanted from him and so much regret left in me not knowing if i should of said more or if i said too much  to push him away rejection sucks whether it's presented as a proper goodbye  or as a silent retreat into the unknown  and the one thing you're left with is a mouthful of regrets