Unwanted

She was unwanted
in this world
All the love she gave
was rejected
She was discouraged
in her heart
She was hopeful
that one day
The world would accept her,
A lover would keep her,
And her loneliness would
forever abandon her

Sapphire's Letter To Arion: Finish My Story

Beloved,

If I send you my story will you finish it for me? I am weary. My hand can barely hold a pen. My story weighs me down. I am exhausted from all the characters trying to kill me. It is a scene from a battlefield! Tanks, soldiers, artillery, the field soaked in blood. Bodies everywhere! Each one an aspect of me now dead.

I'm afraid that I will be unrecognizable to you. All the goodness and purity you saw in me gone. So please Beloved finish my story. Write me a happy ending and restore me to the image you hold of me. I can't bare to live this woman I have become. Do it with urgency!

Your Darling

Dream of Jesus: My Helper

From Journal Entry 6/14/17

I am running up a flight of stairs from a demon. At the top of the staircase is Jesus. He extends his arm as to say, 'Take courage and stand with Me.' He took a stance of power and directed me to stand next to Him. He spoke no words but he conveyed to me, 'I got this.Trust and believe in Me.' I stood with Him no longer afraid.

As my court date approaches for my divorce I have been depressed, worried, and afraid. I worry about whether or not I will be able to stay in my home, my new financial responsibilities, and my children's well being. I have been praying for help, guidance, and strength. Up until I had this dream I felt completely abandoned by God. And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever. (John 14:16)

Before I fell asleep I did a meditation. It is part of my nightly routine to quiet my mind as I am lying in bed. I close my eyes and review my day. Generally I drift off to sleep during this process. Suddenly I heard a very loud knock from inside my head. It was a knock, knock, knock. My instant thought was what is my subconscious trying to tell me? Behold, I stand at the door and knock, if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him, and he with me. (Revelation 3:20)

The dream reminded me that I am not alone. Jesus is with me. He is my Helper. All I need to do is completely trust Him. Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord Your God goes with you; he will never leave you or forsake you. (Deuteronomy 31:6)

The Body The Letter

The most courageous work a man can do is use his life as a letter to God. If you open up his life and read it, the secret to eternity may be revealed. Some will recognize the words. Others will be confused. But the man who loses his life upon reading the words is the man who finds his life.

The word is the opening, the body the letter.

Letter To The Beloved: Send A Helper

Dear Beloved,

My heart has failed me. The walls around my house can not protect me from my enemies. I am hungry and fainting for thirst. Day and night I beg God to help me. He has not replied. My soul has been spoiled by the deeds of my enemies. If I have offended God then may He punish me according to my sin. I no longer have the strength to defend myself. If my house is to be brought down, I pray God does it swiftly. But may my soul live and my eyes bare witness to the injustices of my enemies. 
Pray for me Beloved. Maybe you are still in God's favor and He will hear you and send a helper to me.

With warm regards,
Me