there’s a knot
of anger
that lives
inside of her
she feels its heaviness
but can't untangle it
because all her thoughts of him
are knotted in it
she's holding on to it
to remind herself
how love can betray you
she doesn't react to it
instead her body goes numb
at the sound
of his name
as she refuses
to feel anything
for a man
who did not choose her
