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Showing posts with label Twin Flames. Show all posts

Thursday, December 17, 2020

Each December


you are my december bad habit
because that's when i think about you

more than usual
i imagine you
at my door
and your beautiful face
lighting up
every part of my being
like a christmas tree
the memory of you
around christmas
lingers in the december air
i breathe you in
just as if you were here
doing my damnest to touch
the eternal part of you
each december

Saturday, November 28, 2020

The Twin Flame Encounter


she stopped dead in her tracks
he caught her off guard
she never saw him coming
and with only his eyes
he traveled into her soul
and lit up the space
where darkness begged to be seen

Wednesday, November 18, 2020

The Twin Flame Journey



When the Masculine meets the true, awakened Feminine, it arouses a new sensation in him, and activates specific levels of consciousness that demand his full attention.
The awakened, whole, conscious Feminine does not act needy or desperate around the Masculine. This does not mean that she does not acknowledge her deep inner desire and sacred requirements for the Masculine presence to be in her life. She knows this better than any woman who has not yet opened up to her full powers and strengths.
The awakened woman knows that the Masculine plays a vital role in her life journey, and has the ability to open her up in ways that she cannot do alone. In essence, she wants the Masculine from a searingly profound place in her Soul.
But – this ‘want’ can be put on hold for years and years – decades even – if she is not being met with the kind of Masculine presence and devotion that she needs in order to serve her sacred Feminine role.
When the Masculine meets the conscious Feminine vibration, it instantly realizes what is needed. The Masculine energy is stirred deeply and feels a pull on the Soul strings of his lost, dry, and forgotten heart. He realizes that although it is easy to lose himself in the glorious shakti sway of her body and the warmth of her sacred eyes, in order to stand next to her as a totem of Divine Masculine strength he must rise up in his own life.
Her spiritual energy will cause his own to wake up to itself.
He will become quickly aware that it will not be enough to lazily get what he wants and leave. He will recognize that even if he enters into a relationship with her, that her trust in him will not deepen unless he starts seriously showing up in his own life – and begins to rise like a phoenix towards his Full Purpose.
Her awakened energy will not tolerate the spiritually-sleepy Masculine tendencies towards laziness, denial, avoidance, staying in comfort zones, procrastination, cowardice and over-reliance on quick fixes and instant gratification.
Her sacred energy will pull him up out of his coma and avoidance tactics, so that he feels on a visceral level just how potent and transformational loving her could be. He will also feel how loving her – and being a recipient of the healing codes in her body – instigates a firing of the neurons and electrical transmitters in his system, sparking him into awareness of just how much of a man he is required to evolve into.
He realizes that she is the greatest gift that has ever crossed his path. He realizes that he may never have another opportunity like this one to be supported in becoming the best version of himself possible. He is aware that there is no other woman on the planet who could love him like this, and fire up his energy centers into creating the Divine Purpose he has always wanted to live, but has always been too scared to fully commit to.
It is his decision whether or not he is brave enough to take the challenge of loving, and standing next to, a woman who has claimed her place as a sacred Feminine warrior and holy chalice of love.
It is really his decision in many ways, because although she will be the one to decide whether or not she wishes to see him again, or let him into her world – she is always doing that based on the quality of truth, assurance, purposefulness and willingness that she receives from him.
When his Higher Self brings him to a Whole Woman, he must sit and contemplate, in order to realize that he has chosen this meeting – because a significant part of him is ready to ascend into being a Whole Man. This is a huge deal, because he most likely has not had any role models of this evolved male energy in his life. He doesn’t have to be faultless, a know-it-all, flashy, or movie star good-looking. He only has to nurture that spark within his precious Masculine heart that wants to be the best man he can be. He only has to be willing and humble enough to learn from the Feminine, listen to her responses to his actions, and realize that she is the Divine Oracle for him, showing him where he needs to pull himself up.
His Soul really only wants to declare something like this:
“I want to bathe in the sweet, sacred radiance of your eternal Light for the rest of my days, and remember daily what a gift you are to my Soul.
I want you to be the Sacred Mirror on all the ways that I sabotage myself, deny myself, restrict myself and ‘flunk out’ on myself.
I want to hear that you trust me. I want to show you that your trust is well-judged, and that I realize how your ability to trust me makes a difference in how deeply you can open your body and heart when we are together.
I want to walk into brave new territories, risking rejection and even failure so that your trust in me soars, like a bird in flight. I realize that your sexual attraction to me increases exponentially every time I take a risk to rise into my Divine Masculine power and purpose.
I want to be a pioneer of a new movement of conscious, evolving, willing and open-hearted males, defying the old paradigms and awake enough to walk beside women who are changing the world forever.
I might not remember any of this, much of the time, and I may stumble, fall, collapse or sometimes fail at it. I want only to remember that my willingness to live my Sacred Truth, and my desire to do everything I can to earn your trust, are enough. I want only to remember that if I shut down my heart at the first hint of truth that comes from your mouth, your body language, your expressions – I will not win this game. I want to only remember that you cannot be expected to ‘mother’ me into being a grown-up (if I want to have a sexually vital and transformative love life). I do not want you to be my mother.”
We need manifestors for men of the Light to follow now, because it is vital that they stand up and realize their true worth and value in the advancing New Age. Awake Women do not want to batter men, criticize them, punish them, or shut their hearts and bodies down to them. Whole Women WANT men: their unwavering hard presence, their rock solid actions, their warrior hearts, their dynamic, pursuing energy.
Many Men of the Light are choosing to cross paths with soul-embodied women now. This is because their own Soul recognizes that it is time to rise up into Purpose, and the desire to connect with the embodied Sacred Feminine will ignite that Purpose. A woman who is on the path of Light will not settle for any man, no matter how deeply she has longed for the masculine presence. She has no desire nor energy to rescue, mother, nag or coach a man into loving her.
Yet the awakened woman carries more compassion, more unconditional love, more ability to support and nurture, more generosity and more sexual power than any other. There are limitless, never-ending, eternally-abundant rewards for any man who is courageous enough to risk his heart and life purpose for such a female.
This is the time of the emergent Divine Masculine presence, stepping up to the edge and committing to live from there, rising up to support and protect the Sacred Feminine Mission of Global Awakening."
Reference~ Sophie Bashford

Thursday, October 22, 2020

Love Triangle

i'll never forget that day
there was a downpour
and the three of us decided
to walk down the dirt road
to the little store
to buy alcohol
in my mind
i thought this is crazy!
both of these men
i love
but only one
washes away
the dirt in my soul
the rain and you made me notice
how freeing it was
in that moment
to love the both of you
and not feel guilty


Wednesday, September 30, 2020

Sapphire's Letter To Arion: Surviving Your Memory


Long ago I forgave you. In all our past lives, I always forgive you and always I have to let you go. I've done this so often, and so often you fight with yourself for loving a woman like me. I know I am the fire that burns forcing you to feel your wounds and to know your soul.

I know you must be suffering like me and the silence is killing us both. Often in my mind's eye I play out the words you would say to me. Sometimes there are no words, just silence and your gaze penetrating the thickness of the veil that hides my heart. Our souls then merging into a field beyond the human eye that only love can conceive, foster, and exploit!

Then my concentration breaks and I am alone again. Tears come to remind me that what I feel for you is real. The karmic bond between us unbreakable, and yet so much left undone.

I don't want to live the rest of my life without you in it. My whole life has been a steady dose of pain and then 21 years ago you gave meaning to that pain. Every word left unsaid still stirs my heart and with it all the imaginings of what we could be.

I am moving forward, but I am doing so against my own will. Now it's just a matter of surviving your memory. Now I'm doing it to prove to myself I don't need you.

You've taught me to depend on no one but myself. You are the master of needing no one and relying only on yourself. So, thank you for the karmic lesson. I needed to learn this.

If our paths ever do cross again, I’m sure I’ll be unrecognizable to you. I don’t doubt that you will have changed too. I hope you still look at me with the eyes of a long-lost lover finally returning home. May God always be with you and me!!



Sunday, September 20, 2020

Soulmates Reconnecting


i'm sure of it
i loved you
in another lifetime
our karmic paths
have criss-crossed
and we meet again
some call it fate
but i promised you
a lifetime ago
i would always
find you
and you promised
you would carry me
forever in your heart
and send out feelers
so you could be found
every heartache
painstaking life event
led me to you
this invisible force
pulling me to you
i don't doubt you love me
how could i
with one look
in your eyes
and the memory
of us
comes rushing back
like it was yesterday

Sunday, August 9, 2020

Sapphire's Poem: Hot and Cold

i still
think about you
how can i not?
you had such a profound
effect on me
and my path in life
you'll never know
how you wounded me
and at this point
i'm sure you're to scared
to ask
because that would
force you to feel
things you don't
want to feel
so you continue to
live in your ego
these days
and i constantly
change from
hot to cold
when i think
about you
funny how you have questions
but i'll never tell
unless of course
you stop hiding
behind your own pride
i'll always be
ten steps ahead of you
deal with it
but it doesn't mean
i'm not looking over
my shoulder
to make sure
you're still there
and yes darling
i am glad
you're still there 

Saturday, July 18, 2020

Sapphire's Poem to Arion: A Love You Thought Impossible

you were everything to me
when we met
i felt a surge of power
through my soul
and then for years
it felt like i was carrying 
the sun and the ocean
inside of me
years have now gone by
since i last saw you 
and now i feel a void
where once you occupied
that space within me
it is frightning
to no longer feel your presence
now i have to put you
in a safe place
in my mind
to know love like yours exists
makes it hard for me
to find another love
because nothing compares 
to you 
not when you've 
known love
beyond the boundaries
of physical connection
and felt a greater power
with no limits
that can only be described as 
a love you thought was impossible 

Monday, June 29, 2020

Sapphire's Letter to Arion: No Goodbye

darling, have i lost you? i no longer feel your presence in me. where did you go? you stuck around long enough for me to reclaim my power and left without a goodbye. it's not like you. funny how now i feel stronger than ever now that i'm on my own. maybe you lent me some of your masculine energy. maybe one day you'll return and i can give it back to you. i miss my softness, my vulnerability i let you see. if i ever am lost in this world again, i hope you'll come find me to bring me back to myself like you have many times before.
the world is rapidly changing and i can't keep up. how i hope it adds to your wellbeing and your life is unfolding to your wishes and command. if not, may it be so!


Sunday, May 17, 2020

Intimate Relationships: The Power of Transformation

No matter how spiritually “woke” we may think we are, we still have deeper issues which can only be worked out within the context of relationship.
Left alone, we settle into comfortable patterns that limit the range of our emotional awareness and personal expression.
However, once we step out of our comfort zone and open up to others, previously unnoticed/denied aspects of ourselves begin to emerge.
At first, they make waves in the calm waters of our hearts, evoking passion and excitement. But when we let them in deeply enough, it’s like stirring up a pool of still water - all the heavy and messy things which settled at the bottom of our awareness are forced to emerge to the surface.
When our otherwise hard-to-reach issues get stirred up for us to look at, we have an opportunity to embrace these fragmented parts of ourselves, to become more integrated and whole. This is a blessing in disguise, albeit a challenging one.
Intimate relationships demand a depth of intensity and vulnerability which is the fuel for both transcendent passion and crippling conflict. This is why many esoteric teachings point to the “polar couple/ twin flame” archetype as the most powerful of alchemical unions. Intimate relationships have the potential for astoundingly accelerated transformation.
Whether that transformation leads to conscious evolution or unconscious sabotage depends entirely on each person’s individual state of Being.
If you and your partner aren’t engaged in sincere, deep, holistic self-work, there can only be 2 outcomes for this kind of relationship.
Either you and your partner will settle into a relatively comfortable but very limited relationship of matrix-based pleasures and pursuits where your dysfunctions harmonize, but leave little room for expansion of the soul…
OR… the relationship will dissolve to make way for something greater in your life.
This is the case with the vast majority of relationships in the world, which is why people are often so dissatisfied in relationships.
However, if you and your partner are committed to nurture the healing alchemical fire within each other, the richness of this kind of relationship is extraordinary.
 ~ Author Unknown

Wednesday, January 1, 2020

The Love You Can't Forget

i know you sit here
wondering if he's thinking of you
and even though
i can't promise he is
i do suspect
that your thoughts of him
do reach him 
and one day
he'll wonder
what became of you
and this may be enough
for him
to reach out to you

Monday, November 25, 2019

I Need To Know

i want you to say
you cannot be without me
that i'm always
on your mind
and the joy
that fills your heart
i want you to say it
because i need to hear it
i need to know
because I can't be without you

Monday, November 11, 2019

Sapphire's Letter to Arion: The Memory of You Coming Back Around

I know you won’t admit it, but you miss me. You’re doing a good job keeping my memory alive. So much so, that your thoughts still reach me. I have moved on, keeping the ghost of you alive was doing me no good. I still think of you when I hear a certain song that reminds me of you. I smile on the inside, knowing how my life has been touched by you. I’m a better woman because of you. And even though I may never make sense of how strongly I feel connected to you, I don’t question it anymore. You’re a mystery to me. I’m a mystery to myself. 

These days, these precious moments that define me, I savor. As I have started my life over, I have an overwhelming feeling that everything is going to be okay. I feel happier than I have been in years like a heavyweight has been lifted off my shoulders. I hope all is well with you. I hope you have found the courage to live your life as you see fit. I know many times we have said we’re done, but beloved we are never done. Your everlasting glance into my soul has made you a permanent resident. I dwell in you; you dwell in me. Your love endures beloved, our love endures.

All of my gracious thoughts,


Thursday, July 4, 2019

Sapphire and Arion: A New Story

Sapphire had the power in her to create change in her life. She recognized this power in Arion too. Arion clung to his outer life, his possessions and wealth, as a means of taking the focus off of his inner struggles that weighed on his mind and heart. He had grown accustomed to having the void inside of him filled with toys, cars, a big house, and nice things. He purposely deflected his feelings so he could avoid feeling pain. 

Her memory haunted him. Arion watched Sapphire’s life from a distance. Sapphire was moving forward on her path and not looking back. She was shifting her perspective and seeing her ties to Arion in a new light. It was no accident their paths had crossed 20 years ago. They each had lessons to learn and karma to undo. Sapphire’s separation from Thaddeus was painful. But the wounds that Arion left on her heart were deeper and more permanent. Arion’s thoughtless actions of not making any attempt to reach out to her, made Sapphire feel unwanted, unloved.

Halfway across the world, the doors of fate had swung wide open on Arion. He was now being dealt his karma, which caused him to examine his actions and reflect on the pain he caused Sapphire. He felt remorse for his immature actions and his unwillingness to confront Sapphire. Deep down, he wanted to change; he wanted to reach out to her. Arion was fearful of moving forward. He had many doubts about the future. In his mind, it was easier to keep her memory alive than it was to see her again.

His awareness was slowly shifting; new opportunities were presenting themselves to him. A new story was emerging as he cautiously embraced a new direction. Would it include her? Would he move past his fear and merge both of their worlds? Arion was moving towards unconditional love, and at the same time, Sapphire was too.

Their time apart made them both realize how deep their connection was, no matter how much time had passed, and the distance between them, they were always connected. Deep healing was taking place in them both that could only be accomplished through separation. They both now had to figure out who they wanted to be. The dots were connecting, and with fate, there was always the possibility of them coming back together.

Monday, May 27, 2019

Sapphire's Letter to Arion: The War Is Over


Do the arrows of my thoughts reach you? I believe they do for I am still dreaming about you. There is an ancient melody between our two hearts- I swear it! Sometimes sad, sometimes sweet, yet inviting and seductive to our souls. I’ve concluded that you and I are double-natured. Our bodies we leave behind and commingle with one another in a far, distant land, not of this world. Yet I have no proof of it.

I am moving on Beloved, it feels like without you. But I can still feel you stirring the stars in me. I am regaining my strength, and my spirit has lifted from my long battle. If it was a test from the gods, surely I have passed and been promoted. I will rest for now and regain my good health. But alas, the war is over!

Your double-natured counterpart Sapphire

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

The Fire of Kundalini

Kundalini comes from Sanskrit and refers to a cosmic force, energy. It is a pure, divine force. Kunda in Sanskrit means coiled. It’s the same way a serpent sleeps. As the serpent (Kundalini) awakens and travels up the spine, it activates the corresponding powers of the chakras.

Any spiritual practices we perform has its intention of the awakening of this cosmic force (serpent) within us. It is what connects us to the Divine. It functions according to cause and effect. Every manifested thing is subject to cause and effect, and Kundalini is no exception. When the causes are satisfied, the effect is the result.

The most common universal symbol for the Kundalini is the serpent, which is found in every religion. (Matthew 10:16 Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves.It is this serpent that gives wisdom, intelligence. Kundalini is an energy that exists in the body. The true initiate seeks to escape suffering; it is someone tired of the ego, tired of pain, tired of death. The real initiate wants to go back to Eden and has remorse for their pride and their lust and wants to change that. This power of Kundalini is the power of God.

Our nature does not want this. Nature only wants to perpetuate itself. Nature does not want or need us to believe in God or not. Nature wants our energy. Every organism in nature transforms energy and transmits energy. Human beings are organisms that digest, transform, and release forces. And those forces perpetuate life on the planet.

We need a physical body to reach enlightenment. The physical body is the place where all the forces from the other dimensions join together so they can be transformed. The force we need to liberate the power, the energy that will awaken the consciousness and give us the spiritual sight that we need is enclosed in the root chakra- trapped, asleep. This is where the Kundalini rests and waits for us to come and awaken it.

The creative power of God is sex. The sexual energy when polarized negatively traps the consciousness in hell. Only a couple working together can experience this energy. The second birth is the reemergence back to Eden. The rule is to save your sexual energy.

Kundalini is the intelligence of God. The Kundalini only arises, only arrives to those who deserve it. And those who deserve that enter into a very different experience of life. Someone who has this energy active within them does not see life the way normal people do. The Kundalini opens our spiritual eyes. It is the doorway back to Eden.

Reference~ The Fire of Kundalini Gnostic Teachings, full lecture 

Monday, April 29, 2019

Forgive Me

i just want to say
i am sorry
for not talking to you
when i had the chance
i am sorry
for not telling you
sooner how i felt
i am sorry 
for all the pain
i may have caused you
i know i am complicated
but let's be honest
so are you
you also never
said anything
and in our efforts
to avoid each other
we only caused
the other heartache and pain
i am sorry
for being silent
and wanting
to protect you
from me
i can see now
i only made the pain worse
and both of our lives messier
unintentionally wounding those we love
so i am truly sorry
for the one thing
that i did do
and had no control over
and that was falling in love with you

Saturday, March 23, 2019

Good at Pretending

i'm pretending to
forget about you
it's the only thing
that makes the pain
easier to bear
i'm pretending not to
love you
and am wondering
if on your side
of the world
if you are good at
pretending too

Tuesday, November 20, 2018

Sapphire's Poem to Arion: I Am Yours Forever

all my thoughts of you are tied up in knots
your memory fading from me
i fear you will forget me
i fear i will never see your smile again
i feel the days closing in on me
and it becomes harder to breathe
if you were here, i'd be okay
i could inhale again with ease
but for now Beloved i sit here and wait
my destiny calling me
how i thought you were my destiny
now i just second guess myself
nothing is what it seems
this i've learned the hard way
if you were here
i'd have all my thoughts
lined up in a row
neatly placed in front of you
i'd show you all the pretty ones first
and ask for your help to bury the ugly ones
fear can be crippling
and doubt pure madness
i miss the shine from your eyes
that dissolved all my sadness away
i will move on
even though i don't want to without you
but i will because that's what i must do
i will always be waiting for you
and that will always torture my soul
but the Lord hasn't given
me more than i can take
i am the wounded lover
and my scars i am not ashamed of
i wouldn't have it any other way Beloved,
i wouldn't have it any other way

Monday, April 30, 2018

Zilch To Say

Those speechless words
that reside in you-
they press on your insides
looking for a way out.

With one look at your face I understood all the languages of love!

When one sits and stares
at the stars they appear to be dancing,
But stay longer and you will see
that they are doing nothing.

The love language of God can be read in the stars and on your face! But there you sit with zilch to say!