The Whispers of My Mind

you know all the whispers

of my quiet mind

my mangled thoughts

broken

shattered on the floor of

an overburdened heart

i’ve been naked

all my thoughts of you

exposed

placed in the light

with deliberate intention

when you read those thoughts

and digest my words

some of my words have wounded you

and some of my words have set

that little boy that lives inside of you

free

i was never trying to hurt you

i was only trying to let you

get to know me

that is all

i think by now

you have a good grasp of who i am

i still think of you

even to this day

and if my words

are the only thing

i have to give you

may you receive them

with an open heart

always

I Will Remind You

“When you feel unseen

I will see you

When you feel unappreciated

I will celebrate your brilliance and applaud your success

When you feel unwanted

I will welcome and embrace you

When you feel unheard

I will listen to you

When you feel unloved

I will shower you with love and affection

When you feel weak and powerless

I will remind you of your inner strength

When you feel exhausted and weary

I will let you rest and recuperate

When you feel hurt and betrayed

I will give you space to heal and mend your heart

When you feel stuck and stagnant

I will empower you to regain momentum

When you make mistakes

I will celebrate your growth and progress

When you stumble and fall

I will help you recover, then rise

When you feel shame

I will remind you that no single human being is perfect 

When you feel insecure

I will remind you of your gifts, talents and strengths

When you feel strange, weird or quirky

I will embrace your uniqueness and authenticity

When you feel ugly

I will remind you of your unique beauty

When you feel like giving up

I will remind you of the reason you first began

When you feel discouraged

I will comfort and reassure you in your depths

When you feel suffocated by life

I will hold your hand through the darkness

When you feel lost

I will help you navigate through the murkiness of life

When you feel lonely

I will show up fully for you

When you doubt yourself

I will remind you of your potential

And when you feel invisible and insignificant

I will remind you who you are.”

— Tahlia Hunter 

Loneliness Wears Her

 

loneliness wears her

whispering, "you're never enough, you're never enough...

not for yourself or anyone"

it presses her down

into the darkness

where the air is thin

it's a companion

she's all too familiar with

as hard as she tries

to part ways with loneliness

its grip is tightly woven

around her bones

she use to fight it

but these days

she's just too tired to care anymore

and its constant quiet voice mocks her

challenging her to fight herself

keeps repeating those unwanted words

"you'll never be enough"

A Work of Fiction

 

in his mind

she was a work of fiction 

someone he wanted to control

in his version of her

she bent a knee

to his every demand 

without question 

that sweetheart 

is a story of manipulation 

not a love story 

My Life: The Chameleon

 

Journal Entry 1/10/2023

I'm home for two weeks because of Covid. I feel fine though. This morning I was doing Yoga and Tai Chi. While doing Tai Chi, I could feel how much lighter my energy felt. It was noticeable. It made me happy. It was like a confirmation that all the energy work I've done on myself has paid off. I have gotten rid of emotional and mental baggage. 

I remembered the first time I went to a Tai Chi class. It was during my divorce. The instructor, at the end of the class, made a comment about how my energy was heavy and encouraged me to keep doing Tai Chi. 

Then, I got this synchronicity, from an email subscription, it blew my mind!

It read like this... A very heavy energy has been released. There's a new energy of relief and revival. It is a major mental breakthrough. You are conquering a major soul lesson. The lesson is that you can be and have the right to be in control of your reality. You didn't prioritize yourself. You took whatever was in front of you without even thinking about yourself. Because you're breaking free, there are going to be brighter and better opportunities ahead of you. It's like you're clearing up a new path. No more being a chameleon for others, you can be your authentic self. 

Also, need to note here that my ex-boyfriend stopped by last week (the week before the dream). It was like a scene out of a Colleen Hoover novel (which I'm reading to bond with my 15-year-old daughter). I was in the bathtub and he was pounding on my door. It was, in my opinion, his last attempt to rectify our relationship. And yes, looking back, in order to be with him, I definitely would have become the chameleon once again!

Unyielding Love

the space

in the room

collapses

when you

are in it

it is just

you and i

unyielding 

and my vision

narrows

as the room

darkens

there is you

only you

in this room

as the space 

around us

vanishes 

The Healing Seeds of Pain

 “Don’t ever wish for another’s pain in their heart to go away. Don’t try to fix or remove it, or hurry it away. Don’t wish for them to be just happy, over it; okay.

For this pain holds essential truth for them. It holds the very seeds of the healing their soul needs, even if they don’t consciously know that themselves. At some deep unfathomable level, in a place that’s unseen and unknown, a quiet wisdom is working away, sowing the necessary seedlings for that person’s soul’s next steps.

Their pain IS the essential soil of that healing. So to wish it away or gone or over already, is to stop growth in its tracks. Everyone’s soul works on its own time. It must never be hurried or denied. Honouring this simple yet profound truth is the best type of support you can give to someone in pain. To be a solid yet soft presence in their life, holding consistent attention and love for them, is the most “doing” you ever need to offer them as they journey forward at their own pace and in their own way.”

— Angela Dunning 

[ Art • “Blue” by Agnieszka Wencka ]

The Spiritual Reality of Life on Earth

We were told we would see America come and go. In a sense, America dies from the inside out, because they have forgotten the instructions to live on Mother Earth. This is the Hopi creed, it is our creed, that if you are not spiritually connected to the Earth, and you don't understand the spiritual reality of life on Earth, chances are you are not going to make it.

Everything is spiritual, everything has one

Spirit.

We are here on Earth only a few winters, then we go to the spirit world. The spirit world is more real than most of us realize.

The spirit world is everything. Most of our body is water. To stay healthy you need to drink pure water. Water is sacred, air is sacred. Our DNA is made from the same DNA as the tree, the tree breathes what we breathe out, we need what the tree expires. So we have a common fate with the tree. We are all of the Earth, and when the Earth and its water and atmosphere are corrupted, then the Earth will create her reaction. The Mother reacts.

In the Hopi prophecy it says that storms and floods will get bigger.

For me it is not negative to know that there will be big changes. It's not negative, it's evolution. When you look at it as an Evolution, you know it's time, nothing stays the same. You should learn to plant something. This is the first connection. You should look at all things as Spirit, realize that we are family. It never ends. Everything is life and there is no end to life.

🌹🐎🌵🦅🤍🐺

- Floyd " Red Crow " Westerman, musician, actor and activist native of South Dakota.