Waking Up After Divorce

it was a daily battle
fighting with my emotions
i hated him
for what he did to me
and i loved him
for the children he gave me
i struggled with the good memories
and the bad
they are knotted in my heart and mind
i don't wish to erase them
but if it wasn't for my children
i'd have to be honest
and say he was the biggest mistake
i ever made