Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

There is a common interest, a common intent, shared amongst all religions, which is the longing to experience the truth.  This is the urgency in the heart, a sense in ones heart that what we see in our daily life is not the totality of life.  Truthfully, if what we see in our daily lives was the totality of life, life would not be worth living. Reference~ gnosticteachings.org/The Fuel For Spiritual Experience

Beloved, This affair of our hearts goes on and on and on. We rise and fall. How much can the heart endure? You are aware of my soul's innermost thoughts, and still you do not take heed! How will you and I fair if neither one speaks the truth? My heart has not lost patience with you. Do you forgive me for all of my crimes? You, beloved, hold the sword. I bend my neck and offer you my head. Is this too deep for you? Or has your feet and mouth found their courage yet? All of my love, Sapphire

From Journal Entry 12/8/15 My husband buys a house with a demon in the bedroom closet.  The bedroom is upstairs.  I warn him not to go into that room ever.  I can feel it's power.  I am afraid and do not want to enter that room either. I had this dream at the time when I was reflecting on my first memory. The demon represents my fears, repressed feelings and emotions. The closet represents an unveiling of previously hidden aspects of myself. It is important to know how to armor yourself against demons in the dream world.  Since this dream, I have taken a conscious role to always pray when I find myself awake in the astral world and confronted with an evil presence. The prayer that I grew up with and now recite is The Lord's Prayer (Matthew 6:9-13) . What ever your faith or religion is, memorize a prayer that works for you to use as a spiritual d efense against evil.   Also, most recently in a dream, I found myself confronted again with a man w...

When a husband and wife meet- the shoe must fit. They must compliment each other in every way.  What one lacks- the other possesses. The quality of a soul seeks the same quality of soul in another. If a soul is sweet, then sweetness will be their companion.  If a soul is foul, then foulness will be their companion. It is better to pair up with your kind and not mate with a different breed. If you are foul, but would like to become sweeter- remove your bitterness, grievances, anguish and seek contentment with sincerity. It is better to be single undergoing this process, than to pair up with a dog, or pig, or a snake of sorts. 

I often think that I will try to tell you how very dear you are, and how I'm watching for you, but the words won't come, tho' the tears will, and I sit down disappointed- yet darling, you know it all- then why do I seek to tell you?  I do not know; in thinking of those I love, my reason is all gone from me, and I fear sometimes that I must make a hospital for the hoplessly insane, and chain me up there such times, so I won't injure you. ~ Emily Dickinson

From Journal Entry 10/16/2015 I am driving in the Suburban with my kids. I am at a stop sign.  A military like guy is standing on the corner pointing a gun at me.  He points it at the kids, they are not sitting still.  I tell my daughter to stop it, sit still, and I turn around to get her to stop.  The man shoots me square between the eyes.  I am dead.  My son says calmly, "Mom is dead."  My daughter is yelling. I am aware that I am dead.  I fear to look at my daughter consciously because of what she may be seeing- blood, etc.  I am fully conscious.  It felt like the world I lived in was of constant terror, control, and watch. There was a constant threat to conform or be killed.   The fact that I got shot in between the eyes (the third eye) and died instantly, is a sign that my consciousness is waking up. It also relates personally to the inner changes, transformations taking place inside of me.  It is a positive sign t...

Creator of All, I am a seeing leaf on your tree, Your wisdom grows in me I contemplate your existence, and the world inside of me I render your name holy,  and give praise to Thee You shelter me- under your tent in my hour of need You light my path- when I am to blind to see You heal my open wounds, and clothe me in purity I sacrifice my heart- on Your alter joyfully to Thee I plant in this world- Your Kingdom's seed May it's trunk grow- into the heavens, and bare Your fruit and leaves Then my seeing eyes- behold! Your beautiful face inside of me

My very first memory is when I was two years old.  I was at the park with my mom, brother, and grandparents.  We are having a picnic.  I go to sit down at the picnic table and I sit on a bee. I scream and cry.  My grandma begins yelling.  The adults all are arguing.  We leave. It's not the bee sting that is of importance here, it is what happens next.  My grandma's negative reaction to the situation.  It would be the beginning of my deep emotional wounds.   My grandmother had a great impact on my pain body.  She was cold, unloving, and manipulated everyone around her. She controlled everything and everyone in my life, so it seemed.  Reflection on my grandmother, now I realize, that her rigidness and maliciousness aided my soul. It was a lack of love and acceptance that led me to seeking love within. From an early age I wanted a way out of suffering. Eckhart Tolle explains it best.  The pain-body is the accumulation of ol...