MADISON MEADOWS: A Spiritual Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Soulful Healing

you crave for a love that loves you back that understands  and gets you a love that doesn't bolt for the door because he can't handle your darkness  you crave for a love  that offers a match  to give you light

One of the most ancient formal meditative methods that can transform our inner self is called Tratak. It includes: 1. Developing the ability to focus your attention where you wish, when you wish. 2. Developing the ability to know what your attention is doing at any given moment. 3. Noticing, moment by moment, what is occurring in you and around you. (This is called witnessing or witness consciousness in yogic traditions and mindfulness in Buddhist traditions.) Reference~ Awakening the Chakras, The Seven Energy Centers in Your Daily Life by Victor Daniels

the space  in my soul   has filled up   with water  from my tears  my grief   to heavy to carry    on my back   now floats   on an ocean   inside of me

you never thought you'd be changing your locks to protect yourself from your own husband. you never imagined it would come down to him hating you. you never saw the day when you'd have to get an Order of Protection against him. you never thought he'd want to hurt you. all the years you invested in him seem to be a complete waste, because you thought he loved you. and now with him walking away, you thought you'd be free. but for you it only got worse. now you hope for the day you can lay down your sword and shield. but for now your thoughts are on only surviving your hell.

Death enters softly and whispers in my ear, "Don't you know Darling your end in near? I have come to take you to the land of Shadow and Doubt. Come take my hand and I'll be your guide now. This evening is filled with relentless hate. It makes the air so thick you will suffocate. Come now Darling One follow my lead. I'll show you wonders your eyes have never seen. There are things that will leave you with such a fright. You will sink deeper into despair on this night. I have come Darling to dine with your soul. I have come Darling to take you where all the hopeless ones go. This evening is filled with a cruel fate. This evening, Darling , is a quiet hate. It rises up on the backs of those fallen into despair. It drags the soul down and binds you in a snare. Come now Darling there's nothing to fear. The evening is waiting for me to take you there."

today I thought of you, just like the day before and the day before that I wept for you but everyday I weep for you I tell myself he will call, he will write, he will drop-in and of course you never do I get angry and curse you then I get sad and miss you and this cycle starts all over again I wish I could explain to my heart that loving a man that doesn't love you back is no good, just move on  because if he did love you he would of told you by now

      I apologize that you didn't see my self-worth, my hidden jewel. I tried my best to tell you that my body is a temple. I even had my spiritual state tattooed on my body. I tried to get you to see the ethereal skies behind my eyes. I tried to teach you there is no such thing as death. I tried to demonstrate how devotion to God is the most important thing. I tried to illustrate how beautiful suffering can be through my writing and how it's transformed me.    But you were too busy. Yes, you were too busy to see that what God has revealed to my spirit is behind my eyes, buried in my heart. You never saw the glow of my spirit because you were too busy with gossip, work, or diluting yourself in another temporary escape.   So, I apologize for not wanting to drink alcohol or smoke a joint with you in order for you to feel more comfortable in your own skin. I know I made you uncomfortable. But you should ask yourself why. Why did you prefer small...