New Release: Shedding the Wife

 a spiritual journey through divorce

shedding the wife
is about a spiritual journey
through divorce
with inner landscapes
of floods and fires
the storm
becomes a catalyst
to self-discovery
this book is
for all women
healing from the wounds
of betrayal, neglect, and/or abuse
and by doing the inner work
empowers us
to let go of the past
and move forward as a warrior

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Good at Pretending

i'm pretending to
forget about you
it's the only thing
that makes the pain
easier to bear
i'm pretending not to
love you
and am wondering
if on your side
of the world
if you are good at
pretending too

The Healing Power of Words

he called
to say he was sorry
i was hesitant
to even answer the phone
when i heard his words
i was in disbelief
i wanted to cry
but i didn't
i didn't want to
give him the satisfaction
that he had any power
over me
so i waited
when i was alone
and released
the flood of emotions
that kept me in bondage
for so long
each teardrop
tasted like freedom
birthing a new version of myself
that is capable of trusting someone again

Reaching In

she reached up
for help
but no one came
she reached out
and the only
hand she felt
was her own
so she pulled
herself up
and wiped
her tears
maybe no one
gave a damn
but she did
she cared enough
to put herself
back together
when it appeared
no one else did

sometimes loving yourself is enough to survive

Dream of Buddhist Temple

"Whoever can see through fear will always be safe." Lao Tzu

6/5/2018

   I'm standing in front of a beautiful Buddhist temple. I become lucid and aware that I am dreaming. I eagerly want to explore the temple. Suddenly, a black cloud approaches me and tries to enter my body. With courage I say, "I will stomp out my enemies!" I stomp my foot on the ground with authority. The cloud turns into a rag, then falls to the ground. Grey clouds form in the background and are quickly moving in. The temple is no longer visible.

   A temple represents psychological or emotional refuge. I want to find balance and recenter myself after a difficulty. The black cloud represents a lower energy mass present in my space. It is a lingering negative energy who's presence is making me aware of the negative things that I'm trying to get out of my life and that are being released. The grey clouds represent the upcoming end of depression. Also, a life ahead without much troubles.

   My divorce was finalized last summer. I still was dealing with a lot of negativity. Things have changed drastically since then, and I am in a much better head and heart space. I recently stumbled on Taoism, Teaching of the Way, and began to listen to Lao Tzu teachings on YouTube.

  In China, Buddhism and Taoism are considered identical in concepts. Some Taoism concepts:

Life is suffering only if you do not follow the Dao.

Conquer your problems instead of running away.

Make it good, don't wait for the next life.

Stay healthy so you can live a very long life.

Work with nature, not conquer or harness Nature.

Be kind, lead a simple life with as few attachments.

Be aware of the illusionary nature and fragility of status, power, beauty, wealth, etc.

Reference~ dreambible.com and quora.com/Taoism

Tao Te Ching https://youtu.be/o2UYch2JnO4

Second Chances

i remember that weekend
you showed up unexpectedly
i answered the door
wrapped up in a blanket
i was half asleep
you were in town
for the day
i closed the door
on you
out of sheer panic
how i wish now
i would of invited you in
but i was terrified of you
my heart and my mind
in disagreement
how i regret not
getting to know you better
so many opportunities missed
because i let fear overpower me
but given a second chance
i would take my time
to get to know you
we could just both agree
to keep it simple
no pressure
no expectations
no need to make plans
just embrace
what's between us
here and now