MADISON MEADOWS: A Spiritual Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Soulful Healing

the devilish smile behind your cracked lips reveals there are thorns in your mouth and a loaded gun in your hand but sweetheart, you forget that my loaded gun is my pen and if you wanted me to write nice things about you you should of behaved better

i'm starting to forget what you look like this troubles me because it feels like i'm forgetting myself

she was your light in your darkness the wholeness in your brokenness but you threw her away like a piece of trash someone will come along and marvel at what you  threw away and think to himself how he's found a treasure

 From Journal Entry: 3/27/18    I am standing outside with a group of people. Some of them I know. It is clear and sunny. A friend of mine points to something in the sky and says, "Do you see that?"    I look and see an object that blends into the sky, except it's moving. It's like it is translucent but clearly it is a craft. I think wow we're really not alone. I look again, and this time I know what I'm looking for and am able to see several of these crafts in the sky. As those around me became aware of them, they became aware of us. A tinge of fear came over me; not knowing their intentions.    If I was going to interpret this dream according to it's personal meaning for me, I would say that the UFO represents my creative mind and my spiritual journey into self-awareness. But I feel this dream is more than symbolic. I have seen UFOs in the past. I also believe we are not alone.  Interestingly enough, after I had this dream, there were...

i don't want this period in my life to be labeled Bad Divorce i have yet to meet my future self and see what her reaction is to it  

i wish i could forget how you told me you loved me everyday. i wish i could forget how you would hold my hand in crowds because you knew they caused me anxiety. i wish i could forget the thoughtful concern you expressed during my pregnancies. i wish i could forget how every day you made me laugh. i wish i could forget how you told me you'd love me forever. i wish i could forget how you broke my heart. i wish i could forget how it felt to be your best friend. out of all the painful memories i have of you, i will carve out the fearless woman you now have forced me to be.

he wants me to go quietly. don't say a word about our marriage. don't share with others what went on behind closed doors. i feel no shame, but maybe he does.

~ I know I am but summer to your heart, and not the full four seasons of the year.   Edna St. Vincent Millay ~ It is necessary to the happiness of man that he be mentally faithful to himself. Infidelity does not consist in believing, or in disbelieving, it consists in professing to believe what he does not believe.  Thomas Paine ~ Bushwhacked, I examine my hands. Same hands. Rings still there but no longer valid.   Suzanne Finnamore ~ They feel life is for the taking, and that everyone deserves happiness no matter what the cost. I must remember these tricks if I ever decide to have my soul surgically removed.  Suzanne Finnamore ~ "God is great and God is good." Lisa says.  But where are the Apache attack helicopters when you need them?   Suzanne Finnamore ~ When would he realize that it wasn't his infidelity I couldn't bear, but his cowardice?   Tatiana de Rosnay ~ It was hard for them to accuse their wives of infidelity when the...