My very first memory is when I was two years old. I was at the park with my mom, brother, and grandparents. We are having a picnic. I go to sit down at the picnic table and I sit on a bee. I scream and cry. My grandma begins yelling. The adults all are arguing. We leave.
It's not the bee sting that is of importance here, it is what happens next. My grandma's negative reaction to the situation. It would be the beginning of my deep emotional wounds.
My grandmother had a great impact on my pain body. She was cold, unloving, and manipulated everyone around her. She controlled everything and everyone in my life, so it seemed.
Reflection on my grandmother, now I realize, that her rigidness and maliciousness aided my soul. It was a lack of love and acceptance that led me to seeking love within. From an early age I wanted a way out of suffering.
Eckhart Tolle explains it best. The pain-body is the accumulation of old emotional pain that people carry in their energy field. It consists of negative emotions, that are stored up in the cells of the body when not dealt with. It feeds on negative thinking and negative experiences such as drama in relationships.
To eliminate the pain-body you have to cut the link between the pain-body and your thought processes, so we no longer feed the pain-body with our thinking. The disidentification from the emotion and just being in the now moment is the way to stop the cycle of recreating negative experiences. By bringing awareness to the emotion transmutes the old emotion into consciousness in the same way a fire transmutes everything into itself.
Reference~Echarttolle.com
