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Sunday, January 28, 2018

My Dream: The Two Ways to Know God

From journal entry 1/12/2018

I am with two friends driving in their car. We are talking about seventh chakra awakening. I explain to them that there are two ways to know the King (God). 

   1. By direct revelation; transcending ordinary consciousness and merging with His. It is important to meditate on things and discern the truth within.

   2. Through faith. By doing works that move you closer to Him. He reveals Himself to you. Your faith goes beyond believing, it is knowing His existence and moving through action in the direction of that knowing without doubt.

I was listening to a lecture on Youtube titled, What Is Illumination? by Manly P Hall before I went to bed. Below is the link.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Future Lover

i need to warn you
my future lover
that my heart
is badly wounded
and split in two
but if you stick around
i will give you the pieces
to sew back together

Sunday, January 21, 2018

The Memory of Us

day and night
without warning
my tears flow
no discretion,
no secrets they hold
the moon
can be hanging
with a sapphire glow
and my copious tears
will grace my cheek
and set my face aglow
marvelous this sweet release
i greet each tear affectionately
each one precious,
very dear to me
i do not condemn
or mock them hastily
for each one has
their painful memory
i keep them jeweled
in my heart for all
of eternity

Thursday, January 18, 2018

In Your Arms

Let the storms of my past
wash me up on your shore
Let my weary body rest
in your arms whom I adore
Darkly the present sits
and my waiting fate
I can not escape
But in your arms
I find rest and my
heart is surely safe 
May the tides of my future
always lead me back to you
With the sweet hope
of being wrapped up in your arms
and deeply loved by you 

Sunday, January 14, 2018

The 3 Kinds of Awakening

Awakening from the dream of ordinary sleep, awakening at death from the dream of life, and awakening into full enlightenment from the dream of delusion. These teachings say that when we die, we experience it as waking up from a very long dream.

Reference~ When Things Fall Apart, Pema Chodron

Thursday, January 11, 2018


everything always comes back
to you
my thoughts
circling like a hawk
half instinct and half hunger

Monday, January 8, 2018

A Letter To My Reader: The Fox, Dog, and Hunter

Hopefully I can write down these words of wisdom to you, dear Reader, and they don't come out as complete shit. I don't want to disappoint you and lead you in circles. Only a good hunt with a wise fox can lead one in circles. How clever though that little fox that even the dog loses his scent and loses his reputation as a good hunting dog. When he returns home the hunter will beat him.

Please don't beat me if I out wit you Reader. I will tell you one of my secrets and that is I use more than just my five senses to write. Like that fox that out wits the dog, he is always one step ahead, foreseeing in his broad vision the tailored moves of his enemy the dog. How does he do that you ask? He forgets he's a fox and pretends he's a dog. He then asks himself what would a dog do?

This is intellectual stuff I am sharing with you. Can you forget yourself? Because once you're able to, the world beyond human senses opens up and this one fades away. All living souls blend together in this cosmic soup. The fox, the dog, and the hunter are all one in the same.

Thursday, January 4, 2018


it wasn't a shock to me
when he asked
for a separation
i saw that coming
it was a shock to me
when I saw 
another woman
driving my truck
with my son in it
that's why i assaulted her