My Letter To God: Doorway Of Change

Lord,

I know one season has come to an end. I know I must move forward through the doorway of change. Lord, I must confess that I am scared. Please hold my hand and stay by my side. I need to feel you with me. Please reassure me Lord that you are there. That I am not alone. For I know I can accomplish all things through you. Give me strength and courage to walk through the doorway of change.

Love, 
Me

Wedding Band

I keep your ring on
it proves to me
you did love me
If I take it off
there's that doubt
that I will ever
be loved again
This is my mind
trying to trick my heart
that I am still loved by you

Metallica

There are positive ways to deal with anger:
Karate
Shadow boxing
Writing
Screaming
Cursing
Throwing a football
Yoga
Cycling
Singing
And all of these things I can do to Metallica blaring in the background.

Your Smile

No one has ever
smiled at me
the way you smiled at me
How can I forget?
A million daydreams
have taken place
because of that smile
How your smile
has brought me 
so much joy
and so much pain
The look you gave me
spoke a thousand words
to my heart
Were you trying to
trap my heart?
Or were you trying
to remind me 
of who I really am?

Taking A Whore

Taking a whore into your bed you have joined world, flesh, and devil. You have been seduced by a woman who worships death, fears not God, and has no virtue.

A Loaded Gun

In secret I wrote
my poetry,
But now with my
husband gone,
I don't have to
write in secret anymore.

My secret life
a loaded gun-
My words splatter
and make noise.
My words the power to kill,
but I no power to die.