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Friday, December 25, 2015

The Seeing Tree

Creator of All,
I am a seeing leaf on your tree,
Your wisdom grows in me
I contemplate your existence,
and the world inside of me
I render your name holy, 
and give praise to Thee

You shelter me-
under your tent in my hour of need
You light my path-
when I am to blind to see
You heal my open wounds,
and clothe me in purity

I sacrifice my heart-
on Your alter joyfully to Thee
I plant in this world-
Your Kingdom's seed
May it's trunk grow-
into the heavens,
and bare Your fruit and leaves
Then my seeing eyes- behold!
Your beautiful face inside of me

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

My First Memory- Activation of the Pain Body, Part 1

My very first memory is when I was two years old.  I was at the park with my mom, brother, and grandparents.  We are having a picnic.  I go to sit down at the picnic table and I sit on a bee. I scream and cry.  My grandma begins yelling.  The adults all are arguing.  We leave.

It's not the bee sting that is of importance here, it is what happens next.  My grandma's negative reaction to the situation.  It would be the beginning of my deep emotional wounds.  
My grandmother had a great impact on my pain body.  She was cold, unloving, and manipulated everyone around her. She controlled everything and everyone in my life, so it seemed. 
Reflection on my grandmother, now I realize, that her rigidness and maliciousness aided my soul. It was a lack of love and acceptance that led me to seeking love within. From an early age I wanted a way out of suffering.

Eckhart Tolle explains it best.  The pain-body is the accumulation of old emotional pain that people carry in their energy field.  It consists of negative emotions, that are stored up in the cells of the body when not dealt with.  It feeds on negative thinking and negative experiences such as drama in relationships.
To eliminate the pain-body you have to cut the link between the pain-body and your thought processes, so we no longer feed the pain-body with our thinking.  The disidentification from the emotion and just being in the now moment is the way to stop the cycle of recreating negative experiences.  By bringing awareness to the emotion transmutes the old emotion into consciousness in the same way a fire transmutes everything into itself.

Thursday, December 10, 2015

The Hidden Artist

My words are out of control.
I sow them,
Weave them,
But I have no control over them.
They emerge from within me,
Take me hostage,
Command my hand,
And with purpose write.
The parts are all connected,
But the artist I cannot see with the naked eye.
Who is this that takes command over my body?
Over my speech?
Whomever she is is bound to this body,
And her hidden mystery she desperately wants to unveil.

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Our Own Anger

Anger isolates.  The only thing anger can do is destroy.  Anger cannot create anything.  It cannot create peace.  It cannot create understanding.  It cannot create harmony; it can only create conflict, war, discord, separation.  Even if we intellectually know these things, we all have enormous anger, why?  Do we all want peace?  Do we all want to feel connectedness?  We all want to feel love and we all want to love.  Anger is the obstacle, not the anger of others, but our own.