The August Reason

Oh, give me a reason-
reason to not torture
Others or myself with
the infractions of my mind
I am not sound of 
mind, body, or spirit
I am irrational, irate, deranged
Oh, how unjust this world is
and how fictional
The next one becomes 

If I do abandon
all hope for sanity's sake-
Will my heart have rest,
Or will I always long
for truth of the August reason?