Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

     Her name was Kalei. I met her in my early 20’s. She gave me a home when I left my abusive boyfriend. She was the medicine my soul needed at that time. There were three of us girls sharing an apartment. Our nightly ritual was tiny wineys and girlie flix with the occasional joint. Those were some of the funnest, best days of my life.     Through Kalei, I met my ex-husband (with whom I have two amazing, talented kids with) and my twin flame I met though my ex! I am so thankful to have known such a unique, charismatic, and beautiful woman before drugs destroyed her soul. Her story is a sad one, but I don’t want her to be forgotten in this world. She is the reason for the chain reaction of events that followed my friendship with her. She is the reason my life path took the course it did that led to my spiritual awakening and finding my life’s purpose. May her soul finally have rest. She was born into a shit show Mom gave birth to her in prison She was ado...

Let’s talk counterparts and the Twin Flame journey during separation. I have included a picture of The Lovers and The Devil card from the Rider Waite tarot deck. Please notice that in The Lovers card that the female counterpart has her eyes on Divine (Source/God whatever your preference is but for the sake of this, I will use Divine). When the female counterpart is standing in her power as a Divine Feminine, she has her eyes focused on Divine, not her counterpart. She is listening to Divine, she is doing her lightwork, listening to her intuition, and focused on what she is being divinely guided to do. She is working on herself, clearing her energy, doing shadow work, and following her path. She is NOT worried about what her male counterpart is doing. Why? Because it’s none of her business. Separation is for working on yourself, doing what you are guided to do, not worrying about what’s going on in her counterpart’s life. If she is more concerned about what he’s doing, who he’s seeing, ...

  Healing is a journey Beginning with one step It's a hard road With no shortcuts And the backpack you'll pack Will be heavy But as the days move on And if you're willing to keep moving forward  The backpack gets lighter Less troublesome  And easier to manage Don't be discouraged  There will be tough days Just keep your eyes focused  On the vision you have for yourself And the world will become yours 

  This is how my day started... Woke up from a bad dream. In it, powerlines came crashing down. There are wolves in the street killing people. Men pick up guns to kill the wolves. I'm trying to hide from the danger. Get out of bed... With my first cup of coffee, I look up the meanings to get a better grasp on my inner conflict. Its not good! The dream meaning of wolves attacking... unresolved emotional issues as a result of someone angry with you. Killing a wolf means you feel betrayed by someone very close to you. And a downed line on a street can represent a force or power that has interrupted a person's path to many things as a result of something outside their control. Great! Someone really has it out for me and I have emotional issues (which I already am aware of). I try to focus my thoughts on having a good day... I turn on my space heaters in the living room (my heater on the house went out a few days ago). On the positive note, I  got to sleep in until 7a because ...

  THE DARK NIGHT OF THE TWIN FLAME SEPARATION ( A HEALING PROCESS) The shortest path to achieve healing is the one that you take by accepting to go through the stages of grief. The faster you embrace your pain and overcome the different phases of healing, the easier your Twin Flame journey becomes. DENYING THE CONNECTION: This is the initial phase of the Twin Flame separation phase. This is a stage that most runner Twin Flames are very familiar with because you get to a state of soul shock and denial for the unconditional love that you feel for your Twin Flame. You become overwhelmed by your feelings and you put up an inner resistance to the compulsion of always thinking of your Twin Flame. For the chaser Twin Flame, life becomes meaningless and makes no sense to go on without the Twin Flame partner. Here are some reasons why Twin Flames Run. For both Twin Flames, you feel numb to your emotions whether you are running or chasing. When you are going through the denial phase of your ...

  Twenty years ago, I had a falling out with my twin brother. Recently, at a family funeral, we made peace. I tried several times over the years to reach out and mend the damage. My brother is very stubborn, hard headed with a lot of pride. All these years our rift has kept our family separated.  I can't help but think about how our lives could of been fuller with time spent together.  It's hard to accept the disappointment from the rejection. I try to look at it as a teaching moment where I can expand my heart to those that are difficult to love. If you had a falling out with a loved one, don't give up. Keep trying to reach them. In God's timing healing will come.

  Let your love flow. Step closer to your humanness and embrace the imperfections of your lived experiences, involvements and relationships as discoveries blazing new tracks inside previously unknown territory that lead you into fuller connections. Let your love go. Let it meet you in the setbacks and deep-rooted regrets wafting through, questioning whether or not you did enough of the right things to secure a forming bond. Caress your grieving heart and soothe past yearnings to be held in a certain style and warmth by others who are, in their way, deeply searching for themselves, yet not entirely ready to unfurl and be seen. Let your love show up for you. Especially when you feel yourself shutting down because you fear you gave away too much. Let your love go into the places unvoiced within. The places where your desires and wounding around intimacy have their own longings to reveal just how worthy and endearing you really are in this world. Let your love flow... ~Susan Frybort