Love's Alchemy

What draws my heart nearer to yours?  Is it this longing for you that goes unsatisfied?  This longing rises up in my chest as heat.  It consumes me.  God's love is like a furnace.  It burns all the impurities away and the hidden jewel is then revealed.  That is what this longing is doing to me.  Your love is alchemy to my heart.

Your Embrace

You embrace my Spirit
even as my words sting your Heart.
You are a willing victim
and I a hopeless fool.
Your mystery is the doing
behind my words.
You remain hidden, but in secret
it is the hiding that is drawing me in.
My Spirit knows no way around you,
so in revolt it moves through you.
I embrace your Spirit
even as your silence stings my Heart.

My Encounter with Urfa Man

From Journal Entry March 8, 2008

I was in a state of half asleep and half awake.  Something came and laid on top of me.  It was human like.  Appeared to have a big head with a prominent chin and no mouth.  I asked it what it wanted and if it was good or bad.  I got no reply.  I know it meant me harm because it felt heavy and dark.  I started singing 'Amazing Grace.'

My son had a fever that reached 105 that night.  I too had a fever. When there is sickness the veil between the visible and invisible is thin. Encounters with other beings is of a greater possibility and psychic attacks can occur.

I was shocked when on the radio show coasttocoast am, a guest had a reference to such a being with no mouth.  Linda Howe describes the being as having haunting black eyes, and sunken chin with no mouth. 

The Gobekli Tepe site in Turkey is an excavated site, carbon dated 12,000 years old and contains 30 acres of pillar circles with  around 250 pillars, each weighing 7-10 tons.  With bizarre carved creatures on the pillars, one sculpture retrieved from the site is a creature with no mouth labeled as Urfa Man. 

Reference~ www.coasttocoastam.com/gebeklitepe

Twin Souls

It sometimes happens that a man and a woman meet and instantly recognize the other half of themselves behind the eyes of each other. The eyes have been rightly called "the windows of the soul." Even their voices are familiar to each other's ears, like a remembered chord of music. These are two who immediately sense the unalterable fact that they have been- are- and must always be One; even though they might have fought against their fate for centuries and struggled in vain to escape their linked destiny. Almost at the first moment they meet and gaze upon each other their spirits rush together in joyful recognition, ignoring all convention and custom, all social rules of behavior, driven by an inner knowing too overwhelming to be denied. Inexplicably, often without a word being spoken, they know that only through each other can they hope to find wholeness- only when they're together can they both be Complete in every way.
Somehow, they feel Immortal, and they are, for this level of love can bestow the beginning knowledge of the attainment of several centuries longevity in the same flesh body on the Earth plane. A man and woman who are soul mates hardly need to speak the words "I love you," knowing as surely as they do that they must belong to each other. No man can break the tie between Twin Souls, not even themselves. Nor can any energy in the Universe. The force that created them is all powerful and indestructible.
This kind of instant magnetic attraction is often called "love at first sight," which is no accident of fate, but very real. The crossing of their paths has been predestined on a Higher Level of Awareness. Certain spiritual energies are at work to bring about their meeting. Even when the Soul Mate is at last discovered, there are often many complications and testings of worthiness which cause temporary pain. Only in continually and consistently practicing tolerance and forgiveness can the hurt be alleviated. Only the heart knows how to lead you into Union with the soul of the one you love.

Reference~ Love Signs by Linda Goodman

Gibran- My Favorite Lines

~The voice of life in me cannot reach the ear of life in you; but let us talk that we may not feel lonely.
~The significance of man is not in what he attains, but rather what he longs to attain.
~A traveller am I and a navigator, and every day I discover a new region within my soul.
~I long for eternity because there I shall meet my unwritten poems and my unpainted pictures.
~Art is a step from nature toward the Infinite.
~What might I say of a man who is torn between two women:  one weaving the hours of his waking out of his dreams; the other forming his dreams from the hours of his wakefulness?

Reference~The Collected Works of Kahlil Gibran & Gibran Love Letters

Poem- This Body

Have mercy soul-
for this body aches because of separation.
You are wise-
this body is stupefied by its desires.
It is in constant anguish.
This soul sails to heights,
where dreams are the reality-
And plays childlike in endless wonder.
This body painfully walks towards death,
and fears the unknown-
While this soul lives to create the unknown,
and rewrite the known.

My Letter To The Troops- No.3

From Journal Entry June 30, 2012

Dear Sir or Madam,

Ask yourself do you trust God?  Do you think by being faithful to your wife, God will reward you? Or by going to church every Sunday, God will keep your family safe?  This God you've created is a make believe God that you like because He makes your world feel safe and there are no uncertainties.
But what about when uncertainties do happen?  What then?  Is God punishing you when you find out your wife is dying of cancer or when your child dies in a car accident?  Your logic mind says, I've said my prayers everyday and given money to the church, why me?   These things are only suppose to happen to bad people.
We want a rational God to suit our needs.  In truth we don't trust God.  If we did we'd surrender our need to understand the horrific events in our lives.  We would instead have faith that God has a purpose behind them.  It is hard to surrender our will to His.  But when you do you open the door for divine revelation and experience God firsthand.  And the first encounter with God will drown away all doubt.  You've made a giant leap from knowledge of God to the experience of God.  And that, my friend, is the hardest step to take on your spiritual journey.
Will you plunge into the darkness of uncertainties to get to God as He really is?  Or will you let fear rule your life with a false security net?

God Bless,

Madison Michelle