Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

Alchemy is a path to a deep understanding of the laws at work in the Cosmos as well as within the student. The laws can be boiled down to a single statement, Dissolve and Recombine or Take Apart, Purify, and Re-assemble. All things are born, all things grow, all things die, and from death, new life arises. It is by this continuous cycle that Nature achieves Her work. In death, the old life is renewed and given fresh clothing. Death is therefore the key to life, and not it's ending. Reference~ www.innergarden.org

Beloved, I know you have the power to make my sadness die. Take any measure you deem necessary: beat it out of me, throw me in an icy cold river, starve me. What ever it takes! Don't leave until every trace of hopelessness, grief, and self pity are gone.

For over a month now I have seen the numbers 11:11 . It wasn't in my awareness to be looking for these numbers, and it became a trigger of some sort. When I first noticed the numbers I thought maybe the Universe is trying to give me a message. So I looked into the meaning behind  11:11 . My hair stood up on end and I definitely got the feeling that NOW is the time to pay attention! I see the numbers everywhere: on the television, on clocks, even saw 11:11 on a t-shirt. The last time I saw  11:11 was when I was watching a Youtube video and the woman in the video had the tattoo 11:11 . I will forget about 11:11 and that's when all of a sudden I see the numbers again. I have always tried to live in the NOW and feel that when you are PRESENT that that is when synchronicities occur. It's like your receiving a message from the Divine directly. It's amazing! Meaning of 11:11 11:11 is associated with a wake up code, a key to unlock the subcons...

We could be sweet with each other. Talk about our lives, our dreams, our troubles. When I hear a good song that reminds me of you, my insides glow. There is the Friend that enriches your life and waters your soul. His eyes alone make God's invisible world visible.

Last night I looked up at the moon. She was hanging low in the sky- big, but I only saw one half of her. She was orange like a pumpkin. I wondered if she thinks only a portion of herself is present? Or is she aware that the other half of her is with her just invisible to the naked eye? Her color was loud as to say, "Look at me world!" She had a message for me, I could read it in her mood. I stared at her for a minute and great joy filled my heart. Who knew the moon has moods.

I am like a puppet to my sadness. In His hands he holds the strings. Sometimes he tugs hard and I wail in pain. Other times it's a gentle nudge and I find myself a quiet place to weep. Once He jerked me about all at once. My mind began flooding with the promises you made and how you broke them all. I went outside and picked up the first thing I saw, a piece of wood. I then threw it with all my might at the block wall and raised my head to the full moon. I cursed your name and shouted, "Fuck You Mother Fucker!" Tears of beautiful release came pouring out.

Beloved, I keep holding on to the many images of you Darling . They help me get through my day. I had a dream you were here with me. You came up from behind me and wrapped your arms around me. I never felt so much solace and peace in my life. I felt safe in your embrace. Oh how I wish it wasn't a dream! How I wish you were more than just a phantom. But how I do draw strength from your phantom! You Darling are a mystery to me. If I could solve your mystery, there would be no more mysteries to solve. You are a fountainhead that contains all of God's secrets. If I bring you my cup will you fill it for me? All of My Affection, Sapphire

Let the goodness come My Daughter. Sit be silent in the pain. Fret not. Your days are long now and feel like eternity sheathed in darkness. The darkness will pass. There is much work being done on the inside. This is necessary. Be patient and wait for my instruction. You will hear my voice and know it is me. And when you do, you will understand your suffering. I am preparing you, take courage. Your day will come when those whom have tried to silence you will fall to their knees. I give. You just need to receive. Open your hands, turn your eyes towards me. I come to you when you least expect it. Have faith. Show mercy to those whom have betrayed you. Your struggles are coming to an end, their struggles are just beginning. Pray for them. And live your life in such a way that every moment is act of grace. Always remember I love you. ~God