Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

  The Fall of 1999 I remember that day like it was yesterday. I heard a knock on my door and when I opened it my heart fluttered with a million butterflies and I fell into you. It felt like a long-lost lover had finally returned home. You caught me off guard when my defenses were down. You said you were there to pick up your moped. You said you use to live in this house. How strange our paths crossed at a moment when I was living with your friend and unknowing to me your girlfriend was in the car waiting for you. You said you were in town for the Monet exhibit. That day changed my life. I didn't know it then but my heart chakra was blown wide open and I experienced myself as a multidimensional being. Soon after that, the dreams of you came. To this day your soul still finds me when I'm sleeping, somewhere between this world and the next. my biggest regret all these years is never telling you how i feel about you. i let my fear silence me. i was too young back then to have...

  floating in her wake was every moment good and bad mixed with pleasure and pain she was the storm moving through and past each life moment with force leaving nothing unchanged

  Dear Daughter,   The day will come when you will be grown and our days of binge watching Grey's Anatomy will be over. I won't be there to smell your little head and squeeze you tight. You will be off living your life and searching in another soul ways to be loved. And I hope that what you have learned from me is to love yourself first. If you can do that,  you'll be able to heal your wounds when the world feels cruel. You'll be able to attract a man who can nurture, foster, and protect you as you journey on your road. I wish I could tell you that you'll get everything your heart desires, but God doesn't work that way. He's not a genie in a bottle granting your every command. He will guide you if you let Him. He'll meet you wherever you are. And I promise you He'll give you what you need. You may not see it that way at the time. And that's okay. Just know you can always reach out to me and I will be there for you. My life hasn't been easy so...

  Let go of that which is gone. Let go of that which is lost. Let go of that which is not yet happening. What has happened in the past and what will happen in the future exist only in your mind. What is happening now is the infinite caress of the universe. To touch the eternal now and let it enfold you in its infinite love. What is happening now is the perfect outcome of all you have been, and all you have done. It is all here to teach you. It is all here to love you. It is all here to liberate you. And it is all perfect. Release that which is going out. Embrace that which is coming in. Leave alone that which has not yet come. Want nothing, and embrace everything. Relax into what is, and what is will take care of you. Let it be what it is. ~Yogi Amrit Desai

sometimes when a man acts like he doesn't care he actually does he just may not be emotionally equipped to handle a confrontation with you so he hides holds back his feelings for you until he's matured enough to say what he feels without feeling vulnerable  and doubting his own heart exposing himself (in his eyes) naked to you

  The pain of not being together: This seems to be the  hardest fact to accept initially , you ask yourself, others, God about the reason you felt this deep love in the first place when it was not meant to be. You lose faith in God, you lose faith in fairness, your love gets mixed with bitterness of pain, you start blaming everything around you, but you blame yourself the most. With time you come in terms with acceptance as you get tired of not being able to accept, you go along with life's inevitable flow, and you let things happen, but  that pull within you never truly goes away . You realise your love was not here to leave your existence any time soon,  you sense the divinity of it even though you may not know anything about spirituality , you realise the purity hidden in the pain of being separate,  you feel the pain of being separated from yourself . And this is how you allow the triggers coming from your twin flame  to show you your shadows,  bec...

From Journal Entry 2007 I'm kneeling in a shallow river. I'm pregnant and out of breath. The sun is shining. I see the ravine that I must climb. I think to myself I can't make it. I'm so tired and weak. Then I see you at the top of the ravine coming down to where I am. You bend over to pick me up and carry me up the path to safety. I was beyond broken and beaten down. I was thirty-two and pregnant with my second child. I knew my husband (at the time) was having an affair. He told me he was in love with another woman and it was over with her, but it wasn't. I could feel myself slipping away and becoming a passenger in my own life. I was so numb with pain. I had no strength, nothing left in me to give to myself or anyone. I remember the sleepless nights in my first trimester unable to sleep with an awful feeling looming in the darkness.  I felt I was in danger of losing my baby. I remember, this particular night, getting up to use the bathroom and seeing blood.  I p...

  i don't consider myself a damaged woman i'm a survivor of my wounds channeling healing energy to heal myself and finding a power to help heal others my light burns brighter because i fight my battles my spirit is relentless instead of surviving storms i've now become the storm that is unstoppable