Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

clutching the memory of us in my two hands i struggle to let go the present grips me in pain as my mind forces me to relive the history of you and i my heart accounting it as a treasure 

Oh Beloved, may I never  leave God or heaven  for when my thoughts  are on you, I am in heaven  but if there is a slip  on my part, I am in hell

darling, don't you deserve a love that feels like a heaven than a love that keeps you in a hell?

From Journal Entry: 9/8/18 I am lying in bed trying to fall asleep. I can sense something in the room with me and it is evil. I am under attack and feel this thing on top of me as weight. I repeat the name, "Jesus, Jesus, Jesus." I keep saying his name until this thing releases it's hold on me.   It's been twenty years since I have been under spiritual attack like this. I think this time it was a spirit of harassment. During my divorce, the enemy attacked my mind and my body. I believe this was the final test of the enemy and the power to overcome the demon was in the name Jesus.  Here are the nine reasons why someone is under spiritual attack:  1. The enemy is harassing you. You've done nothing wrong. 2. Fear operating in you or your family line. 3. Your family's or yours are involved in the occult. This will draw spirits to you. 4. Extremely hateful people draw these things to their home and family. Their meanness effects the house. 5. Someth...

it took a man   to trample on her heart a man  to tell her to be less  than the woman she is  a man  to beat down all her dreams  for her to see through all the bullshit and remember who she is: your worst nightmare or your greatest dream

the broken woman is the one who possesses a soul of a lion she is capable of defending herself 

dear future lover, just by looking at me you won't be able to see that I am broken. I wear a mask to hide my pain and I carry a shield to protect my heart. and once you realize just how broken I am, you will want to fix me. but all the broken parts of me do not fit back together. they will have to be reshaped and reassembled by someone who is kind, gentle, and patient. someone who sees that investing in me is worth every ounce of effort it will take. 

for so long it's felt like winter around here he was cold, harsh, cruel now he's gone I can begin to imagine what summer would feel like a man's touch that is warm and soft and makes me feel secure a man's love that doesn't starve me of attention because like me he aches to be the sunlight 

you succeeded in destroying any good memories I had of you when you wreaked havoc on my mind you couldn't leave me in peace you had to uproot all the light and leave me in blinding darkness 

you want to cry but you hold it in all day. you're at work, it's not a good time. but you want to cry and let out your sadness. you're carrying many burdens: your mom is on hospice, your dad has to have heart surgery, you're losing your home. you want to cry but you have to wait until you're finished with your day, then you can close your bedroom door and let the tears go.