Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

  I had my own notion of grief. I thought it was the sad time That followed the death of someone you love. And you had to push through it To get to the other side. But I'm learning there is no other side. There is no pushing through. But rather, There is absorption. Adjustment. Acceptance. And grief is not something you complete, But rather, you endure. Grief is not a task to finish And move on, But an element of yourself- An alteration of your being. A new way of seeing. A new definition of self. ~ Gwen Flowers [Art: Linda Kristiansen: https://www.lindakristiansen.no/ ]

  i broke my own heart by loving you i thought our love was indestructible that you'd be there for me when i needed you but you weren't and i had to rethink my position on you and reevaluate the value i put on you it seems like maybe i demand to much from the people in my life that at the root of it all my values and principles are high i don't intend to lower them just to keep someone in my life i don't intend to beg either go if you want to go stay if you want to stay i'm fine with whatever you decide but will you be fine without me?

  Life can get so messy The blended family thing Hinges on all parties agreeing Schedules aligning And other inconveniences That can come out of nowhere You never plan for this to happen But here you are With someone who's already Been married and divorced twice Just as broken as you are Trying to make the best Of the situation And you realize This is life Your life Always testing your limits Now you find yourself Having to work out your kids' problems With the ex's new wife Deciding on schools And planning family trips It looks like a mess From the outside But it is coming together Like you had hoped and prayed And that's really all you can do In a world where everyone is broken And the blended family Is the new norm

  Dream from Morning of 4/29/2021: My phone is ringing. I answer it. A voice says, “Michelle.” I recognize the voice but in doubt say, “Who is this?” I know it is my twin.   Dream from 8/30/2012:   I am on my second date with my twin. We go to see a concert. It is Bon Jovi. My daughter is with me. As we walk to our seats, Bon Jovi is singing Living on a Prayer.   Your memory follows me everywhere. Just as I am starting my day with my client on April 29, I pull into her driveway and I see an Asplundn truck parked in front of her house. Five minutes later, my client wants me to run up to Starbucks to get her coffee. As I am walking to my Tahoe, one of the guys approaches me and informs me they are trimming the trees. I smile at him and say, “Just don’t block the drive. I’ll be back in 15 minutes.” I jump in my Tahoe to leave and on the radio is playing, Living on a Prayer by Bon Jovi. Now I’m thinking, what the fuck!? Your thoughts invade me....

she rises even when she's not ok she rises from the fall and never looks back she rises with the sun and the moon underneath her feet to a heighth greater than the previous setback each one reminding her of her warrior spirit that looks at pain as an advantage an opportunity to learn something new about herself so she can break barriers emotional and mental pain doesn't define her her unbreakable spirit is what does  

  sitting here looking out from the beach listening to the waves reminds me of how the ocean inside of me moves and speaks to me a language of soul sometimes turbulent anger, frustration, unrest sometimes calm peaceful, openness, clarity moments speak to me as i open up to what nature is trying to say and i dive deeper into unraveling the mysteries of my being and the secret language of the ocean