Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

every year i expect you to show up or call but you never do i'm starting to believe all those little moments of you stealing a glance at me were all fabricated in my mind i want to still believe that when we were in each other's company that you too felt the air charged with electricity but maybe i was wrong and only i felt that way with a decade now separating us your memory is fading and what scares me the most is never knowing if what was between us was ever real

here i stand looking out the window on the 31st floor from my temporary room into a world that’s made me feel unwanted all of my life but as i steady my gaze at the sunrise on the city that never sleeps this man i met six months ago wraps his arms around me from behind in a tight, reassuring embrace that i am wanted he is a species unknown to me: kind, generous, genuinely loving as we hold on to each other our thoughts intertwine and i feel the magic we both long for this moment to never end we both want each other in a way no one ever has in this perfect moment i become aware that this man is going to change my life and so i breathe him in and let the colors of the new sun paint my mood two lovers wanting nothing more then the infinite wonder of what this moment has to offer

From Journal Entry 1/9/2020 I am with my mom and son. We are at my grandma's house. We are standing outside. I look up at the blue sky and see clouds that look like crosses. I point up at them and tell my mom and son to look. I am very excited. This is a spiritual dream, an answer to a prayer that was being answered. I still need conformation that God is with me . I have gone through many life changes the past couple of years with my divorce, a new relationship I'm now in, and I am still searching for answers in my own life. Am I on the right path? Have I found my life partner? Is it time to move?  The crosses I believe mean, " Keep your eyes on me. " I am reminded to focus on Christ and not to get distracted in my daily life. It is a reflection of my future and a promise that everything is in the hands of God. All I have to do is trust Him. Looking up at the sky is my spiritual feelings and state of mind. It being clear blue means my life will be calm, ligh...

life has a way of making you forget who you are it will tell you what fashion to wear what music to listen to what not to eat and how to behave what religion you should belong to and who to vote for to be the next King but none of that matters what really matters is knowing who you are loving yourself so you have more love to give others how you touch another person's life can cause a ripple effect around the world you are an imaginary line touching millions remembering who you are is more important than who they tell you you are

Outrage is a part of our healing. Don't let anyone try to shuffle you away from your anger. Anger is a wise, cleansing force alerting you to the truth of your worth and to the truth within you. It's a necessary step in recovering from being violated, personally, and collectively. Don't rush out of your outrage, listen to it and harness it as fuel for wise, informed action on your own behalf. Your anger is part of your power.  Do what so few dare to do: Give your anger a safe, empathic space to be fully, completely felt. Harness it, listen to it. To the degree that you allow yourself to do so, is the degree to which you can increasingly own your power without apology. Anger has so many gifts. Not indiscriminate, projected anger, but the energy of outrage, felt and placed where it truly belongs. Anger has an inner alchemy that heals and isn't contingent on external validation. Collective female outrage is a nectar that this world needs. Reference~ Betha...

it was a daily battle fighting with my emotions i hated him for what he did to me and i loved him for the children he gave me i struggled with the good memories and the bad they are knotted in my heart and mind i don't wish to erase them but if it wasn't for my children i'd have to be honest and say he was the biggest mistake i ever made

i know you sit here wondering if he's thinking of you and even though i can't promise he is i do suspect that your thoughts of him do reach him   and one day he'll wonder what became of you and this may be enough for him to reach out to you