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Wednesday, December 30, 2020

The Role of the Light Bearers


some of us
were put on this earth
to love the unloved
our agenda
is to illuminate
the darkness
and be the hand
that never lets go

Tuesday, December 22, 2020

Society Is Our Extended Mind and Body

 “We seldom realize, for example, that our most private thoughts and emotions are not actually our own. For we think in terms of languages and images which we did not invent, but which were given to us by our society. We copy emotional reactions from our parents, learning from them that excrement is supposed to have a disgusting smell and that vomiting is supposed to be an unpleasant sensation. The dread of death is also learned from their anxieties about sickness and from their attitudes to funerals and corpses. Our social environment has this power just because we do not exist apart from a society. Society is our extended mind and body. Yet the very society from which the individual is inseparable is using its whole irresistible force to persuade the individual that he is indeed separate! Society as we now know it is therefore playing a game with self-contradictory rules.”

Reference~ Alan W. Watts, The Book on the Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are

Thursday, December 17, 2020

Each December


you are my december bad habit
because that's when i think about you

more than usual
i imagine you
at my door
and your beautiful face
lighting up
every part of my being
like a christmas tree
the memory of you
around christmas
lingers in the december air
i breathe you in
just as if you were here
doing my damnest to touch
the eternal part of you
each december

Tuesday, December 15, 2020

An Empath's True Intentions

 i know i can be misunderstood and bewilder you. i know that often i can be seen as someone who doesn't care. but that's not true. the truth is i feel too much and it can overwhelm me. as an empath i've learned to monitor my feelings. keeping a safe distance is what i have to do. it's also how i can help you the best. i can send you my light and love without being entangled in your emotional center. so next time you see me and i seem closed off, i'm actually listening to your pain with my body and transmuting it into a healing frequency; sending it back to your heart chakra where you can feel some relief. i'm doing what healers do to help bring a little healing to you.

Saturday, December 12, 2020

The Problem With Extreme Independence


The inability to receive support from others is a trauma response.
Your “I don’t need anyone, I’ll just do it all myself” conditioning is a survival tactic. And you needed it to shield your heart from abuse, neglect, betrayal, and disappointment from those who could not or would not be there for you.
From the parent who was absent and abandoned you by choice or the parent who was never home from working three jobs to feed and house you.
From the lovers who offered sexual intimacy but never offered a safe haven that honored your heart.
From the friendships and family who ALWAYS took more than they ever gave.
From all the situations when someone told you “we’re in this together” or “I got you” then abandoned you, leaving you to pick up the pieces when shit got real, leaving you to handle your part and their part, too.
From all the lies and all the betrayals.
You learned along the way that you just couldn’t really trust people. Or that you could trust people, but only up to a certain point.
Extreme-independence IS. A. TRUST. ISSUE.
You learnt: if I don’t put myself in a situation where I rely on someone, I won’t have to be disappointed when they don’t show up for me, or when they drop the ball... because they will ALWAYS drop the ball EVENTUALLY right?
You may even have been intentionally taught this protection strategy by generations of hurt ancestors who came before you.
Extreme-independence is a preemptive strike against heartbreak.
So, you don’t trust anyone.
And you don’t trust yourself, either, to choose people.
To trust is to hope, to trust is to be vulnerable.
“Never again,” you vow.
But no matter how you dress it up and display it proudly to make it seem like this level of independence is what you always wanted to be, in truth it’s your wounded, scarred, broken heart behind a protective brick wall.
Impenetrable. Nothing gets in. No hurt gets in. But no love gets in either.
Fortresses and armor are for those in battle, or who believe the battle is coming.
It’s a trauma response.
The good news is trauma that is acknowledged is trauma that can be healed.
You are worthy of having support.
You are worthy of having a true partnership.
You are worthy of love.
You are worthy of having your heart held.
You are worthy to be adored.
You are worthy to be cherished.
You are worthy to have someone say, “You rest. I got this.” And actually deliver on that promise.
You are worthy to receive.
You are worthy to receive.
You are worthy.
You don’t have to earn it.
You don’t have to prove it.
You don’t have to bargain for it.
You don’t have to beg for it.
You are worthy.
Simply because you exist.
Reference~ Jamila White

Tuesday, December 8, 2020

Realizing Self-Worth


it's fucking stupid
how i measured my self-worth
on whether or not you loved me
i'm a fucking rare anomaly
magical, mystical
full of light and darkness
destined for glory

Wednesday, December 2, 2020

A Brave Masculine to Match Your Bravery


darling all you want is someone
that will go to war with you
someone who's not afraid
to get a little bloody
you've been doing it alone
your whole life
now you're tired
so many burdens you carry
so many nights spent
wishing on the moon
to bring you someone
capable of holding your pain
while you continue battling
your demons
and cleaning up spilled blood
darling all you want
is a man that is as brave as you

Monday, November 30, 2020

The Hopi Creation Story

 Creation said:

“I want to hide something from the humans until they are ready for it.
It is the realization that they create their own reality.”
The eagle said:
“Give it to me. I will take it to the moon.”
The Creator said, “No. One day they will go there and find it.”
The salmon said:
“I will bury it on the bottom of the ocean.”
The Creator said: “No. They will go there, too.”
The buffalo said: “I will bury it on the Great Plains.”
The Creator said: “They will cut into the skin of the earth and find it even there.”
Grandmother who lives at the breast of Mother Earth and who has no physical eyes but sees with spiritual eyes, said:
“Put it inside of them.”
And the Creator said: “It is done.”~
~Creation story from the Hopi Nation, Arizona

Saturday, November 28, 2020

The Twin Flame Encounter


she stopped dead in her tracks
he caught her off guard
she never saw him coming
and with only his eyes
he traveled into her soul
and lit up the space
where darkness begged to be seen

Sunday, November 22, 2020

Message From White Eagle: Connect to Your Spiritual House During This Crisis

 Message from White Eagle, Hopi indigenous....

“This moment humanity is going through can now be seen as a portal and as a hole. The decision to fall into the hole or go through the portal is up to you.
If you repent of the problem and consume the news 24 hours a day, with little energy, nervous all the time, with pessimism, you will fall into the hole. But if you take this opportunity to look at yourself, rethink life and death, take care of yourself and others, you will cross the portal. Take care of your homes, take care of your body. Connect with your spiritual House.
When you are taking care of yourselves, you are taking care of everything else. Do not lose the spiritual dimension of this crisis; have the eagle aspect from above and see the whole; see more broadly.
There is a social demand in this crisis, but there is also a spiritual demand -- the two go hand in hand. Without the social dimension, we fall into fanaticism. But without the spiritual dimension, we fall into pessimism and lack of meaning. You were prepared to go through this crisis. Take your toolbox and use all the tools available to you.
Don't feel guilty about being happy during this difficult time.
You do not help at all being sad and without energy. You help if good things emanate from the Universe now. It is through joy that one resists. Also, when the storm passes, each of you will be very important in the reconstruction of this changed world.
You need to be well and strong. And for that, there is no other way than to maintain a beautiful, happy, and bright vibration. This is a resistance strategy.
This is what is asked of you:
Allow yourself to take advantage of this time to perform your vision-seeking rituals. What world do you want to build for you? For now, this is what you can do -- serenity in the storm. Calm down, pray every day. Establish a routine to meet the sacred every day.
Good things emanate; what you emanate now is the most important thing. And sing, dance, resist through art, joy, faith, and love."~~

Wednesday, November 18, 2020

The Twin Flame Journey



When the Masculine meets the true, awakened Feminine, it arouses a new sensation in him, and activates specific levels of consciousness that demand his full attention.
The awakened, whole, conscious Feminine does not act needy or desperate around the Masculine. This does not mean that she does not acknowledge her deep inner desire and sacred requirements for the Masculine presence to be in her life. She knows this better than any woman who has not yet opened up to her full powers and strengths.
The awakened woman knows that the Masculine plays a vital role in her life journey, and has the ability to open her up in ways that she cannot do alone. In essence, she wants the Masculine from a searingly profound place in her Soul.
But – this ‘want’ can be put on hold for years and years – decades even – if she is not being met with the kind of Masculine presence and devotion that she needs in order to serve her sacred Feminine role.
When the Masculine meets the conscious Feminine vibration, it instantly realizes what is needed. The Masculine energy is stirred deeply and feels a pull on the Soul strings of his lost, dry, and forgotten heart. He realizes that although it is easy to lose himself in the glorious shakti sway of her body and the warmth of her sacred eyes, in order to stand next to her as a totem of Divine Masculine strength he must rise up in his own life.
Her spiritual energy will cause his own to wake up to itself.
He will become quickly aware that it will not be enough to lazily get what he wants and leave. He will recognize that even if he enters into a relationship with her, that her trust in him will not deepen unless he starts seriously showing up in his own life – and begins to rise like a phoenix towards his Full Purpose.
Her awakened energy will not tolerate the spiritually-sleepy Masculine tendencies towards laziness, denial, avoidance, staying in comfort zones, procrastination, cowardice and over-reliance on quick fixes and instant gratification.
Her sacred energy will pull him up out of his coma and avoidance tactics, so that he feels on a visceral level just how potent and transformational loving her could be. He will also feel how loving her – and being a recipient of the healing codes in her body – instigates a firing of the neurons and electrical transmitters in his system, sparking him into awareness of just how much of a man he is required to evolve into.
He realizes that she is the greatest gift that has ever crossed his path. He realizes that he may never have another opportunity like this one to be supported in becoming the best version of himself possible. He is aware that there is no other woman on the planet who could love him like this, and fire up his energy centers into creating the Divine Purpose he has always wanted to live, but has always been too scared to fully commit to.
It is his decision whether or not he is brave enough to take the challenge of loving, and standing next to, a woman who has claimed her place as a sacred Feminine warrior and holy chalice of love.
It is really his decision in many ways, because although she will be the one to decide whether or not she wishes to see him again, or let him into her world – she is always doing that based on the quality of truth, assurance, purposefulness and willingness that she receives from him.
When his Higher Self brings him to a Whole Woman, he must sit and contemplate, in order to realize that he has chosen this meeting – because a significant part of him is ready to ascend into being a Whole Man. This is a huge deal, because he most likely has not had any role models of this evolved male energy in his life. He doesn’t have to be faultless, a know-it-all, flashy, or movie star good-looking. He only has to nurture that spark within his precious Masculine heart that wants to be the best man he can be. He only has to be willing and humble enough to learn from the Feminine, listen to her responses to his actions, and realize that she is the Divine Oracle for him, showing him where he needs to pull himself up.
His Soul really only wants to declare something like this:
“I want to bathe in the sweet, sacred radiance of your eternal Light for the rest of my days, and remember daily what a gift you are to my Soul.
I want you to be the Sacred Mirror on all the ways that I sabotage myself, deny myself, restrict myself and ‘flunk out’ on myself.
I want to hear that you trust me. I want to show you that your trust is well-judged, and that I realize how your ability to trust me makes a difference in how deeply you can open your body and heart when we are together.
I want to walk into brave new territories, risking rejection and even failure so that your trust in me soars, like a bird in flight. I realize that your sexual attraction to me increases exponentially every time I take a risk to rise into my Divine Masculine power and purpose.
I want to be a pioneer of a new movement of conscious, evolving, willing and open-hearted males, defying the old paradigms and awake enough to walk beside women who are changing the world forever.
I might not remember any of this, much of the time, and I may stumble, fall, collapse or sometimes fail at it. I want only to remember that my willingness to live my Sacred Truth, and my desire to do everything I can to earn your trust, are enough. I want only to remember that if I shut down my heart at the first hint of truth that comes from your mouth, your body language, your expressions – I will not win this game. I want to only remember that you cannot be expected to ‘mother’ me into being a grown-up (if I want to have a sexually vital and transformative love life). I do not want you to be my mother.”
We need manifestors for men of the Light to follow now, because it is vital that they stand up and realize their true worth and value in the advancing New Age. Awake Women do not want to batter men, criticize them, punish them, or shut their hearts and bodies down to them. Whole Women WANT men: their unwavering hard presence, their rock solid actions, their warrior hearts, their dynamic, pursuing energy.
Many Men of the Light are choosing to cross paths with soul-embodied women now. This is because their own Soul recognizes that it is time to rise up into Purpose, and the desire to connect with the embodied Sacred Feminine will ignite that Purpose. A woman who is on the path of Light will not settle for any man, no matter how deeply she has longed for the masculine presence. She has no desire nor energy to rescue, mother, nag or coach a man into loving her.
Yet the awakened woman carries more compassion, more unconditional love, more ability to support and nurture, more generosity and more sexual power than any other. There are limitless, never-ending, eternally-abundant rewards for any man who is courageous enough to risk his heart and life purpose for such a female.
This is the time of the emergent Divine Masculine presence, stepping up to the edge and committing to live from there, rising up to support and protect the Sacred Feminine Mission of Global Awakening."
Reference~ Sophie Bashford

Tuesday, November 17, 2020

It's Never Too Late To Start Over


living alone
without a man
is teaching me
how to survive
i use to give
all my attention
to a man
always cheating myself
because my needs were less important
(so i told myself this lie)
it's funny how life
will give you
what you need
it's funny how
free i feel to be me
now that i'm alone
now that i'm
my priority

Saturday, November 14, 2020

Fuck It All


Fuck silence. Speak your truth.
Fuck guilt. You have NOTHING to feel bad for.
Fuck shame. You're a perfect mystical unfolding.
Fuck the "rules". You didn't make them, don't sacrifice yourself to fit them.
Fuck starving. Feed your dreams and desires.
Fuck sitting on the side lines. Get up on the stage.
Fuck bowing. Put that crown on your head where it belongs.
Fuck being nice when you need to rage.
Fuck apologizing when you've done nothing wrong.
Fuck all of it that makes you feel unworthy.
Reference ~Ara Campbell

Tuesday, November 10, 2020

Learning to Trust the Heart


please forgive me
if it takes me longer
to open up to you
i've had my heart badly broken
gave more of myself then i had
to men who did not deserve me
many times i gave forgiveness
in return all i got was more lies
and another bruise on my heart
i wish i could give you more of myself
i wish i could put your mind at ease
it is going to take me longer
to love you back
the way you deserve
so please be patient with me
as i learn to trust my heart again

Tuesday, November 3, 2020

Finding My Way Back To Myself


i missed myself
while i was with you
losing myself
in your dark woods
the sunlight finally
breaking through
calling me out
to be found again

Tuesday, October 27, 2020

My Life- The Hummingbird

 From journal Entry 10/26/2020

This morning I went out to my backyard to water the Clover I planted. A hummingbird hovered right in front of me as to say, "Hello." 


Hummingbirds represent inner intelligence, new ideas, and spiritual determination. Small ideas can lead to big results. They remind us not to abandon your smaller dreams. Your ideas are spiritually influenced and will have a quicker time manifesting into the physical world. Hummingbirds represent a shift that is happening on a deeper level that is impacting your core values. As your core values start to shift, your thoughts and ideas that flow to you begin to change.

Hummingbirds energy is a combination of spiritual devotion, mental agility, and physical determination to reach a goal. When these are in harmony, you can create any reality you wish. The hummingbird invites you to look at the bigger picture and see a Divine connection in everything you have done whether positive or negative.


The Divine is always guiding us on our path and giving us loving signs to encourage us as we move through this life. I pay close attention to numbers (111,222,333,1212,etc) and I pay attention to animals, insects, the stars, and the moon to name a few. When I have an encounter with Spirit I feel in that moment that something truly amazing is happening. It is Spirit delivering a message personally to me.

My encounter with the hummingbird seems to be encouraging me to keep working on my new book project. I am working on my first poetry book and want to publish it by the new year.

I also feel that the hummingbird was telling me that my core values are changing. In January it will be four years that I've been a single mom. I always believed I needed a man to be complete and that I couldn't possibly raise my kids on my own. I now understand that's not true at all. In fact, it's empowered me as a woman and has opened me up to be more present as a mom.

And the last message from the hummingbird that speaks to my heart is reminding me to stay balanced in my life. I have been focused on healing and growing as a spiritual being. For the first time I feel comfortable in my own skin. My intuition is sharper than it's ever been. I am starting to feel complete. I am starting to believe that I can have peace. I am realizing that my thoughts are even more powerful than I imagined! I look at the challenges I have gone through in the last four years and what I managed to accomplish for myself; stability, love, laughter, security. I am truly grateful that Spirit has been right there with me every step of the way, guiding me and protecting me. 


Thursday, October 22, 2020

Love Triangle

i'll never forget that day
there was a downpour
and the three of us decided
to walk down the dirt road
to the little store
to buy alcohol
in my mind
i thought this is crazy!
both of these men
i love
but only one
washes away
the dirt in my soul
the rain and you made me notice
how freeing it was
in that moment
to love the both of you
and not feel guilty


Sunday, October 18, 2020

Not Afraid Anymore


you can't become a warrior
unless you've lived through
some shit and slayed your demons
this road isn't for sissies
it's for the badass women
who aren't afraid to pick up a sword
and use it

Thursday, October 15, 2020

Stay Hopeful, Magic Happens


i suffer
silently most days
but keeping a positive attitude
and hope alive
keeps me
wanting to see
what the next day will bring
it's the unpredictably in life
that motivates me to embrace
things as they are
knowing at any moment
the impossible could happen
and magic comes
transforming my life

Saturday, October 10, 2020



in this fake world
i'd like to believe
that there are love stories
with happy endings
mystical creatures that fly
the ethereal skies
witches that cast good spells
and gods balancing the scales
of good and evil

Monday, October 5, 2020

To Change The World, Change Your Hearts


Since his death, Jesus has played a continual role throughout history. The legalization of Christianity by the Roman Empire, in A.D. 313, soon led to its expansion into every part of the Western world. Not until the Prophet Muhammad began the Islamic religion in 610 did Christianity have any meaningful competition in terms of numbers of followers. Muhammad considered Jesus a prophet and is quoted in the Quran as saying, “When Jesus came with clear signs, he said: ‘Now I have come to you with wisdom, and in order to make clear to you some of the points on which you dispute. Therefore, fear God and obey me.’”

In the United States, George Washington used Christianity as a rallying point for his colonial army, saying in his First General Order to his troops, “Every officer and man will endeavor to live and act as becomes a Christian soldier defending the dearest rights and liberties of his county.”

Abraham Lincoln also referred to Jesus in a wartime setting: “When I went to Gettysburg and looked upon the graves of our dead heroes who had fallen in defense of their country, I then and there consecrated myself to Christ.”

Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. of course based his entire ministry and civil rights struggle on the teachings of Jesus. Also, his nonviolent philosophy was adapted in part from the ordeal Jesus experienced. About enemies, Dr. King said the following: “Just keep loving them. And by the power of your love they will break down under the load. That’s love, you see. It is redemptive and this is why Jesus says love. There’s something about love that builds up and is creative. There is something about hate that tears down and is destructive. So, love your enemies.”

President Ronald Reagan picked up on that theme: “He promised there will never be a dark night that does not end. And by dying for us, Jesus showed how far our love should be ready to go- all the way.”


Reference~ Killing Jesus by Bill O’Reilly & Martin Dugard

Saturday, October 3, 2020

A Beautiful Sin


sure she sins differently than you
but don't judge her
we all have sin at our core
but what is sin?
one woman's sin
is another woman's virtue
her sin may cleanse
her soul
and the same sin
may dirty yours
know the difference
by discerning within yourself
what feels right
and what feels wrong
after all, sin is just a label

Wednesday, September 30, 2020

Sapphire's Letter To Arion: Surviving Your Memory


Long ago I forgave you. In all our past lives, I always forgive you and always I have to let you go. I've done this so often, and so often you fight with yourself for loving a woman like me. I know I am the fire that burns forcing you to feel your wounds and to know your soul.

I know you must be suffering like me and the silence is killing us both. Often in my mind's eye I play out the words you would say to me. Sometimes there are no words, just silence and your gaze penetrating the thickness of the veil that hides my heart. Our souls then merging into a field beyond the human eye that only love can conceive, foster, and exploit!

Then my concentration breaks and I am alone again. Tears come to remind me that what I feel for you is real. The karmic bond between us unbreakable, and yet so much left undone.

I don't want to live the rest of my life without you in it. My whole life has been a steady dose of pain and then 21 years ago you gave meaning to that pain. Every word left unsaid still stirs my heart and with it all the imaginings of what we could be.

I am moving forward, but I am doing so against my own will. Now it's just a matter of surviving your memory. Now I'm doing it to prove to myself I don't need you.

You've taught me to depend on no one but myself. You are the master of needing no one and relying only on yourself. So, thank you for the karmic lesson. I needed to learn this.

If our paths ever do cross again, I’m sure I’ll be unrecognizable to you. I don’t doubt that you will have changed too. I hope you still look at me with the eyes of a long-lost lover finally returning home. May God always be with you and me!!



Sunday, September 27, 2020

If It's Meant For You

 If it’s meant for you, it won’t be toxic...

It won’t bring out your insecurities or your fears or the worst in you because it will bring peace into your life and into your heart...
If it’s meant for you, it won’t feel like a burden... You won’t have to explain to anyone why it’s not as bad as they think it is and you won’t have to go to sleep wondering if you’re lying to yourself because you’d be sure of it...
You’d be sure that it’s right for you...
If it’s meant for you, it won’t feel like a war...
A war with yourself because you’re letting it drag on or because you can’t get out of it...
A war with your friends because they can all see that you’re settling...
A war with love because part of you knows that it shouldn’t be this hard...
If it’s meant for you, you won’t have to constantly question if it is...
You won’t have to look for signs or ask for advice or look for confirmation that it’s right. You’d just know...
It will feel like home...
It will make you feel safe...
It will give you one less thing to worry about... It will be healthy for you...
If it’s meant for you, you won’t have to chase after it...
You won’t have to try too hard or turn your life upside down for it to work...
You won’t have to lose yourself so you can keep it...
If it’s meant for you, it will bring you closer to who you really are...
It will enhance all the beautiful parts of you and make you more open to love, more nurturing, more compassionate and more forgiving...
If it’s meant for you, it won’t break your heart... There may be disappointments or letdowns or conflicts but it will never break your spirit, it will never close your heart off and it will never let you suppress your innermost feelings...
Because what’s meant for you doesn’t come around very often, but when it does, when it’s not another lesson or another mistake, when it’s finally yours after everything you’ve endured and everything you’ve been through, it comes like a wave washing over you.
It feels like home.
Reference ~Rania Naim

Thursday, September 24, 2020

Women Rising

i'm sure
the independent
brave women
are killing it
right now
during this Covid-19
we've survived through
many storms
weathered abusive relationships
and we are raising kids
teaching them
how the world really is
not sugar coating it
as we live
our daily lives
more awake
than ever before
we see
and recognize
we are the change
that needs to happen
and we're raising our kids
to be more in tune
with the inner
than the outer
we embrace one another
and ourselves
as we are
but committed
to healing and growing
because we know
that the way the world
has been running
can't function
in chaos, deception, and greed anymore
we brave women
are rising to our true calling and power
and growing in numbers
this is not a man's world anymore!!


Sunday, September 20, 2020

Soulmates Reconnecting


i'm sure of it
i loved you
in another lifetime
our karmic paths
have criss-crossed
and we meet again
some call it fate
but i promised you
a lifetime ago
i would always
find you
and you promised
you would carry me
forever in your heart
and send out feelers
so you could be found
every heartache
painstaking life event
led me to you
this invisible force
pulling me to you
i don't doubt you love me
how could i
with one look
in your eyes
and the memory
of us
comes rushing back
like it was yesterday

Thursday, September 17, 2020

Become the Witness


We are all fucked up on some level, We all come in with our baggage to work with and on. No human being escapes this unless they are an avatar with a different purpose. So the biggest illusion in my eyes is that we need to be perfect and if we are not then we need to forgive ourselves. Our fuck up ness is always going to surface, the difference between a spiritual warrior and one caught up in the herd illusion is self acceptance followed by conscious self observation without judgment. Without this there will always be a split between who we think we should be and who we are, we will judge others as harshly as we judge ourselves. When we simply witness we have already won because the Witness is the higher self and there will be response coming from awareness instead of reaction coming from habitual programs and self rejection.


Sunday, September 13, 2020

Wild Love

he's in love
with your wildness
it draws him in
like a moth to a flame
he sees you're courageous
and living the life
you've designed
he knows you are his
that he possesses your heart
he also knows
you need space
and can't be led
by him or anyone
he's wild about you
he may not show it outwardly
but i assure you darling
your wildness
is pulling him in

Monday, September 7, 2020

Allow Sadness

 Sadness is a heavier energy, lurking just beneath all that fear. Fear keeps the sadness locked in place, by preventing us from ever addressing, honestly and authentically, the fact that we don’t want to feel our own broken hearts.

It’s a defense mechanism that keeps the sadness at bay. We don’t want to open ourselves to our own sadness. Who wants to be that vulnerable? All that loss, that grief, that avalanche of sorrow?
Why would we sign on for such a thing? So many times people tell me they’re afraid that if they start feeling their sadness, they’ll never stop crying.
But here is a radical idea: The ability to be sad is a blessing.
In our childhoods, we were taught that sadness is a sign of weakness. Remember your own childhood: Were you ever called a crybaby? Or made to feel ashamed of your tears? Did you somehow internalize the message that you were supposed to stuff those feelings, put on a brave face, chin up and all that?
I’m here to tell you that if you want to release the vibrational density you’re carrying around, you need to do the precise opposite. Feel it. Feel it all. What’s the worst thing that can happen?
When we allow ourselves to be vulnerable, we are experiencing a blessing. We are offering ourselves the opportunity to see and experience life authentically, without defenses or screens keeping us front our own true nature.
There is an exquisiteness to sadness and pain. It as a quality and resonance that is unique. It’s a way we all can relate to one another, because we all feel sadness. Were it not for our judgement of that emotion, no one would have a problem feeling it.
Sadness is socially unacceptable, we’re conditioned from day one to understand sadness as a sign of weakness, so people refuse to experience it, and it accumulates weight.
Its density grows in the body. Look at the body language and posture of someone who is experiencing a depression: They seem to carry a weight on their shoulders. They’re hunched over. They can hardly get out of bed. It’s like a weeping willow tree as opposed to mighty oak. The oak tree is firm and elegant and upright. The weeping willow has allowed the burdens of life to bend it.
The key is to shift your experience of sadness. Grief? Loss? Tears pouring down your cheeks? Good. Feel it all. Know that you are one of 7.2 billion people on this planet who experience the same thing.
The rejection of sadness further separates you from your own wholeness. Lean into it. Breathe. Accept. Embrace and embody the blessings of sadness, because where there is acceptance, judgement no longer has any power.
When you let this energy wash over you, there will be an intensity to it, but as you keep allowing it to flow through you, it will eventually diminish. Allow life to do its job.~
~Panache Desai

Saturday, August 29, 2020

The Most Important Relationship You Will Ever Have


when a woman
is on the verge of losing everything
she's beyond desperate
beyond reach
she finds the strength
to do the impossible
she discovers a super power
that allows her
to carry on
but not like before
she does it with pure intent
to not merely survive
like she has been in the past
but to carve a place for herself
in this world
she does so
out of a thirst for true power
after being rejected by everyone
because she accepts what others could not
she embraces those parts of herself
and integrates them into her whole being
this is the secret:
love yourself
deep and hard
the relationship
you have with yourself
is the most important relationship
you will ever have