Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

  some of us were put on this earth to love the unloved our agenda is to illuminate the darkness and be the hand that never lets go

  “We seldom realize, for example, that our most private thoughts and emotions are not actually our own. For we think in terms of languages and images which we did not invent, but which were given to us by our society. We copy emotional reactions from our parents, learning from them that excrement is supposed to have a disgusting smell and that vomiting is supposed to be an unpleasant sensation. The dread of death is also learned from their anxieties about sickness and from their attitudes to funerals and corpses. Our social environment has this power just because we do not exist apart from a society. Society is our extended mind and body. Yet the very society from which the individual is inseparable is using its whole irresistible force to persuade the individual that he is indeed separate! Society as we now know it is therefore playing a game with self-contradictory rules.” Reference~ Alan W. Watts, The Book on the Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are

  you are my december bad habit because that's when i think about you more than usual i imagine you at my door and your beautiful face lighting up every part of my being like a christmas tree the memory of you around christmas lingers in the december air i breathe you in just as if you were here doing my damnest to touch the eternal part of you each december

  i know i can be misunderstood and bewilder you. i know that often i can be seen as someone who doesn't care. but that's not true. the truth is i feel too much and it can overwhelm me. as an empath i've learned to monitor my feelings. keeping a safe distance is what i have to do. it's also how i can help you the best. i can send you my light and love without being entangled in your emotional center. so next time you see me and i seem closed off, i'm actually listening to your pain with my body and transmuting it into a healing frequency; sending it back to your heart chakra where you can feel some relief. i'm doing what healers do to help bring a little healing to you.

  The inability to receive support from others is a trauma response. Your “I don’t need anyone, I’ll just do it all myself” conditioning is a survival tactic. And you needed it to shield your heart from abuse, neglect, betrayal, and disappointment from those who could not or would not be there for you. From the parent who was absent and abandoned you by choice or the parent who was never home from working three jobs to feed and house you. From the lovers who offered sexual intimacy but never offered a safe haven that honored your heart. From the friendships and family who ALWAYS took more than they ever gave. From all the situations when someone told you “we’re in this together” or “I got you” then abandoned you, leaving you to pick up the pieces when shit got real, leaving you to handle your part and their part, too. From all the lies and all the betrayals. You learned along the way that you just couldn’t really trust people. Or that you could trust people, but only up to a certai...

  it's fucking stupid how i measured my self-worth on whether or not you loved me i'm a fucking rare anomaly magical, mystical full of light and darkness destined for glory

  darling all you want is someone that will go to war with you someone who's not afraid to get a little bloody you've been doing it alone your whole life now you're tired so many burdens you carry so many nights spent wishing on the moon to bring you someone capable of holding your pain while you continue battling your demons and cleaning up spilled blood darling all you want is a man that is as brave as you

  Creation said: “I want to hide something from the humans until they are ready for it. It is the realization that they create their own reality.” The eagle said: “Give it to me. I will take it to the moon.” The Creator said, “No. One day they will go there and find it.” The salmon said: “I will bury it on the bottom of the ocean.” The Creator said: “No. They will go there, too.” The buffalo said: “I will bury it on the Great Plains.” The Creator said: “They will cut into the skin of the earth and find it even there.” Grandmother who lives at the breast of Mother Earth and who has no physical eyes but sees with spiritual eyes, said: “Put it inside of them.” And the Creator said: “It is done.”~ ~Creation story from the Hopi Nation, Arizona

  she stopped dead in her tracks he caught her off guard she never saw him coming and with only his eyes he traveled into her soul and lit up the space where darkness begged to be seen

  Message from White Eagle, Hopi indigenous.... “This moment humanity is going through can now be seen as a portal and as a hole. The decision to fall into the hole or go through the portal is up to you. If you repent of the problem and consume the news 24 hours a day, with little energy, nervous all the time, with pessimism, you will fall into the hole. But if you take this opportunity to look at yourself, rethink life and death, take care of yourself and others, you will cross the portal. Take care of your homes, take care of your body. Connect with your spiritual House. When you are taking care of yourselves, you are taking care of everything else. Do not lose the spiritual dimension of this crisis; have the eagle aspect from above and see the whole; see more broadly. There is a social demand in this crisis, but there is also a spiritual demand -- the two go hand in hand. Without the social dimension, we fall into fanaticism. But without the spiritual dimension, we fall into pes...

  SACRED UNION~~ When the Masculine meets the true, awakened Feminine, it arouses a new sensation in him, and activates specific levels of consciousness that demand his full attention. The awakened, whole, conscious Feminine does not act needy or desperate around the Masculine. This does not mean that she does not acknowledge her deep inner desire and sacred requirements for the Masculine presence to be in her life. She knows this better than any woman who has not yet opened up to her full powers and strengths. The awakened woman knows that the Masculine plays a vital role in her life journey, and has the ability to open her up in ways that she cannot do alone. In essence, she wants the Masculine from a searingly profound place in her Soul. But – this ‘want’ can be put on hold for years and years – decades even – if she is not being met with the kind of Masculine presence and devotion that she needs in order to serve her sacred Feminine role. When the Masculine meets the conscious ...

  living alone without a man is teaching me how to survive differently i use to give all my attention to a man always cheating myself because my needs were less important (so i told myself this lie) it's funny how life will give you what you need it's funny how free i feel to be me now that i'm alone now that i'm my priority

  Fuck silence. Speak your truth. Fuck guilt. You have NOTHING to feel bad for. Fuck shame. You're a perfect mystical unfolding. Fuck the "rules". You didn't make them, don't sacrifice yourself to fit them. Fuck starving. Feed your dreams and desires. Fuck sitting on the side lines. Get up on the stage. Fuck bowing. Put that crown on your head where it belongs. Fuck being nice when you need to rage. Fuck apologizing when you've done nothing wrong. Fuck all of it that makes you feel unworthy. Reference ~Ara Campbell

  please forgive me if it takes me longer to open up to you i've had my heart badly broken gave more of myself then i had to men who did not deserve me many times i gave forgiveness in return all i got was more lies and another bruise on my heart i wish i could give you more of myself i wish i could put your mind at ease it is going to take me longer to love you back the way you deserve so please be patient with me as i learn to trust my heart again

  i missed myself while i was with you losing myself in your dark woods the sunlight finally breaking through calling me out to be found again

  From journal Entry 10/26/2020 This morning I went out to my backyard to water the Clover I planted. A hummingbird hovered right in front of me as to say, "Hello."  Meaning Hummingbirds represent inner intelligence, new ideas, and spiritual determination. Small ideas can lead to big results. They remind us not to abandon your smaller dreams. Your ideas are spiritually influenced and will have a quicker time manifesting into the physical world. Hummingbirds represent a shift that is happening on a deeper level that is impacting your core values. As your core values start to shift, your thoughts and ideas that flow to you begin to change. Hummingbirds energy is a combination of spiritual devotion, mental agility, and physical determination to reach a goal. When these are in harmony, you can create any reality you wish. The hummingbird invites you to look at the bigger picture and see a Divine connection in everything you have done whether positive or negative. Interpretation T...

i'll never forget that day there was a downpour and the three of us decided to walk down the dirt road to the little store to buy alcohol in my mind i thought this is crazy! both of these men i love but only one washes away the dirt in my soul the rain and you made me notice how freeing it was in that moment to love the both of you and not feel guilty  

  you can't become a warrior unless you've lived through some shit and slayed your demons this road isn't for sissies it's for the badass women who aren't afraid to pick up a sword and use it

  i suffer silently most days but keeping a positive attitude and hope alive keeps me wanting to see what the next day will bring it's the unpredictably in life that motivates me to embrace things as they are knowing at any moment the impossible could happen and magic comes transforming my life

  in this fake world i'd like to believe that there are love stories with happy endings mystical creatures that fly the ethereal skies witches that cast good spells and gods balancing the scales of good and evil

  Since his death, Jesus has played a continual role throughout history. The legalization of Christianity by the Roman Empire, in A.D. 313, soon led to its expansion into every part of the Western world. Not until the Prophet Muhammad began the Islamic religion in 610 did Christianity have any meaningful competition in terms of numbers of followers. Muhammad considered Jesus a prophet and is quoted in the Quran as saying, “When Jesus came with clear signs, he said: ‘Now I have come to you with wisdom, and in order to make clear to you some of the points on which you dispute. Therefore, fear God and obey me.’” In the United States, George Washington used Christianity as a rallying point for his colonial army, saying in his First General Order to his troops, “Every officer and man will endeavor to live and act as becomes a Christian soldier defending the dearest rights and liberties of his county.” Abraham Lincoln also referred to Jesus in a wartime setting: “When I went to Gettysbur...

  sure she sins differently than you but don't judge her we all have sin at our core but what is sin? one woman's sin is another woman's virtue her sin may cleanse her soul and the same sin may dirty yours know the difference by discerning within yourself what feels right and what feels wrong after all, sin is just a label

Beloved, Long ago I forgave you. In all our past lives, I always forgive you and always I have to let you go. I've done this so often, and so often you fight with yourself for loving a woman like me. I know I am the fire that burns forcing you to feel your wounds and to know your soul. I know you must be suffering like me and the silence is killing us both. Often in my mind's eye I play out the words you would say to me. Sometimes there are no words, just silence and your gaze penetrating the thickness of the veil that hides my heart. Our souls then merging into a field beyond the human eye that only love can conceive, foster, and exploit! Then my concentration breaks and I am alone again. Tears come to remind me that what I feel for you is real. The karmic bond between us unbreakable, and yet so much left undone. I don't want to live the rest of my life without you in it. My whole life has been a steady dose of pain and then 21 years ago you gave meaning to that pain. Eve...

  If it’s meant for you, it won’t be toxic... It won’t bring out your insecurities or your fears or the worst in you because it will bring peace into your life and into your heart... If it’s meant for you, it won’t feel like a burden... You won’t have to explain to anyone why it’s not as bad as they think it is and you won’t have to go to sleep wondering if you’re lying to yourself because you’d be sure of it... You’d be sure that it’s right for you... If it’s meant for you, it won’t feel like a war... A war with yourself because you’re letting it drag on or because you can’t get out of it... A war with your friends because they can all see that you’re settling... A war with love because part of you knows that it shouldn’t be this hard... If it’s meant for you, you won’t have to constantly question if it is... You won’t have to look for signs or ask for advice or look for confirmation that it’s right. You’d just know... It will feel like home... It will make you feel safe... It wil...

i'm sure the independent brave women are killing it right now during this Covid-19 we've survived through many storms weathered abusive relationships and we are raising kids teaching them how the world really is not sugar coating it as we live our daily lives more awake than ever before we see and recognize we are the change that needs to happen and we're raising our kids to be more in tune with the inner than the outer we embrace one another and ourselves as we are but committed to healing and growing because we know that the way the world has been running can't function in chaos, deception, and greed anymore we brave women are rising to our true calling and power and growing in numbers professing: this is not a man's world anymore!!  

  i'm sure of it i loved you in another lifetime our karmic paths have criss-crossed and we meet again some call it fate but i promised you a lifetime ago i would always find you and you promised you would carry me forever in your heart and send out feelers so you could be found every heartache painstaking life event led me to you this invisible force pulling me to you i don't doubt you love me how could i with one look in your eyes and the memory of us comes rushing back like it was yesterday

  We are all fucked up on some level, We all come in with our baggage to work with and on. No human being escapes this unless they are an avatar with a different purpose. So the biggest illusion in my eyes is that we need to be perfect and if we are not then we need to forgive ourselves. Our fuck up ness is always going to surface, the difference between a spiritual warrior and one caught up in the herd illusion is self acceptance followed by conscious self observation without judgment. Without this there will always be a split between who we think we should be and who we are, we will judge others as harshly as we judge ourselves. When we simply witness we have already won because the Witness is the higher self and there will be response coming from awareness instead of reaction coming from habitual programs and self rejection. Reference~ https://www.facebook.com/sacred.dreams /

he's in love with your wildness it draws him in like a moth to a flame he sees you're courageous BOLD and living the life you've designed he knows you are his that he possesses your heart he also knows you need space and can't be led by him or anyone he's wild about you he may not show it outwardly but i assure you darling your wildness is pulling him in

  Sadness is a heavier energy, lurking just beneath all that fear. Fear keeps the sadness locked in place, by preventing us from ever addressing, honestly and authentically, the fact that we don’t want to feel our own broken hearts. It’s a defense mechanism that keeps the sadness at bay. We don’t want to open ourselves to our own sadness. Who wants to be that vulnerable? All that loss, that grief, that avalanche of sorrow? Why would we sign on for such a thing? So many times people tell me they’re afraid that if they start feeling their sadness, they’ll never stop crying. But here is a radical idea: The ability to be sad is a blessing. In our childhoods, we were taught that sadness is a sign of weakness. Remember your own childhood: Were you ever called a crybaby? Or made to feel ashamed of your tears? Did you somehow internalize the message that you were supposed to stuff those feelings, put on a brave face, chin up and all that? I’m here to tell you that if you want to release th...

  when a woman is on the verge of losing everything she's beyond desperate beyond reach she finds the strength to do the impossible she discovers a super power that allows her to carry on but not like before she does it with pure intent to not merely survive like she has been in the past but to carve a place for herself in this world she does so out of a thirst for true power after being rejected by everyone because she accepts what others could not she embraces those parts of herself and integrates them into her whole being this is the secret: love yourself deep and hard the relationship you have with yourself is the most important relationship you will ever have