Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

Sometimes you have to wait  in the dark For what seems like forever Stuck Certain no progress is being made, not even a little growth  Nothing seems alive You, least of all It doesn’t even feel like waiting, truth be told, Since waiting implies an end in sight  — and you haven’t seen one of those  in ages. You’re sure you’ve been abandoned Forgotten It seems as though your own soul may have deserted you But then one day A day you didn’t think would come — The smallest of cracks appears Then the crack turns into an opening Then the opening a breaking free.  Maybe it was the way the sun hit,  or how the rain fell or the planets aligned or maybe something deep within you simply knew: NOW. But it’s not just that you’ve come back to life You’re different. The life within you feels humbler, since you know you know less now. And more grounded, since your roots were growing deep all this time. There was something happening, you understand now something profound in ...

  I'm not willing to quit me Give up on my healing journey Even on my darkest days When I'm crying in the shower Wishing I didn't have to be strong Wishing I could just go back to bed And pretend my burdens don't exist Maybe my ex quit me And a few friends along the way Saw I was too much Or changed their hearts about me But I'm not giving up On loving myself There might be days I fail Where I talk toxic to myself Or say fuck it And have a bad attitude For the rest of the day But I always hit the reset button And forgive myself And promise myself to do better Because that is within my power It's also within my power to heal Maybe not all at once Maybe a whole lifetime And if that's what it takes I'm not giving up Because I'm not a quitter

  My view of relationships is that they are unique and incredible opportunities for us to face our demons and to grow.⁠ ⁠ Together.⁠ ⁠ Our intimate partner is there to provoke and trigger some of our deepest wounds, and to bring them to the surface so they can be healed.⁠ ⁠ We are either in a relationship where we perpetually TURN AWAY from these opportunities.⁠ ⁠ Or, where we commit to TURN TOWARD them.⁠ ⁠ This means that when we are triggered or we see things about the other person that we don’t like—or about ourselves—we don’t run. Or avoid.⁠ ⁠ We know that “issues” will come up and this is okay. This is welcomed even.⁠ ⁠ We use these as opportunities to heal our weaknesses and build our strengths.⁠ ⁠ We zero right in on whatever is going on and look at it. ⁠ ⁠ Much of the work is clearing space, diving deep to clear away debris and junk and ignored issues that have been sitting dormant or rotting for years and even decades.⁠ ⁠ Rolling up our sleeves to get in there and clean ho...

  So often I let you control me I did what you said And even did what you needed In anticipation you would demand The thing you needed Maybe it was the tone in your voice  Or the bent brow That I did what you commanded And never pushed back Because the consequences  Were worse than the weight Of your intimidation 

  I'm doing my best to stop thinking about you. It's not easy. There's a lot of synchronicities that pop up almost everyday that remind me of you. They remind me of who I was when I was with you. Now it feels like I'm trying to find my way back to that girl.. The carefree, wild spirit that emerged every time I was near you. I know she exist. I'm just having a hard time finding her since you left. I got so caught up in the feelings you made me feel that I lost my way back to her. I've seen her inside my dreams, sometimes dancing.. Sometimes running free and climbing trees. She feels safe in that space.. Safer to be herself. I don't blame her for not wanting to come out. There's emotional scars and wounds that would only weigh her down out here. Some of it caused by your memory. Some of it self inflicted.. Loving someone that she feels abandoned her. I tell her I'm here and remind her I'm not going anywhere. I tell her how much I...

  Most of us are familiar with hearing something along the lines of, “I broke down his/her walls”. This statement gives the impression that we need to push through barriers… when the truth is that when we hit walls around people and their hearts, we must get curious. When our own walls come up, we have to breathe in, soften, and get curious. What are we protecting ourselves and others from? Walls come from a place of fear. They keep people out at all costs because letting people in our past has likely been associated with pain, heartbreak, and maybe even abuse. We can’t actually have walls and feel fully loved because the walls prevent the love from getting in. Boundaries come from a place of love. Not just love for the other person, because we’re teaching them how to love us, but also love for ourselves. When we create and preserve boundaries, we create and preserve self-worth. We send the message to ourselves (and others) that we are worthy of being respected and loved. Walls kee...

  The lyrics are from a dream I had this morning. In the dream I could hear a song playing on the radio. It sounded like Steve Earle singing, Thank Jesus for being alive. I woke up and wrote down the song that was in my head.   Whether you work on Wall Street  Or on some back street hood Try to keep it real And do what good people should Whether you’re  fighting In another man's war Watching the rich get richer And the poor stay poor Just don't forget what All this beauty is for Stay real, Stay right Learn to love everyone And swallow your pride And at the end of the day Thank Jesus for being alive Life is a hard road Full of wicked turns Don't forget your heart And what mistakes you have learned