Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

when he left he pulled all my emotions from me i wanted to say so much more than i did say to him i wanted him to stay and never leave so much i wanted from him and so much regret left in me not knowing if i should of said more or if i said too much  to push him away rejection sucks whether it's presented as a proper goodbye  or as a silent retreat into the unknown  and the one thing you're left with is a mouthful of regrets 

"And if you should ever find yourself feeling lonely, my dear, let yourself gaze up at the night sky at each of the stars and remind yourself that some other person at some point in history, time or space gazed up at the same stars and felt exactly as you feel now and you are connected in your heart space with all who have ever felt the same way at some point in their life: lonely, lost, isolated, dissatisfied or unhappy which is every person in existence. And so in feeling lonely,  you are connected to all of humanity and no matter how alone you may feel, you are never truly alone. And as you gaze at the stars, remind yourself that there are more of them that exist than there are grains of sand on the Earth, for the Universe is so incredibly vast and expansive beyond our imagination and yet, out of the trillions of stars and planets that exist, you are here on this one, alive and breathing. How could this be a random accident? And so the biggest mistake  you could ever make i...

she dragged years behind her struggling with loss fighting off fatigue  wanting to forge a new path without so much baggage  years of wars fought grenades thrown at her landmines placed strategically  to obscure her path some days no sleep too much gunfire  to close the eyes oh, how this life can suck every ounce of energy  out of you and leave you feeling dead she left the past behind her  and kept moving forward  maybe one day she'd find peace and rest and a hole to bury all her memories  that haunted her  

  "What is your secret to remaining calm?" she asked. "I am a traveller of life. I am here for only a short while, for I am merely passing through. I came into this life empty-handed and I shall leave empty-handed  and in every moment, I trust that I have what I need  and that what I need is enough. I need not compare my path to others for my purpose is not their purpose  and my lessons are not their lessons; all that is required of me  is to be who I came here to be.  I welcome change,  knowing that all is impermanent  and only that which is truly real will last. In the storms of life,  I find stillness within, knowing that the temporary emotions I feel  are merely visitors. And I do not fear pain, for I know that I will find relief  and that pain is simply a messenger, and so I welcome it with compassion, asking it "What are you here to teach me?" And I embrace each step of my path,  knowing that within it lies the destinatio...

she fills the room with presence empty space disappears when she walks into the room all eyes are now on her her beauty hangs transfixed on the strangers' faces she knows she's beautiful  but how she wishes someone, anyone would see beyond the perfect figure and perfect hair if anyone just peered into her eyes they'd see a girl that wants to be "seen" the room she fills is full of loneliness  but no one sees it they just see what they want to see what is only skin deep

A voice within me whispered, “Your life will start  to make a lot more sense, my dear, once you learn to view it through the lens  of where you are going  rather than where you once were, and of who you are becoming rather than who you have once been. For life is lived only forwards, never backwards and so long as you are committed to a path  of growth, love and learning,  a bright future awaits you  beyond all that you could presently dream.” Words by Tahlia Hunter 

Healing for the most part means grieving. You won’t get through this without grieving, my love.  Disappointment is sacred, you see. You have to grieve out the past, the things you lost, the roads you could have taken. You have to grieve out your stolen childhood, those shattered dreams, a life you thought you were meant to live. You have to grieve out those missed opportunities, words and behaviours you regret, choices made or unmade that led you to where you are, or not.  You have to grieve out the dream that it could have been any different, the lie that you believed in order to keep yourself going, or keep yourself safe, or keep you on the pathless path to where you find yourself now. Let yourself be disappointed then! Turn towards the pain of “things not turning out the way I wanted them to”. This is the death of your ego, and it hurts like hell sometimes. You want to fight it, you want to run, you want to protest, but soften. Soften. Let it hurt today. Weep it out today. ...

I wish I could love the war out of you. So you didn’t dance with fight or flight. I wish I could go back to every moment where you were wronged. And somehow make it right. I wish I could have fought  for you  when you were 9, because you deserved it. Far before you were mine.  I wish I could love the hate out of you.  And replace it with my eyes. So you could see how beautiful  you are. to me.  I wish I could calm the storm  that rages inside of you  when you trip on triggers and take it out on me.  Because I don’t deserve that, but I still love you.  So I will endure it.  Because it is not your fault  that the chemicals in your brain  try to trick you into  sabotaging the good things.  They grow arms to push me out. They grow a mouth to say hurtful things. They grow legs that run away.  But I will walk behind you saying  “Babe, I just wish I could love the war out of you. But instead I’ll fight it with...