MADISON MEADOWS: A Spiritual Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Soulful Healing

From journal entry 1/12/2018 I am with two friends driving in their car. We are talking about seventh chakra awakening. I explain to them that there are two ways to know the King (God).     1. By direct revelation; transcending ordinary consciousness and merging with His. It is important to meditate on things and discern the truth within.    2. Through faith. By doing works that move you closer to Him. He reveals Himself to you. Your faith goes beyond believing, it is knowing His existence and moving through action in the direction of that knowing without doubt. I was listening to a lecture on Youtube titled, What Is Illumination? by Manly P Hall before I went to bed. Below is the link.      https://youtu.be/0BFURbeedoc

i need to warn you my future lover that my heart is badly wounded and split in two but if you stick around i will give you the pieces to sew back together

day and night without warning my tears flow no discretion, no secrets they hold the moon can be hanging with a sapphire glow and my copious tears will grace my cheek and set my face aglow marvelous this sweet release i greet each tear affectionately each one precious, very dear to me i do not condemn or mock them hastily for each one has their painful memory i keep them jeweled in my heart for all of eternity

Let the storms of my past wash me up on your shore Let my weary body rest in your arms whom I adore Darkly the present sits and my waiting fate I can not escape But in your arms I find rest and my heart is surely safe  May the tides of my future always lead me back to you With the sweet hope of being wrapped up in your arms and deeply loved by you 

Awakening from the dream of ordinary sleep, awakening at death from the dream of life, and awakening into full enlightenment from the dream of delusion. These teachings say that when we die, we experience it as waking up from a very long dream. Reference~ When Things Fall Apart, Pema Chodron

everything always comes back to you my thoughts circling like a hawk half instinct and half hunger

Hopefully I can write down these words of wisdom to you, dear Reader, and they don't come out as complete shit. I don't want to disappoint you and lead you in circles. Only a good hunt with a wise fox can lead one in circles. How clever though that little fox that even the dog loses his scent and loses his reputation as a good hunting dog. When he returns home the hunter will beat him. Please don't beat me if I out wit you Reader. I will tell you one of my secrets and that is I use more than just my five senses to write. Like that fox that out wits the dog, he is always one step ahead, foreseeing in his broad vision the tailored moves of his enemy the dog. How does he do that you ask? He forgets he's a fox and pretends he's a dog. He then asks himself what would a dog do? This is intellectual stuff I am sharing with you. Can you forget yourself? Because once you're able to, the world beyond human senses opens up and this one fades away. All living souls ble...

it wasn't a shock to me when he asked for a separation i saw that coming it was a shock to me when I saw  another woman driving my truck with my son in it that's why i assaulted her