Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

  From Journal Entry 8/20/2025   In the dream, I was in my home or what felt like my home. But it didn’t look exactly the same. The energy of the space was familiar, yet transformed, as if I had stepped into another version of reality. From the kitchen, I heard the warm hum of women’s voices, soft laughter, and conversation. When I walked in, I saw about thirty women gathered around the island. They were chatting, smiling, radiating light. The air felt charged with awareness and peace, almost like everyone there already knew why we had gathered. I became aware that I was dreaming. I was completely lucid. So I asked, “Who here knows that we’re lucid dreaming right now? That our human selves are asleep back on Earth in 3D, while we’re consciously meeting here?” Most of the women raised their hands. They all knew. That moment touched me deeply. I could feel this collective awareness. Like we were all participating in something bigger than just my own dream. It fel...

  Dreams often speak in the language of symbols and emotion. When animals or familiar places appear, they carry messages from deep within our subconscious. From Journal Entry 10/28/2025 I was standing inside my childhood home, but it didn’t feel cold or painful like the memories I carry from there. Instead, it was filled with life. Dozens of stray cats of all colors and ages, were wandering freely through the rooms. Some were timid, some bold. Some seemed lost, and others looked at me with quiet trust. I remember feeling an overwhelming urge to care for them. I wanted to feed them, comfort them, and make them feel safe.   When I woke up, I knew this dream carried a sacred message. My childhood home was not a place of emotional safety. It was a space marked by trauma. The kind of environment that teaches a child to hide their softness, silence their truth, and live in survival mode. To dream of that house again could have felt like returning to the scene of old w...

From Journal Entry 8/22/20025   I'm lucid. I'm in a house with people I know. The time period is years ago, around the time when I met my twin flame. I was young, and he was just dating his current wife. She was there, too. They were in a back room together of a house. I was aware that I was in a past time period. I was holding a photograph in my hand. And the photograph was of the past that depicted that current time period and where I was. I was debating in my head whether I should go talk to him. I was a little scared. I told myself this is my chance. So, I go find him, and I tell him I need to talk to him in private. We go outside and I tell him that I'm actually from the future, and that a lot of time has passed. I show him the photograph. I tell him that we will be basically in a relationship for the next 30 years and it will be kind of complicated. A lot of it won't make sense because it's not a physical relationship, in 30 years from now it will make sense. ...

M y son recently moved out. I can't help but reflect on the last 21 years. And I'm asking myself, what has he taught me. More than anything he has shown me what a healthy masculine looks like. He's gentle, consistent, considerate, loving, patient, kind, thoughtful, and strong. I'm proud of the man he is becoming and feel blessed to be the woman that raised him. I know he's got all his dad's good qualities.  I know though that he's got a quiet reflective nature within him that leads me to think he did learn something from me. I will leave it at that.  I came across a journal entry that I wrote when he was twelve. I think a lot of boy moms will relate to it's simple yet reflective message. All those moments behind you. Now those daily interactions you had with him mean so much more. They're forever in your memory. Journal Entry 2016 Son,  While you're away at camp, I won't miss your stinky socks in the middle of the floor. Your urine stains aro...

Have you heard bells in dreams? This could be a doorbell, church bells, or a ringing of a phone. These sounds in dreams alert us of something important that is about to happen or needs  immediate attention now. They can also invite us to connect with loved ones. How do you interpret the message? That depends on the bell and how you feel when you hear it. Here's some common dream themes of bells. Phone Ringing . To hear a phone ring will indicate an important message from a loved one or friend is soon to arrive. You soon will get important news.  Depending on your feeling in the dream it will indicate if the news is favorable or unfavorable.   Wedding Bells . Hearing wedding bells is good. They indicate a new beginning.  Perhaps a new relationship. Maybe you're entering a new phase in life and are transitioning spiritually coupled with growth. Wedding bells can denote a period of joy and bliss coming.  Welcome these bells with an open heart. Doorbells . The ...

A thousand cuts inflicted on myself for your one Pain being the only true measurement  Of what was real  And yet so much remains unknown I may never know if you felt pain Pain of loving  The pain of remembering  And the pain of losing me But I did  And still do for you What has changed  Is that another love Has stepped in Taken your place Your memory still in me But no longer consumes me Sometimes I wonder If you sent him to me Because it was the only act of love You could do for me How strange love is It binds me to you And now to him Our fates all sealed And joined

From Journal Entry 11/21/24 I had a dream right after I met my boyfriend. In the dream, I cancelled my wedding. A big box of gifts arrived from my uncle and my cousin. I forgot to tell them I cancelled the wedding, and don't know if I should return the gifts. In the dream, I was going to marry Michael Jackson. I was very content with my decision. I was not upset.  Cancelling a wedding in a dream often reflects a change in commitment or a major decision being reconsidered. Since this happened after meeting my boyfriend, it could reflect an unconscious shift—maybe letting go of past expectations or imagined futures. It might represent the part of me that is opening up to something new (my current relationship) and moving away from a previous internal plan or idea of the future. Gifts in dreams often symbolize emotional support, inherited values, or blessings from my family. Forgetting to tell my uncle and cousin  could point to some tension about how my changing path (perhaps ...

From Journal Entry  6/14/2025 I open a holy book. There's a verse that catches my eye that reads, "Stop thy! The America devil land." This dream is spiritual and therefore a warning to America. It is a call to our nation for repentance. For us to stop and turn back towards God. We, as a nation, are on a path of self destruction. If we don't stop our moral decay judgment will follow.   Devil land refers to how we have embraced evil. When mankind forgets God he then must face judgment.  We are a nation that can be likened to Babylon.  We must abandon our wicked ways and turn towards righteousness.  What could punishment look like for our nation? It could come in the form of economic collapse, moral decay, famine, disease, or natural disasters.  In short, God is warning us that our time is short. Turn away from your wicked ways.  Repent. For the time is near for judgment.   Remember God is a merciful God. He longs for us to come home, and in doi...

Women with absent fathers often become beggars for love, safety, and security. It’s heartbreaking how deeply they invest themselves in others, hoping that their love will be returned, hoping to finally feel chosen, protected, and seen. They carry a silent ache—an invisible wound that whispers....Maybe if I give more, they’ll stay. Maybe if I’m good enough, they’ll love me. This voice doesn’t come from who they are today, but from the little girl inside them who kept looking out the window, waiting for someone who never came. Their love becomes a currency—they trade affection, loyalty, and even their own boundaries just to feel held. They over-give, over-function, and over-apologize, hoping that one day, someone will finally choose to stay without conditions. The absence of a father doesn’t just leave a physical void—it creates emotional gaps that women often try to fill with partners, friends, or even strangers. But what’s missing isn’t just a person—it’s the early belief that they are...

F rom Journal Entry 5/5/2025 I had an astral projection where I was on a planet similar to Earth. There was music playing that sounded like Taylor Swift. People, mostly young adults, that looked like humans were in a bar with arcade games. I walked over to a table and asked the guy where I was. He said Siloh. There were movie posters on the wall. The fact that the music was similar to pop music and that the people looked human suggest I may have tuned into a dimension or world that mirrors ours in culture but isn't identical. Like a reality where things evolved slightly differently. With all the familiar activities like on Earth... the movie posters, socializing in a bar, and music playing could suggest the environment was similar to everyday life on Earth. Like a place where the culture mirrors ours but isn't an exact replica. A parallel world is defined as a hypothetical self-contained reality that exists alongside our own universe it may have different physical laws Mysterie...

K undalini energy sits like a sleeping serpent at the root Chakra. It awakens gradually when the sexual energy is harnessed and directed upwards, through chastity, instead of downwards through sexual intercourse. It works its way up gradually as One is chaste, contemplating God, and is devoted to a spiritual path. For me… it began with a daily practice of yoga and meditation. I also had a deep desire to know God. That desire led me to my encounter with my twinflame. But, if One doesn't meet their twinflame in this outer world, One can encounter their twinflame in the inner world. With a strong desire to know God/Love, One can reunite with their twinflame. It is a spiritual experience with inner transformation. It unfolds in divine timing. For me, it was years and years of suffering because I felt crazy. Past life memories came flooding back. My dreams were reshaping my perception of reality. My ego had to be put in check. Journaling became good medicine. If you are wanting to awake...

The child you once were does not disappear. They do not fade into the past like an old photograph or dissolve with the passage of time. They live within you still woven into your fears, your longings, your habits of self-protection. They are there in the way your body tenses at a raised voice, in the way you hesitate before asking for what you need, in the ache you feel when love seems just out of reach. Healing is not about leaving this child behind. It is about turning toward them with the love and presence they were once denied. Trauma is not just what happened to us it is what did not happen. It is the touch that never came, the safety that was absent, the soothing voice that never told us, You are enough just as you are. When we experience wounding at a young age, we do not just lose a moment in time. We lose trust, we lose connection, we lose the full expression of who we were meant to be. The child learns to survive, to adapt, to become small, quiet, or pleasing anything to main...

I'm going to say this once.  Never get into a serious relationship until you're finished being single.  Never invite someone into your life if you don't have the space for them in your life to begin with.  Never open up a person's heart with no intention on catching them when they fall in love with you.  There are good genuine people in the dating world right now willing to give everything they are to have a stable and healthy relationship with someone they have longed for ever since they can remember.  Take my advice and if you're not ready to step up to the plate, take your hands off another person's future.  ~ Cody Bret

Emery was a childhood friend of my brother. He was over often. We would play together... chasing each other through the house and playing hide and seek. Emery was the first boy I had a crush on.  My freshman year of high school would be the last I'd see of him. I moved to Phoenix from East Peoria, Illinois (1991).   But over the years I'd have dreams of him. There are 3 that stand out. In the first dream Emery was using drugs. He was in despair and wanted help but felt all alone.  That dream prompted me to try to find him. I couldn't find him but found his brother Byron and his wife. I sent Byron's wife a message through Facebook.  I told her who I was and the dream I had of Emery.  She never replied. So I let it go. Around 2016, I had another dream. This one was just as alarming.  In the dream Emery was in a house. There were police sirens out front. The cops busted in. He was trying to hide from them but was arrested.  I did an internet search a...