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Saturday, September 22, 2018

My Spiritual Attack: The 9 Reasons for Demonic Attacks

From Journal Entry: 9/8/18

I am lying in bed trying to fall asleep. I can sense something in the room with me and it is evil. I am under attack and feel this thing on top of me as weight. I repeat the name, "Jesus, Jesus, Jesus." I keep saying his name until this thing releases it's hold on me. 

It's been twenty years since I have been under spiritual attack like this. I think this time it was a spirit of harassment. During my divorce, the enemy attacked my mind and my body. I believe this was the final test of the enemy and the power to overcome the demon was in the name Jesus.  Here are the nine reasons why someone is under spiritual attack: 

1. The enemy is harassing you. You've done nothing wrong.

2. Fear operating in you or your family line.

3. Your family's or yours are involved in the occult. This will draw spirits to you.

4. Extremely hateful people draw these things to their home and family. Their meanness effects the house.

5. Something traumatic happened on the property or in the bedroom (sexual abuse or domestic violence).

6. Occult books, materials, cursed objects, etc. can draw spirits to you. You can not serve two masters.

7. A spirit of grief. Not giving up your loved ones to God. We are to grieve our loved ones and release them to the Lord. When not healed, the enemy latches on to it and torments you.

8. Places where murder takes place.

9. Spirits at night sent by former lovers who won't let you go.

Psalm 91:5 You shall not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day.

Reference~ Apostle Ivory Hopkins, Reasons Why People are Spiritually Attacked at Night:

Monday, November 27, 2017

My Inner Child Healing Meditation

 From Journal Entry 11/11/17

I have been spending a lot of my time on healing my heart. When my husband left in January I felt abandoned. It brought up memories from my childhood of when my father left. I've been dedicated to this process of healing and decided to try a Inner Child Healing Meditation. It ended up being one of the best and most healing experiences I have ever had. The guided meditation I found on Youtube. Below there is a link to the video.

The Meditation:

I laid in my bed with one hand on my Solar Plexus chakra and the other on my Heart chakra. I focused on my breath: intake 4 counts, out 4 counts. The guided meditation led to the experience of me observing my Inner Child being cradled in my father's arms. I could feel how safe and loved the little girl felt.

I cried for her. She felt loved and protected by her father. Then suddenly, she felt fear and abandoned when he left her. I approached my Inner Child as my adult self and comforted her. I told her Oompa did not abandon her, he very much was in her life and loved her very much. I reminded her she was not alone and there's nothing to be afraid of. That there are plenty of people in her life that love her and care about her. I told her how brave and strong she is.

This experience helped me reshape that event in my life and gave me perspective on my own feelings of abandonment that I am going through right now. It gave me much needed healing and reminded me that my dad will always be there for me.

Link to meditation:

Monday, October 5, 2015

The Observer and The Observed

From journal entry 6/10/15

During meditation my consciousness separated from myself.  I observed myself from above.  My consciousness sees me crying on the floor, it sees me suffering. There was no thought of I or any identification with emotion.  My consciousness withdrew itself from my personality.  
Reflecting on the experience, I got a glimpse of how I unnecessarily suffer, and recognized a greater awareness that allowed me to conclude, time is an illusion and suffering causes us to feel trapped in it.

Samael Weor states that we do need to divide attention between observer and observed and yet there really is no observer.  When you look into that observer you simply see the act of observation, the pure energy of consciousness, which has no self.  It has no center, no beginning, no ending.  This is something you have to experience.  The intellect will fail to grasp it.


Monday, August 24, 2015

My Encounter with Space Cowboy

From Journal Entry: August 10, 1998

I feel myself ascending upward through the stars. I feel a presence and am scared.  I have no control of what is happening to me. In space, is the presence of a man, dressed like a cowboy. He shows me his hand and touches mine. He says he needs my heart. He removed my heart from my chest, and I could perceive a holographic image of my heart, beating.

I asked him questions about the afterlife and my relationship I was in.  He said, the afterlife isn't all it's cracked up to be, because when your incarnated again, you end up anywhere on the time line.
He said, the guy I was with will go out of my life, that I deserve better. He also said that he would be back to visit me and give me more Class 3 information. I had the feeling he did not want to leave me.  I could feel myself descending downwards, back into my body.

Following this experience, my roommate at the time, now my husband, came home. I had such a rush from the encounter, that I had to share with him what had just happened. He did not know me that well and probably thought I was crazy.  Years later, he told me that when I left to go to work the next day, he searched my trash can for needles.  He thought I was a drug user. 

Years of trying to make sense of my experience I have found, The Kardashev Scale.  This scale is a method of measuring a civilization's level of technological advancement, based on the amount of energy a civilization is able to utilize.
Type 1 civilizations use all available resources on its home planet.

Type 2 civilizations harness all the energy of it's star.

Type 3 civilizations harness all the energy of it's galaxy. They are likely to no longer have physical bodies, having converted themselves to energy or other noncorporeal forms, allowing themselves to somehow influence entire galaxies.
To get type 3 we will tap into the energy of black holes and find the other side, the white holes, that propel matter outwards. Life forms by this time may have evolved beyond physical bodies and into astral/spiritual bodies, allowing them to transcend space and time, transverse great interstellar distances previously prohibited by the physics and physical constraints of physical matter.

References~Michio Kaku,,,

"An animate organism takes abstract ingredients and projects them into space-time, like a living hologram.  These projections can be seen; they communicate, they enter the dance of life." ~Deepak Chopra

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

My Encounter with Urfa Man

From Journal Entry March 8, 2008

I was in a state of half asleep and half awake.  Something came and laid on top of me.  It was human like.  Appeared to have a big head with a prominent chin and no mouth.  I asked it what it wanted and if it was good or bad.  I got no reply.  I know it meant me harm because it felt heavy and dark.  I started singing 'Amazing Grace.'

My son had a fever that reached 105 that night.  I too had a fever. When there is sickness the veil between the visible and invisible is thin. Encounters with other beings is of a greater possibility and psychic attacks can occur.

I was shocked when on the radio show coasttocoast am, a guest had a reference to such a being with no mouth.  Linda Howe describes the being as having haunting black eyes, and sunken chin with no mouth. 

The Gobekli Tepe site in Turkey is an excavated site, carbon dated 12,000 years old and contains 30 acres of pillar circles with  around 250 pillars, each weighing 7-10 tons.  With bizarre carved creatures on the pillars, one sculpture retrieved from the site is a creature with no mouth labeled as Urfa Man. 


Friday, February 24, 2012

Ancient Egypt

From Journal Entry 9/28/2011

During a relaxation technique, I saw myself as a young woman, in my teens, leaving my royal family in ancient Egypt.  I left on my own accord.  I came back years later disguised with a gift I had handmade.  I presented the silk cloth to the king, my father.  I felt there was a deeper spiritual lesson for my return and a spiritual quest as to why I left in the first place. 
I felt honor to prostate in front of the king, but wanted no part of a royal life.  The world outside the palace gave me freedom to be who I was.  I hoped my father would recognize me and he would see that it was out of my own will I served him and not out of duty.  I hoped my father would feel as humbled as I was.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Altered State- Finding Letter

From Journal Entry: 1999

I am in a dream like state. I am walking over to my closet doors and notice a letter taped on one of the doors. It's a full page written in a child's hand. I only remember the first sentence. It reads:

Dear Big Brother and Lil Sis,
You have created segregation and degradation.

I believe that 'Big Brother' refers to government. 'Lil Sis' is the undeveloped feminine attributes that the Big Brother lacks to balance out a system that is patriarchy. Segregation is defined as the practice of compelling racial groups to live apart from each other. Degradation is defined as corrupting of moral character. This is what mankind has created- not God.

In the Gospel of Mary we hear what Jesus response is on sin. Peter poses the question "Tell us one thing. What is the sin of the world?" The Savior replies, "There is no such thing as sin, rather you yourselves are what produces sin when you act in accordance with the nature of adultery, which is called 'sin'. For this reason, the Good came among you, pursuing the good which belongs to every nature. It will set it within its root."

To give in to our own ego and adulterate our path means you are not living up to your spirituality. Interesting enough before writing this I came across an article about Qaddafi. In it he is referred to as 'Brother Leader' of Libya.

References~The Two Marys by Sylvia Browne
The Economist Issue Feb 26-March 4 2011