Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

I am time traveling through this landscape of my heart. My past in ruins, my present unfolding, my future in reach. All of these paths -intertwine- and all of them lead me back to you.

Between this awkward transition between you and I, I must say: your courage has found you, your clarity has defined you, and your good looks only add to my desperate need to be near you.

My grandma, I called Grandma T from the very beginning. She said that I wasn't able to say Theresa. Growing up I never saw her with a man. My grandfather had passed away before I was born. She remained a widow for 20 years. I felt quite sad that she didn't have anyone, but I now realize that she did- she had Jesus.  Visiting her home was very humbling. She often had soup on the stove, her bible on the table, and her crochet needles and yarn by her rocking chair. Her house was always cold because she lived on a very tight budget. Any time I left her house she would say to me, "Always remember Jesus loves you."   Grandma T's Praying Hands Her Christmas gifts were always something she had made by hand. As a child I did not appreciate her gifts, and often buried them in a drawer and forgot about them completely. Even at the end of her days in a nursing home, she kept her hands busy. She did ceramics and crafted many praying hands. The hands that she gifted m...

In my thoughts, I adore you. In my heart, I love you. In my will, I surrender to you. There is no desire above the desire to beseech your mercy, grace, and affection.

From the shamanic perspective when we can't forgive someone, we are stealing part of his or her soul. It is as though we hold on to a part of their essence. The tricky part about this is that we cannot force ourselves to forgive someone. Forgiveness is something that happens; it is not something we do. But we can set our intention to finding a way for forgiveness to happen so that both parties are set free from each other. As we put our attention to the task, we create an energy where forgiveness can slowly begin to happen. Reference~ Awakening To The Spirit World, Sandra Ingerman

I dive deeper and deeper into my subconscious to find buried memories of you. I explore this territory with an open mind engaged consciously in the process of self discovery. How I proceed is by carefully placing my emotions in a part of my awareness that does not interfere with my findings. Then, safely I can identify the cause but be detached from the emotions behind the memory. Because from a Higher perspective the soul does not associate with pain. It's viewpoint is viewed from a perspective of love . And tenderly I can embrace the memory, then I am able to consciously release the pain.