Sometimes you have to abandon everything you know- everything you learned. When you abandon yourself your left with no self. Self is nonexistent. The I dissolves into the Sea of One. No I has ever wanted to return to its earlier existence. The Sea of One is the allness of life. It slips through your fingers and can't be measured. Yet each drop is separate- a reflection of the One. Within each human being is a drop of the sea. If you forget this your life is nothing.