Sapphire's Poem: Hot and Cold

i still

think about you
how can i not?
you had such a profound
effect on me
and my path in life
you'll never know
how you wounded me
and at this point
i'm sure you're to scared
to ask
because that would
force you to feel
things you don't
want to feel
so you continue to
live in your ego
these days
and i constantly
change from
hot to cold
when i think
about you
funny how you have questions
but i'll never tell
unless of course
you stop hiding
behind your own pride
i'll always be
ten steps ahead of you
deal with it
but it doesn't mean
i'm not looking over
my shoulder
to make sure
you're still there
and yes darling
i am glad
you're still there