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Life As A Twin Flame: I Will Always Miss You

  I remember the day I lost you. I remember exactly where I was and how suddenly the loss of you hit me. I was driving to work. A stupid old 80's love song was playing on the radio. I felt you in me… with me. Then the phone rang. It was Him. He said he talked to you and you denied any mutual feelings. Then you laughed it off. My heart sank in my chest. I couldn't breathe. Nothing in that moment felt real. It was a fright that shook my soul. I was on a journey with you for nearly two decades.. the same amount of time I was married to Him. You both left me, abruptly, without warning or explanation. I have always been a skeptic of love and for good reason! Always hoping that someone will love me and stick around 'til the end. Except when my destiny kindly reminds me otherwise. I may never hear from your lips the truth. I will learn, in time, to be okay with that. I have to because I have to move on from you.. my past and everything that was just temporary. I'm not go...

My Spirit Animal Visit: The Wolf

  9/14/2021 I was outside with my dog. It was around 9pm. Suddenly I see a large energetic animal walking through my yard towards me. I was startled. I watched it with intrigue as it moved closer to me. It was big!  I reflected on this encounter and my mind went to my first encounter with my spirit animal, the wolf, back in 1997. I realized that the animal I encountered was again my spirit animal, the wolf. This time, however, he was big, strong, and powerful. It's like I was being shown how he's grown into his power and how he's moving now with a sense of purpose. The wolf that I remember from twenty-plus years ago was starving and wild. It all reflects on my spiritual journey that began in my early 20's when I was starving for truth and my spirit was wild. I've tamed my spirit, learned my truth, and grown into my personal power. I'm ready for whatever is coming next in my life. It feels like I've entered a new season. The meaning below seems to coincide wi...

Missed Opportunity

  there has been moments for us under circumstances that I'm sure that the divine was behind each time i got to see you was an opportunity missed by both of us to be open, honest, real you are my heartache that I will never get over

The Mirror

Every morning You wake up And feel depressed You thought this feeling would fade by now You thought, with time, you'd move on From the heartbreak and pain You sit in front of the mirror and contemplate your inner state You know good and well You are not your feelings And your awareness of this Does not dictate how you approach your day Yes, some days are not as heavy as others Yes, you may always feel broken inside But you determine your attitude You choose if you'll smile at your reflection in the mirror And whether or not you'll do your best to find happiness In whatever good, small or big comes your way In the meantime Have a good cry and shake it off The world needs strong women like you

You Are A Whole, So Live A Whole Life

 “Do not love half lovers Do not entertain half friends  Do not indulge in works of the half talented Do not live half a life  and do not die a half death If you choose silence, then be silent When you speak, do so until you are finished Do not silence yourself to say something And do not speak to be silent If you accept, then express it bluntly Do not mask it If you refuse then be clear about it  for an ambiguous refusal is but a weak acceptance Do not accept half a solution Do not believe half truths Do not dream half a dream Do not fantasize about half hopes Half a drink will not quench your thirst Half a meal will not satiate your hunger Half the way will get you no where Half an idea will bear you no results Your other half is not the one you love It is you in another time yet in the same space It is you when you are not Half a life is a life you didn't live,  A word you have not said A smile you postponed  A love you have not had A friendship you did ...

Moving Through Pain

  I'm done looking back Having regrets Full of remorse So many tears Cried over the years Over a broken dream I gave my all And he took my all Now it's time to move forward And regain my self respect Some relationships are just broken And some will break you He almost broke my spirit And he would of won But I'm not the type Of woman to not fight back I do what ever it takes to survive I'm the type of woman That pushes forward And I learn from the past Every time making better choices Every time becoming stronger And more aware of the courageous woman I am