Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

this love can never die it is permanently written down but i will die of a broken heart because you never wrote back

imagine me in a position of power and influence. imagine me accomplishing all of my dreams that i said i would accomplish. imagine me better off without you in my life. imagine the look on your face when you realize my self worth. imagine the satisfaction i will feel when you realize your own error. imagine my words being shared with millions. imagine your role in my story casting you as the villain for the whole world to remember. imagine every harsh word, look, and act from you being the catalyst for everything that i shall be that you can't imagine.

Oh, Beloved, you come to me completely naked and whisper in my ear your deepest fear I looked into your eyes and held you to me your eyes reflecting in them an island in the distance I join you there and together we float away

you tell me to quiet down cause my opinions make me less beautiful but i was not made with a fire in my belly so i could be put out i was not made with a lightness on my tongue so i could be easy to swallow i was made heavy half blade and half silk difficult to forget and not easy for the mind to follow Reference~ Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur

Beloved, To ache for you Beloved is the same as aching for God. Yearning for you has become my obsession. I have immortalized you in my poetry Beloved because my grief is unbearable. I also desire to touch, as closely as I can, the bliss I felt in your immortal soul's embrace. Do you think Darling that the ache that burns in me, that my readers will recognize the same ache that burns inside of them? How long, my Love, have you waited to hear my words on your longing ears? How long have I waited Darling to look again into your eyes and see the ocean? There comes a time when a person decides to become real. Friends will fall away and even family members become strangers. God has been calling to me, whispering to my heart, " Let the assassin in. Love wants to execute you, transform you from the inside out. You will lose yourself and you will find yourself. The beloved wants to join with your soul now, not after you die." Everyday Beloved we sin, but tomorrow God cou...

I'm very curious... I'm curious about these little bugs that are crawling up my wall. Where do they come from? I'm curious as to why it's still very hot in Phoenix and it's almost November. I'm curious as to what  my kids think about throughout their day and who they will  turn out to be. I'm curious what plans God has for me after divorce. I'm curious about why time feels like it's speeding up. I'm curious how all of a sudden my face has brown spots that seemed to appear over night. I'm curious as to why he even married me and desperately wanted out of our marriage. I'm curious as to how I hate him and miss him both at the same time.  

My bent thoughts  have permanently disfigured my face My broken heart is reflected in my eyes Written all over my face is BITCH! It took millions of years for water to carve out the Grand Canyon It only took one year of bitter tasting tears to carve out a resting bitch face on mine

Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, for they could not be given you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps, then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it; live your way into the answer.  Reference~ Rainer Marie Rilke

Yes, I am waiting for you and while I sit here and wait... I am reading a book, meditating, doing yoga, walking, working, healing, looking up at the moon, indulging in a bowl of ice cream, writing my next book, cleaning my house, going to counseling, netflixing Grey's Anatomy, daydreaming, listening to Dido, Christine Perri, Ed Sheeran- over and over again. And in this space of waiting, I am making room for you.