Nature

she gathered herself
in the wilderness
because that's where
she felt her heart
open and bloom
she felt connected
to life
to something greater
than herself
gathered up
in a loving embrace
of a thousand invisible arms

Dream Message: Adam's Book

A woman in my dream says, "Don't let one forget those things that are lost."

Shortly after having this dream I began reading, Wheels of a Soul. There's a part in the book that talks about the Great Flood and the Tower of Babel that destroyed the entire world and erased every memory of what happened up to that point. The Bible and the Zohar both record a past civilization that was different than our own and maybe even greater. Did man possess advanced knowledge in ancient times? 

The Zohar explains that God did indeed send down a book to Adam from which Adam became acquainted with the supernal wisdom of the Light. This book was brought down to Adam by the master of mysteries, the Angel Raziel. The book later came into the hands of the "sons of the Lord"- that is, the wise souls of their generation. Whoever was privileged to peruse it acquired the wisdom of the Light and its awesome power. Three angels always accompanied and kept watch over the book so as to prevent its falling into improper hands. When Adam was expelled from the Garden of Eden, he tried to keep the book, but it flew out of his hands. Weeping, he prayed to the Lord for its return. It was given back to him in order that wisdom would not be forgotten, and that mankind might strive to obtain knowledge of The Creator by understanding the Light. Happy are those people of exalted spiritual piety to whom the wisdom has been revealed, and by whom it will never be forgotten. As the Bible states: "The secret of the Lord is with them."

Reference~ Wheels of a Soul by Rav P.S. Berg

Hollow Silence

the silence
was unbearable
as the mind screams
"just make him love me!"
never loud enough
for him to hear you
and so you pretend
everything is okay

Fear

It is said that before entering the sea a river trembles with fear. She looks back at the path she has traveled, from the peaks of the mountains, the long winding road, crossing forests, and villages. And in front of her, she sees an ocean so vast, that to enter there seems nothing more than to disappear forever. But there is no other way. The river can not go back. Nobody can go back. To go back is impossible in existence. The river needs to take the risk of entering the ocean, because only then will fear disappear, because that’s where the river will know it’s not about disappearing into the ocean, but of becoming the ocean.

Reference~ Khalil Gibran

The Storybook Castle

you kept all the stones
he threw at you
and every bad memory
locked away
not because you have a hard time
of letting go of things
but because you know
how to build things
out of the negative
and toxic relationship you were in
that's why you used all the stones
to build your storybook castle
with a kick-ass dungeon
if he ever decides to show up
you can throw him in it

The Road

Find your lane. Make space for the flow to show 

itself. Follow the natural rhythm of your life, and

you will discover a force far greater than your own.

- Oprah

Everybody's looking for the future. They're never in the present. So when they arrive at the future, it's not there for them because they're not present for it. If you get the idea that this is the moment that you have, it is the only moment that you have, then you live in the present, and you move with the flow, because this is the point of arrival. Right now.        -Deepak Chopra       

Remember: The most important thing is not what's happening out there. What is primary is your state of consciousness at this moment. That determines what form the future will take. So the important thing to realize is that what happens to you is much less important than how you respond to what happens. That determines the way forward in life.     - Eckhart Tolle

A Letter to My Lover: Will You Join Me?

dear lover,

i am complicated. i am divinity and darkness. i am nothing and everything all at once. i explore boundaries and go beyond them. i am tamed and pretty when i need to be, but wild and unleashed in my spirit. you will want to know me, but i am unknowable. i love to dance in the rain and make love naked under the stars. what you see in me is only a reflection of the love within yourself. my ache to be known stretches beyond my imagination when imagining all the ways you will come to know me. i have wounds, deep wounds, that have carved out the woman i am today. please know if i give myself to you, i am yours, not just for a fleeing moment, but for as long as you'll keep me. the closer you move towards me, the farther away i will want to move from you. but don't let me. i will want to run, but i will be brave if i know you're holding on to me. i need space to grow and expand my soul, this is how you win my heart, by allowing me to explore myself. i need to know you love me unconditionally, and i will test you. can you handle that? i won't hide that deep down i'm a hot mess, but i'm a beautiful mess of imperfections, ingenious, and chaos. do you still want me? if you say yes, then i am screwed, because that means i am falling in love with you. and even though this scares me, i will take the risk and make myself even more vulnerable to you. so what do you say, will you join me?