Divorce in my mind
was a dirty word. I grew up with
Christian values and therefore never conceived that I would ever go through
one. My marriage vows I took to heart, which meant to
death do you part.
But when your spouse comes to you and says he wants a divorce, you're faced
with a new reality. I couldn't force him to do marriage counseling. I couldn't
persuade him to stay when he made up his mind he was leaving.
I wish I could say it was a good divorce,
but it wasn't. I was pushed to my limits emotionally, mentally, spiritually,
and physically. It would be the greatest spiritual battle of my life. What took place
during the last two years was a period of cleansing and clearing. Friends and family that no longer served my soul expansion exited
my life. What God was doing was creating space
for new people and new opportunities to enter my life.
I started a new job, which has been very
fulfilling. I've made new friends that are
spiritually conscious and live mindfully. I've grown closer to the few friends
and family members that did stand by me. I feel like I am on the right path
that is going to take me to my desired destination. For the first time in my
life, I feel confident in my abilities to accomplish my dreams. I've learned to
just keep moving forward and not dwell on the past.
Each day I
discover a new version of myself. My struggles are shaping me and have given my
life meaning. In my pain, I've discovered new stars, explored low valleys, and
climbed mountains that I thought were impossible. The power to wake up every
day and decide who am I going to be is a gift. The allowing of the
unfolding of me is a challenge I am willing to undertake. This miracle of
loving myself unconditionally, a grace from God.
