Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

  I was once afraid of fear Until I learned to feel it And not let it suffocate me But rather to allow it to gently flow through me So that I may transform it into passion, purpose and meaning I was once afraid of grief Until I realized It was a treasured visitor For it revealed the vast ocean of love That lay within me And my capacity to feel And care for others deeply I was once afraid of rejection Until I realized That it need not cause me any hurt or harm When I was able to fully embrace and accept myself And honour my strengths and greatness Celebrating the beauty and brilliance that lay within me I was once afraid of heartbreak Until I realized That my heart was my own And the only person who could truly break it Was me Through me disowning myself And valuing how another person saw me Above how I chose to see myself And giving them the power to shape How I felt about myself and my reality I was once afraid of failure Until I realized That it was my greatest teacher And that p...

  he held her words in the silence  pressed them into his heart  and healed a thousand lifetimes of wounds  and eternal grief  absorbing her light as she absorbed his reflection 

I choose to remember you Not by how you hurt me But by how you taught me to heal Not by how you left me But by how you taught me to never abandon myself  Not by how you broke me But by how you taught me to rebuild myself  Not by how you dimmed my light   But by how you helped me to shine  Not by how you kept me trapped in a place of comfort  But by how you empowered me to leave my comfort zone  Not by how you left me feeling weak But by how you taught me what it means to be strong  Not by how you tried to control me  But by how you taught me to be free Not by who you told me who I was But by how you taught me to define myself  And above all I choose to remember you  Not by how you were unable to love me  But by how you taught me  To love myself.  ~ Words by Tahlia Hunter 

  In the Celtic tradition, there is a beautiful understanding of love and friendship. One of the fascinating ideas here is the idea of soul-love; the old Gaelic term for this is anam cara. Anam is the Gaelic word for soul and cara is the word for friend. So anam cara in the Celtic world was the "soul friend." In everyone's life, there is a great need for an anam cara, a soul friend. In this love, you are understood as you are without mask or pretension. The superficial and functional lies and half-truths of social acquaintance fall away, you can be as you really are. Love allows understanding to dawn, and understanding is precious. Where you are understood, you are at home. The anam cara experience opens a friendship that is not wounded or limited by separation or distance. Such friendship can remain alive even when the friends live far away from each other. Because they have broken through the barriers of persona and egoism to the soul level, the unity of their souls is ...

  He hurt her deeply When he did nothing He created a pain Inside a wound That already existed She loved him deeply But to her It didn't feel like enough Maybe she wasn't enough She thought she was incomplete Without him She had to face her past All the times She felt invisible To the men In her life Maybe she just needed time Time to understand herself better And figure out That she may be hurt But not damaged The men She realized Who broke her heart Actually gifted her Because now she's confronting her pain Facing her fears And hears a faint voice whispering I believe in you, even when no one did I'm there for you, when it felt no one was I love you, when others didn't know how to That voice is what keeps her going Keeps her looking forward Instead of back And keeps her believing There is a love Out there That can unravel her nerves Calm her storms And explore her deep waters With a wildness And patience She aches for

  If you need someone to be happy, that's not love.  IT IS LACK.  If you are jealous, insecure and do anything to keep someone by your side, even knowing that you are not loved, and you say that you believe in that person, but not in others, who seem like rivals to you, that is not love.  IT IS LACK OF SELF LOVE.  If you think your life is empty without that person;  You can't imagine yourself alone and you maintain a relationship that ended just because you don't have a life of your own, that's not love.  IT IS DEPENDENCE.  If you think that the loved one belongs to you;  you feel master and owner of his life and his body;  You don't give him the opportunity to express himself, to make up his mind, just to assert your dominance, that's not love.  IT IS SELFISH.  If you don't want it;  you do not fulfill yourself as a man or woman with this person;  you prefer not to have intimate relations with that person, however, ...

  His life was too compartmentalized Too rigid There was nothing more terrifying  To her Than the image of tiny boxes Taking up her life She was wild And needed flexibility  Air to breath Fire to tempt her nature And keep her engaged  In life Running was the only option for her Running from a life She could not imagine  Herself living in 

The soul purpose of your life is to love. To love yourself and others so fully, so furiously, that you become completely overflowing with immense joy and lightness. When your heart is bursting with love every day you will truly be fulfilled. When your love for another is so immense, so passionate, so compassionate, you won't have time to worry about your own problems and life. You will be in such a flow of juiciness and aliveness that you cannot stop yourself from giving away warm happy hugs to everyone you meet. The day you stop resisting your natural connection with everything in this Universe, and start allowing for it, then the real magic begins. It is from this simple direct connection to life that you'll be able to fully relax, and feel the soft gentle Divine Presence that naturally flows from the centre of your being. From this place you can discover the Source of Love which is who and what you truly are. "Who you are is neither consciousness nor it's content. Y...

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  She thrived on her own She was reserved Kept to herself She knew at a young age She was different She could blend in anywhere Connect with anyone Yet very few got her She had a complicated inner life That only a mystic would understand When she withdrew From the world It was to explore other worlds That only a few Know the entrance into She thrived alone In places many avoid But she knew that it was only in those places The real gems of life are found Excavated And kept for safekeeping In the most secret places Of her inner being Inner work is done in solitude. Truths are discovered painstakingly through a process that most avoid. The Mystic’s path is not for the faint-hearted. Loneliness is your companion.

  When a woman is loved right she becomes many times the woman she was. She experiences a rebirth of her full divinity into her childlike innocence and purity as she is nurtured in her feminine essence and supported to let go off her masculine defenses and blossom into all she is becoming. As true love cast out all evil and all shadows die in the light of their love she becomes secure in what she feels and sees as her intuition is no longer cast aside as crazy by the masculine and she develops a trust in not only her intuition but his as they both nourish their gifts, talents and traits. Sacred union with the divine masculine changes a woman, but only if she is able to surrender to him and trust his love, which also depends equally on his capacity to be solid in his masculine core and hold her in her feminine essence and emotional nature without faltering. If she senses any weakness in his core and he is too much in his feminine she will not feel safe to surrender to him and trust ...

  my solitude lengthens and widens like a night sky i stare at it's vastness and get lost in the stars of my own creation only through time do we conquer ourselves or self destroy

  True vulnerability is not easy. We are wired to protect ourselves from getting hurt. We will lie, hide, pretend, cry, yell, and even fight to keep from feeling judged or exposed. It's extremely difficult to create emotional intimacy and connection when we struggle to trust someone else enough to just be ourselves without fear of rejection or abandonment.  How much do we really love or even like ourselves? How you can tell is based on how open you are about who you really are. If you feel unworthy, unlovable or inadequate, then you will feel that others will judge you as such as well and validate your negative beliefs about yourself. It's hard to let yourself love someone that you don't feel good enough for. Having flaws and weaknesses exposed can be terrifying for someone who lacks confidence and hasn't learned to intimately accept themselves. What's worse than living with insecurity and anxiety is living without real love. Love is what frees us from judgement, gu...

  *YOU GOT IT ALL WRONG* You didn't come here to perfect unconditional love. That's where you came from and that's where you'll return to. You came here to learn: Love before heartbreak. Complicated love. The love you deny for the ego. The intense and crazy love. The broken love Love with detachment. Love overshadowed by passion. Stumbled love. The love that is not shown. The love that is silent The love that is lost. Self-love. Universal love. You didn't come here to be perfect. You already were. You came here to experience being beautifully human. Failed and Fabulous. To then rise again and be the Light that guides you through your shadows. But what about unconditional love? Cut it with that story. Love, in truth, does not need any other adjective. Does not require modifiers. It does not require perfection. It only asks that you show yourself aware of yourself. May you be the best version of yourself. And do what you came to do. May y...

  You came naked You will leave naked You came without anything You will leave without anything You arrived weak You will leave weak So, why so much hatred, resentment, envy, selfishness and pride? We will all go empty handed, what all material things we have earned, we earned here, and will leave everything here only. The only thing that will go with you, that you actually earned here is the love you shared, the compassion you showed, the humbleness, your gratitude, your helpfulness, your kindness. That is the legacy you will leave here that everyone will follow. - unknown author  

  The most beautiful quality of all in a human being in my humble opinion? The ability to listen deeply. To listen from Presence. From stillness. To listen without trying to fix someone, change them, or ‘save’ them. The ability to allow another to be exactly as they are. Not giving unsolicited advice. Not lecturing them about the latest psychological research or the ‘most true’ spiritual teaching. Not trying to mold them, manipulate them into matching a concept of who they ‘should’ be. Not projecting your own trauma - or traumatic answers - all over them. Just listening. Listening with an open mind and an open heart and a receptive nervous system. Allowing them to breathe, to express, to weep, to question, to be completely unique, to expand into the space, to discover their own truth. I have met world experts in intimacy, relationships, and honest communication who are unable to do this. I have met spiritual gurus, so-called “enlightened masters”, expert psychologists, and life coa...

There are words Stuck in his throat That he can’t get out Feelings he wants to express But fears he can’t He thinks it’s too late Too much time has gone by And the damage is done He can’t take back What he did And what he should've said Her memory Lingers in him And he knows Time is not on his side One day She’ll marry again One day Her heart will belong to someone else And he’ll have to live with that Because he never Spoke   up

I don't mean to offend people but often times I do, unintentionally. I don't mean to be rude or condescending but sometimes the words out of my mouth sound that way. I use to be quiet.. kept to myself.  You'd never know what I was thinking. But as I've aged that's changed. I'm bold.. sometimes in your face.. Don't hold back anything. Especially when I get a sense of dirtiness.. Someone being less guinuine than what I expect from others. I don't like shady, dishonesty. I don't like being treated like a dumb girl.. taken advantage of. So if you think for even a split second you can pull the wool over my eyes, I'll call you out on your bullshit. Life is to short to play games. To short to not be real.. even with strangers. And I can't help think that more people need to be more bold and stand up to those who are taking advantage of the vulnerable. Say enough is enough.. Take your bullshit somewhere else. Demand integrity.  Demand change. Be the ...

  PLEASE HONOR YOURSELVES.~~  Quit trying to fix others who can not, or will not, face and work on their shadow. Don’t waste your time helping those who are not courageous enough to be transparent, honest and authentic.  FYI…. An apology without change behavior is actually manipulation. If you have given these ones many chances to rise up, but they continue to break promises, it is time to move on.  It doesn’t matter how much you love them. Even if you have great compassion for how unconscious they are. If they are open and willing to allow you to absorb and process their shadow for them, they do not care for you, they are just using you. This is spiritual abuse.  Don’t let someone make their issues your job!    You cannot fix other peoples issues, unless they’re willing to dive into the messy nightmare we call our shadow. If we keep trying to help someone that isn’t willing to be helped, even if they say they want to be helped, even if they are good a...

She's good at shutting down Just ignore her needs Or neglect her heart  Just once  And she'll retreat within Sometimes for days Her silence Overwhelming  So love her To the best of your ability  Even on the days When she's difficult to love

 “ Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before.  Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the ...

" Love is the perfection of consciousness. We do not love because we do not comprehend, or rather.. we do not comprehend because we do not love.  For love is the ultimate meaning of everything around us. It is not a mere sentiment; it is truth; it is the joy that is at the root of all creation..  The human soul is on its journey from the law to love, from discipline to liberation, from the moral plane to the spiritual...  In love all the contradictions of existence merge themselves and are lost. Only in love are unity and duality not at variance. Love must be one and two at the same time. Only love is motion and rest in one. Our heart ever changes its place till it finds love, and then it has its rest." ~Rabindranath Tagore

  From Journal Entry 6/17/2013 I am with my husband and kids in his living room. He is across from us with his wife and kids. His wife has a birthmark under her left eye. He points to the right side of her face and says he loves that side more. He points to everyone except me and says we are all family. Then he points to a family portrait on the wall. He calls my family his aunts and uncles. I can feel how family is important to you… How family comes first. How family also means everything to me. How there is a karmic bond between our families. In the end, we all want to feel like we belong to someone or to something greater than ourselves. I want to say that that greater thing is love. And unselfishly, we know that our greatest wounds are caused by love. This twin flame journey has really shed light on family dynamics. I see how our infinite souls are intertwined with those we love and even those that we grow to hate. I don't have all the answers. I don't know if my actions ar...

  Do not love half lovers Do not entertain half friends Do not live half a life and do not die a half death If you choose silence, then be silent When you speak, do so until you are finished Do not silence yourself to say something And do not speak to be silent If you accept, then express it bluntly Do not mask it If you refuse then be clear about it for an ambiguous refusal is but a weak acceptance Do not accept half a solution Do not believe half truths Do not dream half a dream Do not fantasize about half hopes Half the way will get you no where Half an idea will bear you no results Half a life is a life you didn't live, A word you have not said A smile you postponed A love you have not had A friendship you did not know The half is a mere moment of inability but you are able for you are not half a being You are a whole that exists to live a life not half a life.  ~ Khalil Gibran     

 " Stillness is vital to the world of the soul. If as you age you become more still, you will discover that.  The fragments of your life will have time to unify, and the places where your soul-shelter is wounded or broken will have time to knit and heal. You will be able to return to yourself. In this stillness, you will engage your soul.  Many people miss out on themselves completely as they journey through life. They know others, they know places, they know skills, they know their work, but tragically, they do not know themselves at all.  Aging can be a lovely time of ripening when you actually meet yourself, indeed maybe for the first time. There are beautiful lines from T. S. Eliot that say: 'And the end of all our exploring Will be to arrive where we started And know the place for the first time.' ~John O'Donohue

  He dropped her off at the bus stop one morning She waited for him to come home She was nine He never did Disappointment set in She grew up and married at 27 Thought She'd finally be seen, valued, cherished as a wife But he never did Disappointment set in She sat down at 41 And wrote a letter To the love of her life After her husband left She hoped he'd respond But he never did Disappointment set in She met a guy at 44 And he promised her Everything But he never did Like much about her Disappointment set in After years and years of disappointments She made a resolution To be there for herself To show up every day And declare "I am here for you!" When the men in her past Never did