i guess the most painful realization that i have come to is that, for him, i wasn't worth holding on to. i wasn't worth fighting for. the life we built wasn't worth the effort to save. at least that's how i feel now, but there may come a time, in the distant future, when i will be grateful he felt that way.
Wednesday, June 27, 2018
Sunday, June 24, 2018
now that I'm divorced, I see some of the women in my life settled into their loveless, abusive relationships. and I think to myself how they have sold their heart down the river, been robbed by a bandit, and terrorized by a man that promised to love them, protect them. I just want to tell those women you don't have to live in a nightmare and give up on the dream you once had for yourself. you don't have to settle for an animal. you can leave him. for you are a different breed altogether, a goddess- half human and half divine.
Thursday, June 21, 2018
tell them I was the best woman for you. the kindest, most thoughtful, loving, agreeable wife you ever had and ever will have. tell them I was mistreated by you. how you could of been kinder, more thoughtful, loving, and agreeable. tell them I did not deserve your hatred, threats, belittling, and bullying. tell them I deserve better.
Sunday, June 17, 2018
he was always thinking of the other woman, not his wife. he was mesmerized by her eyes, the tint of her lips, the smell of her hair, the way she swayed when she walked. he lived in the illusion she could be real. but in reality if she were real he would perhaps date her, maybe even marry her. and as the years pass by, he would begin thinking of her as the nagging bitch, the bossy wife. she would grow old and her looks would fade, her health would deteriorate. and in his distant memory of the young, beautiful girl lived a far better fantasy than in his real life.
Wednesday, June 13, 2018
Monday, June 11, 2018
I tried so hard over the years to forget about you. I knew I was no good for you and you were no good for me. I tried so hard to erase that day from my memory, because that was the day I felt myself falling into you. And right after I knew my heart was in trouble.
Wednesday, June 6, 2018
Sunday, June 3, 2018
Acquire the courage to believe in yourself. Many of the things that you have been taught were at one time the radical ideas of individuals who had the courage to believe what their own hearts and minds told them was true, rather than accept the common beliefs of their day.
Reference~ Ching Ning Chu
Reference~ Ching Ning Chu