MADISON MEADOWS: A Spiritual Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Soulful Healing

  From Journal Entry 11/11/17 I have been spending a lot of my time on healing my heart. When my husband left in January I felt abandoned. It brought up memories from my childhood of when my father left. I've been dedicated to this process of healing and decided to try a Inner Child Healing Meditation . It ended up being one of the best and most healing experiences I have ever had. The guided meditation I found on Youtube. Below there is a link to the video. The Meditation: I laid in my bed with one hand on my Solar Plexus chakra and the other on my Heart chakra. I focused on my breath: intake 4 counts, out 4 counts. The guided meditation led to the experience of me observing my Inner Child being cradled in my father's arms. I could feel how safe and loved the little girl felt. I cried for her. She felt loved and protected by her father. Then suddenly, she felt fear and abandoned when he left her. I approached my Inner Child as my adult self and comforted her. I told ...

Beloved, I am seeking a new name for you and I. A word that does not keep us split apart like two halves of a disk moon. When the moon appears half full, her other half is half empty. But this is not so to the moon. She is a whole disk and thinking of her as only a half is a lie! Beloved, I walk in your shadow. I feel you in this body. You speak intimately to my heart. How can this be?! Any description of you and I fails to articulate your presence in me. What I possess and what I have gained by knowing you exceeds any treasure of the richest king on earth! For Darling, I possess the companion of my soul that will accompany me even after death. What more can a girl ask for? P.S.  Even if you came to me in your drunken state, I wouldn't want you to leave. I'd ask you to stay. All of my Affection, Sapphire

Those who attain states of transcendental consciousness seldom discuss these experiences, since the audience of those who can comprehend them is small. Sri Aurobindo offers these words: [Such] spiritual consciousness is all light, peace, power, bliss. If one can live...partly in it or keep himself constantly open to it, he [or she] receives enough of this spiritual light and strength and happiness to carry him securely through all the shocks of life. What one gains by opening to this spiritual consciousness depends on what one seeks from it: if it is peace, one gets peace; if it is light or knowledge, one lives in a great light and receives a knowledge deeper and truer than any the normal mind can acquire; if it is strength or power, he gets a spiritual strength for the inner life or Yogic power to govern the outer work and action; if it is happiness, he enters into a beatitude for greater than and joy or happiness that the ordinary human life can give. No accepted vocabulary ...

A conversation with God will go something like this: God: What have you done with the life I gave you? Reply: I am ashamed to say very little. God: What have you done with your mind? Reply: I am ashamed to say I filled it with nonsense and worldly things. God: What have you done with your sight? Reply: I am ashamed to say my eyes looked upon perversion and wickedness. God: What did you do with your hands? Reply: I am ashamed to say for greed and theft. God: Where did your feet travel that I gave you? Reply: I am ashamed to say they stumbled around in taverns where I surrounded myself with lewdness. God: What did you use your speech for? Reply: I am ashamed to say Lord I used it to curse your name. Your life is a preparation for your wedding with Eternity. How you use your life that He gave you will determine your lot in the next life. Wisely seek Him, know Him, and serve Him.  

Here I sit, hiding away from love. I fear that if love finds me he will see my brokenness, he will see through me and know my pain. He will want to fix me. He will know I am in deep despair, and I won't be able to mask it. So I am hiding out, in my safe place- Where I can be a damn train wreck! And I don't give a damn that I am broken. I'm a hot, beautiful mess and that's okay.

How To Identify A Jezebel Spirit (Narcissist): 1.  Refuses to admit wrong doing. To accept responsibility would violate the core of insecurity and pride from which it operates. 2.  Takes credit for everything. 3.  Uses people to accomplish her/his agenda. Let's others do her/his dirty work. The Jezebel gets another's emotions stirred up, than lets that person go into a rage. 4.  Withholds information.  The Jezebel spirit is a form of witchcraft. The Jezebel loves to control other people. 5.  Jezebel is threatened by prophetic ministry. Reason being someone with a prophetic gift will be able to identify the Jezebel spirit and will attack it. 6.  Volunteers for anything. Does projects for recognition. Her/his motives is never pure. 7.  Lies.  A person with a Jezebel spirit will lie even when they don't have to and are hard to detect. She/he can make you believe anything she/he wants to through manipulation. 8.  Ignor...

The following is from Lyn Leahz Ministries. In her research she shows the similarity in symptoms  of the Jezebel spirit to a NPD (Narcissist Personality Disorder) type. You can listen to her full commentary on the youtube link below. Jezebel was a she devil, a heartless woman. The spirit of Jezebel disguises itself as a good person, but is a very evil person . Jezebel was a heathen woman that married Ahab, the king of Israel.( 1 Kings 16:31 ) Ahab was fascinated by her beauty and forcefulness of character, and fell for her. Ahab went and erected an alter for Baal, worshipping and serving Baal. Jezebel was ambitious and proud, eagerly she seized the opportunity to share the throne of a king. By doing so, Jezebel seduced God's king of Israel with her beauty, wittiness, and charm. Spiritual and moral disintegration was brought on by Jezebel's determination and effort to destroy the worship of Jehovah. Jezebel possessed an extraordinary force of ...