I Wish I Could Forget

i wish i could forget how you told me you loved me everyday. i wish i could forget how you would hold my hand in crowds because you knew they caused me anxiety. i wish i could forget the thoughtful concern you expressed during my pregnancies. i wish i could forget how every day you made me laugh. i wish i could forget how you told me you'd love me forever. i wish i could forget how you broke my heart. i wish i could forget how it felt to be your best friend. out of all the painful memories i have of you, i will carve out the fearless woman you now have forced me to be.