Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

we slept in separate beds had separate lives and passed each other like roommates little talk no affection no locking eyes that said I love you inside I was dying my heart in so much pain it was apparent we were over I just wasn't ready to admit it

i have to remind myself that i am allowed to live my life it's not that i still feel married no it's the feeling that i am still controlled by a dragon if this were a fairytale i'd slay the dragon

   Divorce in my mind was a dirty word.   I grew up with Christian values and therefore never conceived that I would ever go through one. My marriage vows I took to heart, which meant to death do you part. But when your spouse comes to you and says he wants a divorce, you're faced with a new reality. I couldn't force him to do marriage counseling. I couldn't persuade him to stay when he made up his mind he was leaving.      I wish I could say it was a good divorce, but it wasn't. I was pushed to my limits emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically. It would be the greatest spiritual battle of my life. What took place during the last two years was a period of cleansing and clearing. Friends and family that no longer served my soul expansion exited my life. What God was doing was creating space for new people and new opportunities to enter my life.    I started a new job, which has been very fulfilling.   I've made new frie...

he threw the first stone my inner waters disturbed he threw a second, third, fourth and did not stop flood waters carried me away

the fact that you broke my spirit is proof that i gave you my all and you gave nothing in return

she texts me i know it's her she pretends to be him texting me through his phone i've known my ex for nearly twenty years doesn't she realize i know his style of texting? and the extent of his vocabulary? why is this woman harassing me? why is she so fixated on me? i think how pathetic doesn't she have anything more meaningful to do with her time? where's the freakshow emoji when you want it?

just when you think you're one up in this game of life, you have to start all over again and strategize your next move. you don't give up. you just keep trying different methods until you get the results you want. something will have to happen because you are determined and you believe in yourself. one day, you'll crack the code to life; and love, abundance, and sweet rewards will be gifted to you. not because someone gave these things to you, but because you gave them to yourself.

a few exchanges back and forth and we were united in thought the stars dazzle inside of me just imagining the many ways i could be united to him

From Journal Entry 10/17/2014    A woman comes to me in my dream and delivers two messages to me, one of hope and the other a warning. She says, "There are a few on earth now that are the Living Word. Things are happening fast now and we will see it before we die." 12 messages given to St. Padre Pio by Jesus about the end of the world. 1. The world is walking in ruins. Men have abandoned the right path to venture on roads that end in the desert of violence … If they do not drink from the source of humility, charity and love, it will be a catastrophe. 2. Terrible things will come. I can no longer intercede for men. Divine piety is about to end. Man had been created to love life, and ended up destroying life … 3. When the world was entrusted to man, it was a garden. Man has turned it into an atmosphere full of poisons. Nothing now serves to purify the house of man. A deep work is necessary, which can only come from heaven. 4. Prepare to live three days in total ...