Madison Meadows Spiritual Blog: A Journey into Mysticism, Dreams, Twin Flames, & Healing

The more bills a woman pays by herself, the less attractive men become to her...not because she’s lost her desire for partnership, but because she’s grown tired of shouldering the weight alone. Every bill paid without help is a reminder that the kind of support and teamwork she hoped for isn’t there. It chips away at her hope for a partnership where burdens are shared, where love means showing up not just in words but in action. When a woman carries her financial responsibilities solo, she learns to rely on herself in ways she never thought she would. She builds resilience, independence, and a fierce determination to create the life she wants without waiting for anyone to catch up. But with every step she takes alone, the idea of depending on a man loses its appeal. Why invite someone in when you already handle the heavy lifting? Why lower her standards when she knows what it means to be strong on her own? Men become less attractive because she’s no longer looking for someone to simply...

A thousand cuts inflicted on myself for your one Pain being the only true measurement  Of what was real  And yet so much remains unknown I may never know if you felt pain Pain of loving  The pain of remembering  And the pain of losing me But I did  And still do for you What has changed  Is that another love Has stepped in Taken your place Your memory still in me But no longer consumes me Sometimes I wonder If you sent him to me Because it was the only act of love You could do for me How strange love is It binds me to you And now to him Our fates all sealed And joined

1. True Intimacy Requires Emotional Presence Being emotionally present means fully experiencing and expressing your emotions in the moment, without suppression or distraction. True intimacy flourishes when we allow ourselves to be seen as we truly are. 2. Vulnerability is Strength, Not Weakness Many people fear vulnerability because they associate it with weakness. However, being vulnerable—openly expressing fears, desires, and insecurities—builds trust and deepens relationships. 3. Emotional Avoidance Blocks Intimacy When we suppress difficult emotions or avoid deep conversations, we create distance in our relationships. Facing emotions, even the painful ones, is key to fostering true connection. 4. Self-Intimacy is the Foundation of Relationship Intimacy Before we can form deep connections with others, we must first cultivate a deep understanding and acceptance of ourselves. Emotional intimacy begins with self-awareness and self-compassion. 5. Healing Old Wounds Creates Space for Lov...

From Journal Entry 11/21/24 I had a dream right after I met my boyfriend. In the dream, I cancelled my wedding. A big box of gifts arrived from my uncle and my cousin. I forgot to tell them I cancelled the wedding, and don't know if I should return the gifts. In the dream, I was going to marry Michael Jackson. I was very content with my decision. I was not upset.  Cancelling a wedding in a dream often reflects a change in commitment or a major decision being reconsidered. Since this happened after meeting my boyfriend, it could reflect an unconscious shift—maybe letting go of past expectations or imagined futures. It might represent the part of me that is opening up to something new (my current relationship) and moving away from a previous internal plan or idea of the future. Gifts in dreams often symbolize emotional support, inherited values, or blessings from my family. Forgetting to tell my uncle and cousin  could point to some tension about how my changing path (perhaps ...

" The truth is, you don’t love the same way twice. You don’t give the same parts of yourself to everyone, and you won’t. Some people will meet parts of you that someone hasn’t, and that some never will. It’s the beauty of connection, you will never share the same love twice. Some will peel away the layers to reveal your vulnerability, others will strengthen the walls you built. Some will be fleeting, others will linger in your heart. But ultimately, no one will imprint you the same or hold the same weight. Each love leaves an authentic mark, a lesson learned, or a truth revealed. Some teach you how to trust again, others remind you why you needed to protect your heart in the first place. Some will make you feel seen, others make you feel invisible. It’s not until you truly see yourself, you truly value every love that passes through without being bitter about goodbyes that come with some. Every love has a way of teaching you, breaking you, and shaping you into someone new. Someone...

From Journal Entry  6/14/2025 I open a holy book. There's a verse that catches my eye that reads, "Stop thy! The America devil land." This dream is spiritual and therefore a warning to America. It is a call to our nation for repentance. For us to stop and turn back towards God. We, as a nation, are on a path of self destruction. If we don't stop our moral decay judgment will follow.   Devil land refers to how we have embraced evil. When mankind forgets God he then must face judgment.  We are a nation that can be likened to Babylon.  We must abandon our wicked ways and turn towards righteousness.  What could punishment look like for our nation? It could come in the form of economic collapse, moral decay, famine, disease, or natural disasters.  In short, God is warning us that our time is short. Turn away from your wicked ways.  Repent. For the time is near for judgment.   Remember God is a merciful God. He longs for us to come home, and in doi...

Women with absent fathers often become beggars for love, safety, and security. It’s heartbreaking how deeply they invest themselves in others, hoping that their love will be returned, hoping to finally feel chosen, protected, and seen. They carry a silent ache—an invisible wound that whispers....Maybe if I give more, they’ll stay. Maybe if I’m good enough, they’ll love me. This voice doesn’t come from who they are today, but from the little girl inside them who kept looking out the window, waiting for someone who never came. Their love becomes a currency—they trade affection, loyalty, and even their own boundaries just to feel held. They over-give, over-function, and over-apologize, hoping that one day, someone will finally choose to stay without conditions. The absence of a father doesn’t just leave a physical void—it creates emotional gaps that women often try to fill with partners, friends, or even strangers. But what’s missing isn’t just a person—it’s the early belief that they are...

One day, you’ll come to understand that some people are simply one of a kind. They don’t come around twice. They can’t be replaced. And once they’re gone, no one else will feel quite the same. We live in a world that celebrates moving on like people are easily swapped out, like connections are disposable. But the truth is, certain bonds leave a mark on your soul. They saw you, understood you, brought out something no one else could. Losing that kind of person isn’t just about losing them it’s losing a part of yourself that only existed in their presence. Sometimes, we hurt those closest to us. Not because they deserved it, but because we didn’t know how to hold their love properly. We assume they’ll always forgive, always come back, but not everyone waits. Not everyone gives endless chances. Some walk away silently, carrying their hurt in quiet dignity, and by the time you realize what they meant to you, their absence has already become permanent. You’ll search for pieces of them in ot...