MADISON MEADOWS: A Spiritual Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Soulful Healing

     Her name was Kalei. I met her in my early 20’s. She gave me a home when I left my abusive boyfriend. She was the medicine my soul needed at that time. There were three of us girls sharing an apartment. Our nightly ritual was tiny wineys and girlie flix with the occasional joint. Those were some of the funnest, best days of my life.     Through Kalei, I met my ex-husband (with whom I have two amazing, talented kids with) and my twin flame I met though my ex! I am so thankful to have known such a unique, charismatic, and beautiful woman before drugs destroyed her soul. Her story is a sad one, but I don’t want her to be forgotten in this world. She is the reason for the chain reaction of events that followed my friendship with her. She is the reason my life path took the course it did that led to my spiritual awakening and finding my life’s purpose. May her soul finally have rest. She was born into a shit show Mom gave birth to her in prison She was ado...

Let’s talk counterparts and the Twin Flame journey during separation. I have included a picture of The Lovers and The Devil card from the Rider Waite tarot deck. Please notice that in The Lovers card that the female counterpart has her eyes on Divine (Source/God whatever your preference is but for the sake of this, I will use Divine). When the female counterpart is standing in her power as a Divine Feminine, she has her eyes focused on Divine, not her counterpart. She is listening to Divine, she is doing her lightwork, listening to her intuition, and focused on what she is being divinely guided to do. She is working on herself, clearing her energy, doing shadow work, and following her path. She is NOT worried about what her male counterpart is doing. Why? Because it’s none of her business. Separation is for working on yourself, doing what you are guided to do, not worrying about what’s going on in her counterpart’s life. If she is more concerned about what he’s doing, who he’s seeing, ...

  Healing is a journey Beginning with one step It's a hard road With no shortcuts And the backpack you'll pack Will be heavy But as the days move on And if you're willing to keep moving forward  The backpack gets lighter Less troublesome  And easier to manage Don't be discouraged  There will be tough days Just keep your eyes focused  On the vision you have for yourself And the world will become yours 

  This is how my day started... Woke up from a bad dream. In it, powerlines came crashing down. There are wolves in the street killing people. Men pick up guns to kill the wolves. I'm trying to hide from the danger. Get out of bed... With my first cup of coffee, I look up the meanings to get a better grasp on my inner conflict. Its not good! The dream meaning of wolves attacking... unresolved emotional issues as a result of someone angry with you. Killing a wolf means you feel betrayed by someone very close to you. And a downed line on a street can represent a force or power that has interrupted a person's path to many things as a result of something outside their control. Great! Someone really has it out for me and I have emotional issues (which I already am aware of). I try to focus my thoughts on having a good day... I turn on my space heaters in the living room (my heater on the house went out a few days ago). On the positive note, I  got to sleep in until 7a because ...

  THE DARK NIGHT OF THE TWIN FLAME SEPARATION ( A HEALING PROCESS) The shortest path to achieve healing is the one that you take by accepting to go through the stages of grief. The faster you embrace your pain and overcome the different phases of healing, the easier your Twin Flame journey becomes. DENYING THE CONNECTION: This is the initial phase of the Twin Flame separation phase. This is a stage that most runner Twin Flames are very familiar with because you get to a state of soul shock and denial for the unconditional love that you feel for your Twin Flame. You become overwhelmed by your feelings and you put up an inner resistance to the compulsion of always thinking of your Twin Flame. For the chaser Twin Flame, life becomes meaningless and makes no sense to go on without the Twin Flame partner. Here are some reasons why Twin Flames Run. For both Twin Flames, you feel numb to your emotions whether you are running or chasing. When you are going through the denial phase of your ...

  Twenty years ago, I had a falling out with my twin brother. Recently, at a family funeral, we made peace. I tried several times over the years to reach out and mend the damage. My brother is very stubborn, hard headed with a lot of pride. All these years our rift has kept our family separated.  I can't help but think about how our lives could of been fuller with time spent together.  It's hard to accept the disappointment from the rejection. I try to look at it as a teaching moment where I can expand my heart to those that are difficult to love. If you had a falling out with a loved one, don't give up. Keep trying to reach them. In God's timing healing will come.

  Let your love flow. Step closer to your humanness and embrace the imperfections of your lived experiences, involvements and relationships as discoveries blazing new tracks inside previously unknown territory that lead you into fuller connections. Let your love go. Let it meet you in the setbacks and deep-rooted regrets wafting through, questioning whether or not you did enough of the right things to secure a forming bond. Caress your grieving heart and soothe past yearnings to be held in a certain style and warmth by others who are, in their way, deeply searching for themselves, yet not entirely ready to unfurl and be seen. Let your love show up for you. Especially when you feel yourself shutting down because you fear you gave away too much. Let your love go into the places unvoiced within. The places where your desires and wounding around intimacy have their own longings to reveal just how worthy and endearing you really are in this world. Let your love flow... ~Susan Frybort

  the city is dead without you in it i use to cry at your comings and goings now i just stare into dead space wishing for your return but knowing damn well it is a silent, broken prayer

  There's beauty in the world That overshadows the ugliness The traumas you've been through That you thought you wouldn't live through There's beauty that cools the pain And when you see it (and I mean really see it) It makes you want to cry The most mundane things  When seen with a new appreciation  (That only someone who has been through a living hell can see) Can cry tears of a different kind of pain Caused by the beauty that one sees with a new awareness  If you have experienced this It's a breakthrough  Trauma Pain leaving your body And cooling pain taking it's place Be open to receiving this type of pain

On the surface of the world right now there is war and violence and things seem dark. But calmly and quietly, at the same time, something else is happening underground. An inner revolution is taking place and certain individuals are being called to a higher light. It is a silent revolution. From the inside out. From the ground up. This is a Global operation. A Spiritual Conspiracy. There are sleeper cells in every nation on the planet. You won't see us on the T.V. You won't read about us in the newspaper You won't hear about us on the radio We don't seek any glory We don't wear any uniform We come in all shapes and sizes, colors and styles Most of us work anonymously We are quietly working behind the scenes in every country and culture of the world Cities big and small, mountains and valleys, in farms and villages, tribes, and remote islands You could pass by one of us on the street and not even...

  i always had a feeling you weren't meant for me not sure why that feeling has always stuck wish it weren't true but then again god does know best so maybe i'm being spared an unimaginable heartbreak  or i'm simply meant to belong to someone else 

Coming Back to Centre in a Relationship~~ In a long-term relationship, it is often necessary to get back to basics and come back to centre with each other. Anyone in a long-term relationship knows that the dance of intimacy involves coming together and moving apart. Early in a relationship, intense periods of closeness are important in order to establish the ground of a new union. Just as a sapling needs a lot more attention than a full-grown tree, budding relationships demand time and attention if they are to fully take root. Once they become more established, the individuals in the union begin to turn their attention outward again, to the other parts of their lives that matter, such as work, family, and friendships. This is natural and healthy. Yet, if a long-term relationship is to last, turning towards one another recurrently, with the same curiosity, attention, and nurturance of earlier times, is essential.   In a busy and demanding world full of obligations and opportunities,...

  every relationship she's been in has been a dead end promises from men that were all broken she's moved on but with less trust less optimism her quiet suffering for a man that will just love her

  I remember the day I lost you. I remember exactly where I was and how suddenly the loss of you hit me. I was driving to work. A stupid old 80's love song was playing on the radio. I felt you in me… with me. Then the phone rang. It was Him. He said he talked to you and you denied any mutual feelings. Then you laughed it off. My heart sank in my chest. I couldn't breathe. Nothing in that moment felt real. It was a fright that shook my soul. I was on a journey with you for nearly two decades.. the same amount of time I was married to Him. You both left me, abruptly, without warning or explanation. I have always been a skeptic of love and for good reason! Always hoping that someone will love me and stick around 'til the end. Except when my destiny kindly reminds me otherwise. I may never hear from your lips the truth. I will learn, in time, to be okay with that. I have to because I have to move on from you.. my past and everything that was just temporary. I'm not go...

  9/14/2021 I was outside with my dog. It was around 9pm. Suddenly I see a large energetic animal walking through my yard towards me. I was startled. I watched it with intrigue as it moved closer to me. It was big!  I reflected on this encounter and my mind went to my first encounter with my spirit animal, the wolf, back in 1997. I realized that the animal I encountered was again my spirit animal, the wolf. This time, however, he was big, strong, and powerful. It's like I was being shown how he's grown into his power and how he's moving now with a sense of purpose. The wolf that I remember from twenty-plus years ago was starving and wild. It all reflects on my spiritual journey that began in my early 20's when I was starving for truth and my spirit was wild. I've tamed my spirit, learned my truth, and grown into my personal power. I'm ready for whatever is coming next in my life. It feels like I've entered a new season. The meaning below seems to coincide wi...

  there has been moments for us under circumstances that I'm sure that the divine was behind each time i got to see you was an opportunity missed by both of us to be open, honest, real you are my heartache that I will never get over

Every morning You wake up And feel depressed You thought this feeling would fade by now You thought, with time, you'd move on From the heartbreak and pain You sit in front of the mirror and contemplate your inner state You know good and well You are not your feelings And your awareness of this Does not dictate how you approach your day Yes, some days are not as heavy as others Yes, you may always feel broken inside But you determine your attitude You choose if you'll smile at your reflection in the mirror And whether or not you'll do your best to find happiness In whatever good, small or big comes your way In the meantime Have a good cry and shake it off The world needs strong women like you

 “Do not love half lovers Do not entertain half friends  Do not indulge in works of the half talented Do not live half a life  and do not die a half death If you choose silence, then be silent When you speak, do so until you are finished Do not silence yourself to say something And do not speak to be silent If you accept, then express it bluntly Do not mask it If you refuse then be clear about it  for an ambiguous refusal is but a weak acceptance Do not accept half a solution Do not believe half truths Do not dream half a dream Do not fantasize about half hopes Half a drink will not quench your thirst Half a meal will not satiate your hunger Half the way will get you no where Half an idea will bear you no results Your other half is not the one you love It is you in another time yet in the same space It is you when you are not Half a life is a life you didn't live,  A word you have not said A smile you postponed  A love you have not had A friendship you did ...

  I'm done looking back Having regrets Full of remorse So many tears Cried over the years Over a broken dream I gave my all And he took my all Now it's time to move forward And regain my self respect Some relationships are just broken And some will break you He almost broke my spirit And he would of won But I'm not the type Of woman to not fight back I do what ever it takes to survive I'm the type of woman That pushes forward And I learn from the past Every time making better choices Every time becoming stronger And more aware of the courageous woman I am

  Many nights I tried to conjure your presence... You lying next to me. I'd speak your name in my mind and close my eyes while imagining what your touch feels like. Looking back now, I was a woman deeply in love... In deep with a phantom that haunts my dreams. It is madness of a sort that no human should endure. Did you put a spell on me? Did you cast all your longings to the gods and they somehow reach me in my sleep? Love is cruel. You are cruel.

When you are confident secure and sovereign in your truth, your knowingness,  you will not be threatened or insecure by anyone else’s truth. Turning your back on someone, canceling someone, bullying, name calling, belittling are all behaviors stemming from trauma, programming and deep insecurity. It’s a response from someone that is threatened by another’s truth. When you are solid, sovereign, aligned and at peace with your truth, I promise you, the above behaviors will never resonate with you. You just won’t do them. Confidence in who you are and what you believe breeds compassion and empathy for any other truth outside of yours. You don’t have to accept it, obviously, but you can be the sovereign human you incarnated as and allow free will and diversity to exist amongst you. Pay attention to divisive behavior disguised as honor. Anything that pulls humanity apart creating segregation is part of the problem not the solution. We are here to rise above division. Cancel culture is di...

  I don't feel guilty about building a life for myself after divorce. I feel guilty about not doing it sooner. My accomplishments have been painstakingly executed in such a way that I don't wish my road on even my worst enemy. I fought for happiness. I fought for peace and sacrificed everything to get where I'm at today. Life has been like a wildfire for me.. burning away everything that no longer serves me.. leaving only ashes to remind me how things are constantly being transformed. We don't always know why we have to struggle so much and endure unfathomable amounts of pain. But I assure you there is meaning in the scars you now wear and beauty in the fire that you survived. You are capable of so much more than you realize. Just keep moving forward and believing in yourself, and watch the fire that destroys you, transform you into a better version of yourself.

S ilence is something that comes from your heart, not from outside. Silence doesn’t mean not talking and not doing things; it means that you are not disturbed inside. If you’re truly silent, then no matter what situation you find yourself in you can enjoy the silence. There are moments when you think you’re silent and all around is silent, but talking is going on all the time inside your head. That’s not silence. The practice is how to find silence in all the activities you do. Let us change our way of thinking and our way of looking. We have to realize that silence comes from our heart and not from the absence of talk. Sitting down to eat your lunch may be an opportunity for you to enjoy silence; though others may be speaking, it’s possible for you to be very silent inside. The Buddha was surrounded by thousands of monks. Although he walked, sat, and ate among the monks and the nuns, he always dwelled in his silence. The Buddha made it very clear that to be alone, to be quiet, does no...

  He's had a lot of misfortune In his life Taken advantage of By women That promised their loyalty Women that did not appreciate his heart And the twelve-hour days he put in So they could sit at home Like a damn queen All the while spending money Like water Racking up credit card debt With no regard for the future devastation They were unleashing He's been underappreciated But has learned From his past mistakes Now he's more cautious More aware Of women that have hidden motives Now he doesn't go into a relationship Blindly His eyes are wide open To women pretending To being queens

  Being with the wrong person In life Can be detrimental To your health It could have lasting psychological effects On you Depending on if there's abuse, neglect, or even a lack of validation for your feelings Maybe you've become invisible To the person And you have to beg for attention Maybe you feel you can't be your authentic self Because they already control and manipulate you Out of their own fears and insecurities You have a choice To stay or go Just know if you stay You're saying yes To allowing the abuse to continue And no to the potential future Of authentic living Where your peace and contentment await